Mooloo's struggle with babies and bills

Savvy_sewing

Twin 2 has woken up, and come down now. She just made me a cup of tea, and asked me if she was as bad as her sister. Too be honest no she is not, but she still has a long way to go. I have just told her that I think that perhaps its time for her and her sister to go into a mother and baby unit, and be assessed seperately, that its not that I have given up on her, its just that I am unable to cope anymore. She just sort of said ok, and that she was going to tidy up the sitting room. BBJ is playing with the walker, playmobile stuff in front of him. Just gave me the biggest smile and laugh.

Keeping_Motivated

Mooloo do you feel that your grandchildren are at risk? Then you have not doomed the twins, if the babies are taken, you have kept your grandchildren safe.

I might believe in fairy tales but maybe a REAL shock of the babies being taken away will shock the twins so much enough to change enough to get the babies back?

Savvy_sewing

I have been trying to ring the doctors but keep getting the answer machine. Will try again after the world and his dog has rung. i.e. when I have drunk this cup of tea. Trying to calm myself down, and to get my self sorted out. Oh and stop blubbering. Good job I touch type, (ish) cos I cant see the screen much nevermind the keyboard. Doesnt help that I still havent got to grips with this bifocal glasses.

Keeping_Motivated

Look on the net too for counselling services, some are free or just want a token donation.

Savvy_sewing

Problem with taking babies away, its a lot harder to get them back!!. They need to be independantly assessed and living here with me and each other is not doing that. It is only me that can see that twin2 is more able than twin1, and yet its her baby that was on the at risk register.
I am not sure what catagory the risk would be, as I think the mothers do love thier babies, I just believe that the mess and the lack of routine are the risk. Babies need a safe environment and not the mess, and they need routine to eat and to sleep, as then cant tell us what they need. So yes I suppose if left to her own devices would either mum actually be baby aware?

Savvy_sewing

The last time I wanted some councilling, after the breakdown in the 90's it took the NHS a year to come up with it!! So I wont hold my breath.!
This lady at the social that I spoke to has said she will speak to her supervisor and she will come back to me today. I have decided that I will ring them every day until something is done. No matter if I am having a good day or not. It shouldnt have to be when I am at breaking point that they decide to act.
I see the signs mounting of my loosing the plot. Thats why I took the time off of work. I can only manage two days this week though. So I have 48 hours to get my head sorted out enough to function again. Mini breakdown rules from Down with Superwoman may just have to apply. Now wher is that tatty old book that has helped me through the last 19 or so years!.
Thanks for the thoughts everyone. At least I dont feel alone and typing on here is a good therapy. It helps me to get my head around things a bit more.

Savvy_sewing

Having said all that I am still struggling with the tears running down my face!. I cant help but feel quilty.
Now I better go and have a shower, and make myself presentable. As I will frighten off the world in my dressinggown. (That bad I cant even find the proper belt for it today!!).
Then I will have copious amounts of tea and make a list of what I can do, what I cant do, what is urgent and what is not so.
The lady just rang me back and said that I need to ring an 0845 number to refer Twin1 and BGP as they are not registered with them, only twin2 and BBJ are. So perhaps I better put that on the top of the list.

Savvy_sewing

My doctor is away until next tuesday so I cant see a doctor, they have only two doctors on as one has rung in sick, so only emergencies being allowed. So another week to wait.

MiniLaura

Maybe you should push for the emergency appointment - it certainly sounds like you need it?

Savvy_sewing

I woud rather speak to a doctor that I know, and who I spoke to already about this matter, there is supposed to be a social worker helper here at lunchtime, so I will also tell her what I am going through. I am now awaiting for twin1 to get back to the house.