Trying for a baby (12+ M/not straightforward)

ginvzt

ginvzt wrote: »

Oh, and the best - I think we will definitely be moving the house this time. We saw a very lovely one last night, but don't want to make a decision until we see the one we have arranged the viewing for this Sunday - it is in such a lovely area (we wanted to buy a house in that road and we lost it in bidding war - we were gutted and the wounds just started to heal, and that was 8 months ago!!!!!), but it looks lovely from outside, but there are no photos of inside, so we can't know anything until we see it!!!!! I so want to move, I really don't like this 'coach house' we are living in now!!!

I can't believe what is happening - sorry, nothing to do with ttc, but the house we fell in love with in that post above and lost in bidding war just came up for rent. It is a bit above the budget we set, but I have been crying my eyes out for the last hour, as I can't believe this is happening again - I only thrown away the sales brochure for it yesterday!!!! In my mind and in my heart no other house compares to it...

I am on CD 10, but don't feel like bding at all - just want to hug my pillow and cry...

Somnium

JoJo77 wrote: »

Jiblets, I was terrieifed about our first appontment and the scans I had done. Part of me wanted them to find out something was wrong so they could fix it and then we could have a baby. Apart from having to sit in the same waiting room as all the pregnant couples going for their 12 week scans it was all ok, and everyone was really nice. Try to think of any questions you might have and write them done now so if you're really flustered you won't forget them. Good luck.

They didn't find anything wrong with me so I was lucky in a way. What frightens me most now is our meeting on Monday with the specialist as I think we may now have to make a decision about going for IVF or ICSI and I'm not sure I feel ready.

Don't Panic!

The specialist will give you all the info you need to make a descision if one is necessary, to be honest the treatment will probably depend on your circumstance. But I know where your coming from having already been through all this(nothing wrong with me either), thankgod I didn't have a waiting room full of mums to be though that would hurt.


ginvzt - sorry to hear about the house it really sux!

liloandstitch

Hi to you all and good luck for all the appointments next week. I have been called in early for my laparoscopy and biopsy, which is great. Hopefully I will find out while I am in that the biopsy of the lymph nodes is free of cancer, and get the go ahead for the tracelectomy in March. Its s*ds law that since I had the initial biopsy, my cycle has gone back to 28 days and I am now producing a lake of EWCM each month - I am obviously currently ovulating and could swim in it. Im not sure if this is because I have stopped TTC or cos the tumour has been removed?? There may be a lesson there in removing the stress of TTC - dont know? On a slightly different tangent, readng the news today about Jade Goody is a very sobering thought - there but for the grace of god .......... At 27 and with her two small children I could cry a bucket of tears for her, but that may be cos of my own circs.

Anyhow wont be posting til the middle of the week and just wanted to wish you all the best whilst I am gone, and and hope that someone gets a BFP before I get back - please - just a little one!!!!!!!!!!

Lilo

Bunnie1982

Hi ladies, hope you are all doing well.

Have my internal ultrasound at 4:20pm on Wednesday which I am really nervous about, my work arn't exactly being the most understanding about things. I booked a day off for my HSG test as the actual test is at 8:45 in the morning (on Monday 23rd), I probably could go into work afterwards but I don't know how I'm going to feel.

Have got all my blood tests out of the way which I am thrilled about as I am terrified of needles, the day 21 test was awful and they really butchered me, however the day 2 test wasn't too bad and didn't even mark my arm.

Feel a little bit isolated in terms of who I can talk to, have not told my parents or DH's parents as we both feel they would tell us we're being silly in going for tests, also DH parents would tell the rest of the family and tbh its not something I want them all knowing.

gymfiend

Good luck Lilo - things sound positive re: the ewcm Will be keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Bunnies - try not to worry too much about the internal ultrasound, I had one about 3 months ago, it really wasn't so bad. I was sat in the same room with expectant mothers, on my lonesome...horrible, but I think better than being with OH as I can control my emotions if I'm alone. The actual ultrasound was ok though...just be sure to take spare knickers, I made the mistake of not bothering!

I agree with the isolation...I've told my mum [my dad's not much of a talker] & OH thinks I ought to share with his family. TBH I'd rather shoot myself between the eyes than discuss with them...1/ I don't see what business it is of theirs, they're not going to be of any help like my mum is, and 2/ I see this as my issue presently, I'm the one with the tumour & other issues...not him, so I will tell who I want when I want. Maybe I'm selfish...in fact, re-reading that, yes, I am selfish!! I just think it's so much easier to talk to faceless people about something so emotional.... My mum's quite a hard person so when I tell her she won't get emotional and pity me, she'll give me the hard facts and remind me of the many things I'm to be grateful for...which is what I need. OH told his mum on the phone the other day that the tumour was bigger than anticipated and it wasn't a great hospital visit, and her reaction was to promptly burst in to tears and pity me...not what I need when I'm trying so hard to hold it together! Hence I'm here all the time pouring out

Isn't Jade Goody's story awful? I feel completely heart broken for her...poor girl.

On to possibly positive news...I'm symptom spotting, got no idea when I ov'd - I'm on CD 20 today, am guessing it was around CD 12-14 [though actually, it could have been any time at all!!], and for the last 2 days I've had weird stomach cramps, keep thinking I need the toilet [sorry, tmi!!!] but I don't, it's very deep inside too...hmm, could be something? Here's hoping anyway..!

Good luck with the house hunt ginvzt, how annoying that you lost out & they're putting it up for rent...hopefully nobody will rent it & it'll come back on to the market

Hope everyone had a nice Valentines day? We didn't get up to much...better half made dinner [it was gorgeous!] & we watched a couple of films, last one we watched was P.S. I Love You, had me shedding a tear - so not like me!! Today I seem to have flared up with some nasty allergy, eyes are all red and nose is streaming...sneezing constantly too, eurg.

Anyway I'm going off on a tangent now Better get on with packing up all my eBay sales for the weekend before I spend the whole day on here.

Good luck everyone who needs it this week - will be thinking of everyone

xxx

ginvzt

gymfiend wrote: »

Hope everyone had a nice Valentines day? We didn't get up to much...better half made dinner [it was gorgeous!] & we watched a couple of films, last one we watched was P.S. I Love You, had me shedding a tear - so not like me!! Today I seem to have flared up with some nasty allergy, eyes are all red and nose is streaming...sneezing constantly too, eurg.

Well, we viewed the house. I still love it and nothing else compares - OH is having a hard time to persuade me that the house is not that good!!!! I can see our monthly spending increasing by £100 to pay higher rent!

I agree about 'P.S. I love you'. It is a nice movie. I have read the book first over Christmas, and I was crying my eyes out every time I picked it up. But I couldn't put it down either - so I was there sitting at OH parents in our small room, reading a book and hugging a box of tissues!!! He was asking what is wrong, and I was just saying it is the book. Once we saw the movie, we were both in tears!!!!! I also think book was better. (probably because I read it first)

jiblets1

If anyone's after tears (which I am quite often to release all the emotion from this rollercoaster) then the notebook is one to watch. Always gets the men too.

OH and I had a really good talk today. My mother rang me to let me know that a family friend is pregnant. She lost a baby a few months back and I was very worried about her because she'd had an abortion when she was 18 and was adamant god would punish her. My friend's father was concerned that I would be upset that she had "beaten" me, but I am genuinely really happy for her (not too much jealousy this time).
My OH then had a bit of a mental flip out - saying irrational things about my and her's friendship etc. It turns out that although he's been stressy for a while, I'd attributed it to the inspection he's got coming up in work, but actually he's really wound up about this first consultation we've got on wednesday. I'm encouraging to ring his mother to talk about it when she gets home, as at the moment I think we're on a little bit of looking after ourselves. I can sort of deal with my own emotions and keep them in check, but I've not got the extra energy and resilience to deal with his too. I actually feel really guilty about this, like I'm not doing my wifely duties, but he's not an easy one to help and there's no point in both of us losing it. My OH either keeps all his thoughts in, or he just picks one at random from all the ones whirling round his head and blurts that one out.
So i've decided on a bit of selfish self preservation for the moment and am getting oh's mam on the case. she's been excellent while we've been trying and hasn't even asked us about it even though we told her early on. i only realised she hadn't been asking him about it a month or so ago when i mentioned the appointment - she hadn't a clue about it because he's not been talking! bless her heart, it must have been really hard for her to keep her curiosity in check about it. so i think (hope) she'll be pleased to be brought into the loop too.

this has turned into a really long post, but i'm just figuring my thoughts out i guess (why isn't my husband on a forum somewhere to sort HIMself out). i can't wait for this appointment to come and go now, waiting for it is just too much stress.

AnnieM_3

Bunnie1982 wrote: »

Hi ladies, hope you are all doing well.

Have my internal ultrasound at 4:20pm on Wednesday which I am really nervous about, my work arn't exactly being the most understanding about things. I booked a day off for my HSG test as the actual test is at 8:45 in the morning (on Monday 23rd), I probably could go into work afterwards but I don't know how I'm going to feel.

Have got all my blood tests out of the way which I am thrilled about as I am terrified of needles, the day 21 test was awful and they really butchered me, however the day 2 test wasn't too bad and didn't even mark my arm.

Feel a little bit isolated in terms of who I can talk to, have not told my parents or DH's parents as we both feel they would tell us we're being silly in going for tests, also DH parents would tell the rest of the family and tbh its not something I want them all knowing.

Good luck for the test!

I still have a bruise from my day 21 test too Just waiting for my result...

I can understand about being unwilling to tell parents about going for tests - I told my mum, but only because I wanted to ask her if she had any problems conceiving. I know we could tell our families, but we just feel like it's very personal - maybe if it got to the point where we were having treatment we might feel different.

Jiblets - I hope the appointment goes well for you.

I'm cd 8 today, and had a dip in BBT yesterday (not a big one, but a definite dip), so FF keeps putting up info tidbits about implantation dips. I feel really hopeful this month, though I don't really know why. It's probably just my imagination running away with me

I've not been posting much this cycle - I feel a bit battle-worn, and have been working hard, so I haven't felt like doing much beyond keeping my chart up to date. Hope everyone's ok!

AnnieM x

pa2539

Bunnie1982 wrote: »

Hi ladies, hope you are all doing well.

Have my internal ultrasound at 4:20pm on Wednesday which I am really nervous about, my work arn't exactly being the most understanding about things. I booked a day off for my HSG test as the actual test is at 8:45 in the morning (on Monday 23rd), I probably could go into work afterwards but I don't know how I'm going to feel.

Have got all my blood tests out of the way which I am thrilled about as I am terrified of needles, the day 21 test was awful and they really butchered me, however the day 2 test wasn't too bad and didn't even mark my arm.

Feel a little bit isolated in terms of who I can talk to, have not told my parents or DH's parents as we both feel they would tell us we're being silly in going for tests, also DH parents would tell the rest of the family and tbh its not something I want them all knowing.

I think you have probably done the correct thing booking the day off after having the HSG. It's not the nicest thing and I have severe cramps after. Having a nice bath and water bottle will help though. I had an internal unltrasound and it was very similar to a smear test but probably less pain. I had a normal ultrasound and they couldn't find anything wrong and then they did the internal one and counted the pods on each side. This showed them that I had PCOS as there were more pods on one side. I can't remember the exact number but at least then I knew why this was happening.

Me and DH are in exactly the same situation,. My argument is that it's no-one elses business and as they have had no problems then they wouldn't understand. The only people who know are myself and DH and my manager as I needed 2 days off for the operation so couldn't exactly fob him off with other excuses.

I go to the head poncho tomorrow so hopefully may get some more information on what happens next. Fingers crossed for everyone.

myaccount08

Just popping in to say don't worry about the internal scans. Mine never bothered me at all, it's no biggy and doesn't take very long either. They give you something to cover up with and just do their thing, it isn't painful or uncomfortable or problematic in anyway. I also never came across any pregnant women with mine, although to be honest i wouldn't notice if there were since they do abdominal u/s with women after 8 weeks so there's no bumps or anything obvious to rub it in your face!

I'm shocked by Jade's news too, i suppose i just subconsciously assumed she would be ok because she's young. Sounds like it was there a long time though because of her other symptoms. In the states they have pap's annually, so every 3 years for us does sound abit careless.

Hope everyone has a good week..