Embracing the new family dynamics and looking forward to the future with optimism

Savvy_sewing

I have been asleep with the most awful dream, I thought I was awake but I couldn't open my eyes properly, I could feel and hear life going on around me, but I couldn't make any sense of it. I honestly thought that I was delirious and the family were trying to do things around me. It was only the crying of dgs1 that broke through and I actually did wake up.

What a horrible fright I had.
Worried about going back to sleep now, but little energy to do much at all except sleep.
Even typing this is an effort.

pollyanna_26

Can you remember I must not fear the signature of your good friend Molly? A number of times over the years I've been saying it in my head in difficult situations or when anxiety pops up. It's why I spoke about it on here a while ago.


Picture Molly and say the words slowly. Hope you can at least have a nap.
pollyx

Savvy_sewing

For some reason I don't see signatures.
Probably because I am still on the old format of the forum. I struggled to get on when it changed and went back to it practically immediately.

DS went food shopping for me, Dgd and dgs1 were on Minecraft.
He took 3 hours?! He's just literally back in time to get out again and collect dgs2 from Nursery. ( well a few minutes late!)
I despair at him.
So that also means non of us had any lunch.
When I feel better I am going to have to get to the bottom of why he apparently is back on another planet. I hope he hasn't gone back on the cannabis. If he has then he will definitely have to leave.
Mind you if he doesn't step up he will also have to leave for all the reasons mentioned by everyone in the last few days.

I am trying to stay awake now so I can sleep later, but I am finding it difficult to focus on anything for more than a few minutes.

pollyanna_26

I usually catch up on posts on the blue skin I'm one who unlike many others found it clearer. Once I log in I'm back on the green so many of us wanted to keep when the blue was introduced. The green looks really cluttered to me now when replying.


I've logged in now as until I check on the green I'm not sure if signatures show there anymore. I know different gadgets show different things.


I was looking at the new forum sneaky peek on site feedback yesterday and I liked the screenshots bring shown however I suspect many members wont be happy.. I was among those complaining when the blue skin was introduced .Result was we could choose to keep the green skin but as I say I'm used to the blue now.


Strange to think next week things will change again when the new rollout takes place.


On and off over the last few days I've been looking through numerous online images looking for my particular Mackintosh rose.
I checked the email from mse which as it arrived in my emails was correct. I then realised my Glasgow Rose had been lost with the Dell after being stored there since before I joined mse.


Images need to be stored before 3rd Feb to allow them to migrate during the changeover . Think I've found the right one but will check the one I've bookmarked against the one here .


I tried staying awake in order to sleep but found all I'd done was upset my already dodgy sleep pattern. When you can't rely on back up to sleep and recover it makes things much harder so I hope you're on the mend soon.
pollyx


Just looking at the post I've just written on the green ,I can see my signature on there and yours on the one above. Probably depends on phone, desktop,laptop' I'm no expert .


Hope you're keeping warm. The sun actually came out an hour ago. Now there's an icy wind and the lights are on.
pollyx

geminilady

pollyanna 26 Delurking to ask if you know will we able to keep the grfeen? I prefer it

beanielou

geminilady wrote: »

pollyanna 26 Delurking to ask if you know will we able to keep the grfeen? I prefer it

Dont think so.

thorsoak

I do hope that you have been really able to rest up today, SS - and that hopefully, Biggest might have popped round, put a rocket up DS's backside, and left some food for you and the others. Sleep well tonight, and have a better day tomorrow x

hb2

Ss, try to rest as much as you can, our bodies do most of their healing and repair work while we sleep.

Savvy_sewing

thorsoak wrote: »

I do hope that you have been really able to rest up today, SS - and that hopefully, Biggest might have popped round, put a rocket up DS's backside, and left some food for you and the others. Sleep well tonight, and have a better day tomorrow x

Haven't seen or heard from any of them. DS did cancel going to work, to supposedly look after the children, well he certainly didn't look after me, unless leaving me alone constitutes help.
I went down to empty my camode as I was too poorly to keep going up and down the stairs yesterday, and make a cup of tea.
The house looks like a bomb site with every dish dirty and piled high.
He may have cooked dinner but he didn't clean up.
I just lost my temper and shouted at him as I asked him to tidy up etc and he just went back to sleep.
I had to go into dgs2 as he was shouting for him and found him just in a nappy on the top bunk!!
So I just told him he wasn't fit to be a father and he has no excuse to be sleeping as he hadn't worked since Sunday, and if he didn't buck up he could get out!
That took all my energy.

ivyleaf

I'm so sorry SS. That sounds unbelievably grim for you. i hope you can get some rest and some food today xx