The Best View Comes After the Hardest Climb.

warby68

Balance is great, more bunnies not so much

grandmanerd

You need to watch Con Air again - "Step away from the bunny".  Hugs buffy. Consider if you are using the animals to prevent you from worrying/ working on other parts of your life. I know you get satisfaction from the animals but the whole routine of caring for them plus the expense/ time involved in improving their living arrangements - building bigger runs/ better facilities/ larger- smaller fish tanks - takes so much effort. Over the years I've been following you (not in a creepy stalker way) I've seen you spend money on these things time after time - it's your money and it's your choice how you spend it but you do have a lot of pets, are they a distraction from the realities of your life.

I've often thought we would make one whole person between us. I bought my house in 1980, moved in in 1981 and finished paying for it in 1982. I had been saving whatever I could from starting to earn p-t money when I was 15, so about 10 years really. By the time I was 18 I could have moved into a flat or rented room if one had been available - I had my own furniture, bedding, basic cooking and cleaning equipment, lots of bookshelves (industrial strength metal ones in a variety of sizes with shelves that could be adjusted every 2" - the largest set had 2' x 3' shelves) but I never had a steady reliable long-term income and usually at the bottom of the pay scales.

I know it's a huge scary thing to think about. The pain in my left leg has shifted up a notch recently. I think I've maybe 3 years tops before I need a replacement knee or second hip (if the lunatics in charge of our asylum don't manage to sell us to the Americans before then). I might need a bungalow, but can't afford to buy my brother's half of mum's, which I don't like anyway. I'm in love with my little house all over again. I love being in the town centre, even with my increasingly restricted mobility I can get to most places I want to go. Most of all I love my garden (mainly large pots atm). I do need adaptations which I should be able to have done (social services assessment approx mid-Sept) but I'm now thinking in several different directions. 

I have got DS3 and his Beloved interested in the process of getting their own property (it involves temporary custody of 9 large boxes of vinyl records and 4 pieces of furniture that belonged to my ex- m-i-l) so I'm thinking of putting things back to next year and encouraging them to take half the furniture, several large appliances etc which will give me space to consider my own long-term needs without distraction. Currently thinking about one floor living hopefully only in difficult times - It would be relatively easy to have a fridge-freezer, microwave. possibly a halogen/ remoska cooker in a corner of the large bedroom and I could sacrifice a bit of my 'garden' to have an extension with a toilet and shower downstairs and add a single 'day bed' downstairs.

Anyway we all love you and will support you and your decisions but you need to work through the possible scenarios - how would you feel if you had to move to rented accommodation in the next few weeks and couldn't have any animals. You need to establish some limits - one of the hardest things I had to learn was that I couldn't save the whole world (I still try sometimes). You do not have the time, energy or resources for more (of the same - pets, caring for others, grinding work and the thanklessness of being a carer). You need more fun and to start putting your own needs first (unless you give up teaching and work on funding your own animal rescue centre - is the garden big enough for llamas or anything to get the tourists in)

Buffythedebtslayer

Came home from work today as my Uncle has died. Mum is in shock as he was well last time she spoke to him. I think I am in shock too. Another ending. I don't like them. 

Anyhow here things are sort of dazed and confused at best. 

XXX

grandmanerd

hugs buffy

DawnW

Sorry for your loss.

Sun_Addict

Sorry to hear your sad news xx

RosaBernicia

Sorry for your loss Buffy xo

Alchemilla

Buffythedebtslayer said:

Teaching is great, the actual pure class room thing is brilliant. Schools are horrible places to work. The pressure, the paperwork, the constant scrutiny. When a school is due ofsted Monday and Tuesday are the worst, given things to do, prove this prove that by yesterday, spot checks, meetings, more checks, more documents. You struggle through Wednesday aware of the amount you have to do
and are exhausted by Thursday and then Friday when there hasn't been a phone call you briefly relax, collapse into the weekend to prepare to do it all again the next week. 

And I know that in the real world there is pressure in work and I don't expect work to be stress free at all. I just think it is unreasonable. But maybe the world is unreasonable! 

This. I'm about to be on a CS panel too and I'm expecting to see LOT of teachers.

beanielou

So sorry Buffster  xx

Honeysucklelou2

So sorry about your loss.