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Suggs

wendyw1947 wrote: »

suggs, say my name quietly please, bit of a thick head here,nothing to do with the wine of course [well it was all free] and you don't like to be unsociable do you , cos I'm a very sociable person it would have been rude to refuse , but oooooh my head

Sshh Wendy you sound like me last Sunday, muzzy head as I call it, now go suck a fishermans friend

Lemon_Drop_2

Hi again

Yes katiepoppycat I am a horsey sort of person - never had my own though. I ride whenever body/budget allow. Went yesterday though and fell off whilst cantering through a field. Not sure what happened, horse just seemed to drop his head and I rolled of the side and landed on my back. Ended up in A&E, but I don't think any major damage has been done, just sore and bruised - must have been all the padding on my backside that saved me! Who said exercise was good for you?:rotfl: Anyway, I'll take it really easy this week - just the thought of sitting on my bike saddle makes me cringe at the moment, and I'm back to hobbling round the house! Will book a private lesson before I go hacking again. I'm just annoyed that I fell off when I did - there just didn't seem to be any good reason :mad: .

I found this group on the web who do jousting courses, http://www.knightsofmiddleengland.co.uk/. Looks fun but it is expensive (£200/day:eek: ) I would like to be much slimmer and fitter than now though so its definitely something to work towards! This is the only course I can find, so if you know of any others kpc, please point me in their direction. Any more info would be much appreciated. If anyone knows anything about horseback archery then please let me know too. (Archery is another of my pastimes!)

Too sore to drive or walk to hairdresser, so hair will have to wait. OH is taking me out for a meal tonight:j , such a rare occurrence, I'm going to make the most of it .... mmm carbs, mmmm, chocolate fudge cake mmmm. I know its bad but I will be back on track at the weekend again. I'm so far ahead with my personal goals that I'm sure I can deal with one night. I'm expecting it to take a week to undo, but thats OK. Perhaps its best to wait for hairdo until I'm back on track!

Ajax, thanks for the link - I was nerdy enough to read it

missyg Go Ape is like a forest based assault course with rope bridges, high wires, zip slides etc. Again, I feel like I need to get fitness levels up to make the most of it, but perhaps once I get down to 12st ish. It might be a nice idea for you to go with your son one day, they have places all over the country, (I think minimum age is 10 though). Its not cheap either (but nowhere near as hellish as jousting!!!)

Erlqueen_2

Afternoon,

All caught up on the thread (well since yesterday - I've given up on reading back the last couple of weeks :rotfl: ). Seems the sunshine has brought back a few of us 'giveruppers' so hello again Kat and Annie (bye again Kat as well )

I slipped a little last night as well. There were sandwiches to be had so I didn't resist. Bread is the absolute worse thing I could indulge in and I cave in every couple of days. Still as it's a nice long weekend I fully intend to be strong and I'll not be having any more until next Thursday at the very earliest. All I need do is bear in mind that bread is my 'treat' and I'll be fine!

Hope everyone has a fabulous 'I'm not gonna beat myself up if I cheat a little' weekend.

katiepoppycat

lemon drop, have pm'd you on the jousting thing. where are you based? cos one of hte groups i pm'd you about is at theevent i'm doing this weekend . . . in the rain apparently. again waaaaah! rain is v bad - the wife of one of our members isn't reall keen on re-enactment but she's going along with it and trying. Trouble is, she hates it when the weather is bad and has had a reallybad time of it lately - to the point where she just doesn't want to go. This could be a problem!

bails

Hi peeps!

Suggs, I refer you back to Ajax's comment a few pages back, which went along the lines of 'if only I could have the time back that I wasted trying to work out *insert unfathomable WL issue*' :grouphug: Concentrate on those fab muscle stats instead!

Experiment update: NB just to say to everyone, and especially any newbies, this is entirely about my own personal journey and bears no reflection on what anyone on here chooses to do; I am simply experimenting with a new path for myself, knowing that I have the support of you lovely peeps there if I need it xx

I weighed on Wednesday, not sure why just woke up and thought I would (and I needed to at some point for this experiment.) I haven't mentioned it before because I wanted to see how I felt about the result ie if how I initially felt changed over time. It turns out that I have STS, to the exact figure! (And my measurements are exactly the same too.) More importantly, I feel completely NOTHING about this :rotfl:Before I got on the scales I steeled myself for the possibility of having put on everything I'd lost (and perhaps more), as I figured a whole lifetime of weighing and the emotional rollercoaster that goes with it wouldn't just disappear and I might well feel upset/frustrated/angry/*insert own negative emotion*. It simply didn't happen, not then nor since; I just don't feel anything about it. I know you peeps can appreciate how surreal this feels!:D
Whilst I haven't been weighing I have eaten whatever I've wanted (and a lot more besides if I'm honest - you would be horrified probably!). My exercise has increased a little but nowhere near enough to compensate (go figure that one eh Suggs ). More bizarrely, since I have stopped weighing: I have had several comments about losing more weight and how great I look (even from OH); I went down a trouser size; I feel GREAT!
What I've taken from this is a) how much better, freer, happier I feel not weighing b) confidence that my body can maintain without me constantly checking what it's doing (even when in panic eating mode) c) it's just a number!
For me, I think no longer weighing (except for the benefit of this experiment) is simply a huge release from what has been a difficult relationship with food/body image/self-esteem. The scales no longer tell me whether I should feel good or bad about myself and I am defined by who I am not what I weigh/look like. In our society, I think that's a pretty big accomplishment! I wear different clothes, walk differently, have more confidence, am more outgoing etc etc. I was even told I was incredibly sexy the other day, not by my OH And I still look exactly the same as that girl in the bikini! Of course these changes haven't been an overnight thing but a long process that has allowed me to discard the scales.
I would still like to lose some fat for medical reasons and I hope that this will naturally happen as my body recovers. I guess that's the next stage of my experiment, one I feel will be a longterm one (ie as long as my recovery takes).
I'm aware that this may seem like a failure to some of you - after all, I'm overweight (nay, obese on 'The Charts' eh BB ) and I haven't lost any weight. I understand that and yet I feel quite differently about it. I'm in this for the long haul - oh, say, the rest of my life? - so I'm willing to play the long game (a favourite phrase of mine at the mo if you've read my blog, but very apt). I've spent a good 25+ years having a negative relationship with food (I don't ever remember a time it wasn't like that) so it makes sense that it'll take me quite a long time to right that, especially with a debilitating illness on top. The point is, I now trust in myself enough to believe that it will happen. I've known I could achieve many other things in life and yet this is the first time I've ever felt that I could have a positive and balanced view on all this 'WL stuff.'

I am the same person on the outside and yet such a different person on the inside :j

Thanks for letting me babble, and I hope my honesty can help all of us in some way xx

purplecatlover

aww kpc i was hoping this was your weekend at rufford abbey, think im maybe going there for a wander one day over the weekend.

i forgot to come weigh in for the chart, but i gained again, meh, hopefully its muscles though, had to switch to heavier weights at the gym a few weeks ago becuse the yellow ones vanished and my arms really dont like it. by the time it gets to friday they are knackered. so im comforting myself that the increased weight is muscle.

noodles, i have been known to eat only have a pack of them instant ones at a time. but im also someone who is stuffed after a happy meal.

efrieze

Thanks bails. I was so interested to know what was happening under the surface whilst you 'listened to yourself'. Good for you for feeling a lot better about yourself and your confidence has increased. You asked me how I was getting on the the book you recommended (Perfect Girls, Starving Daughters) - I have just got back into it after a break and it is very interesting and very relevant. It is so difficult growing up learning to appreiciate who you are as compared to the role models that are put in front of us these days. That said, I don't think that any of what I am reading (or what you have done) will change my approach to life (or myself) but perhaps it will rub off on me and affect how I raise my daughter.

Anyway, back to you, good for you for feeling like your relationship with food is improving.

efrieze

purplecatlover - do you want to declare your gain so that the chart is correct? If not, that's fine.

bails

Thanks Efrieze. I never thought it possible either so don't write it off...being open to an idea is sometimes all it takes I've learnt x

efrieze

I actually believe that when it comes to exercise. I am open to trying to achieve all sorts of things that I NEVER thought I would even attempt. 'I can't do it' is something in your head, not always a physical restriction (although obviously there are some exceptions)