Buffy's 30 Month Plan

crazy_cat_lady

Just wanted to send you some love Buffy. Your stress seems to be non-ending.

beanielou

That is grim Buffy on so many levels. Xx

Buffythedebtslayer

crazy_cat_lady wrote: »

Just wanted to send you some love Buffy. Your stress seems to be non-ending.

beanielou wrote: »

That is grim Buffy on so many levels. Xx

thanks both XXX It is really upsetting me at the moment. I had longed for this holiday and really believed I would get on with stuff but here we are basically two weeks in and I have achieved nothing for me. I am feeling pretty paralysed by it all. Yesterday I went out all day to avoid the awkwardness of the hairdresser! and "I" had a good day(breakfast out, went to the aquarium place, bought fish) - hence coming home and being positive about the money stuff but Mum isn't happy at all and I feel like I am trying so hard to move forwards but it is a cliff face today. An absolute cliff face. Going to walk the dogs.

Honeysucklelou2

Can you break the de netting into chunks and clear a little bit every day? Had to do that with the back garden here because I had no time to deal with it. Bit by bit it is easier to deal with.

Hope your mum is feeling better today.

Sun_Addict

So sorry to read your post Buffster

It all sounds so stressful:(

It’s annoying when you’re relying on someone else to do stuff and they don’t

On the plus side you have a plan so good luck with it xx

in_need_of_direction

You can’t make someone be happy, no matter how hard you try. What you can do though is carve out a space for you and not let it be used as an alternative to a tidy up. You need somewhere that is pleasant and where you can relax. You shopping for sis tomorrow?

Buffythedebtslayer

I had one of those conversations on the dating website that made me strongly realise that I have NO confidence with men at all. I know for some of you who have read my diary for a while this isn't a surprise. And I sort of know it. But this randomly insightful and annoying guy.....wow. harsh but true. He said that.....actually I am not going to write it down. Lets just leave it at I have no confidence.

weird cos in loads of situations (not based on my attractiveness) I am super confident. Hospitals. Schools. talking to people - I mean I will talk to anyone. Apart from Men clearly!!!

Anyhow oddly upsetting but I wanted to write it down as it evidently something that really hurt - even physically to talk about it. It is something I have to work on.

XX

Buffythedebtslayer

in_need_of_direction wrote: »

You can’t make someone be happy, no matter how hard you try. What you can do though is carve out a space for you and not let it be used as an alternative to a tidy up. You need somewhere that is pleasant and where you can relax. You shopping for sis tomorrow?

This is so true and I kind of know this. It is hard to break the pattern of don't upset mum. And yes.... I am. He has been ill and I didn't feel I could say anything.

I sit here and I say to myself, I am so sick of this. But how actually sick do I have to be??

I am meeting my friend today which makes me happy. Monday I am going to visit my not very well friend (!) but in the evening I am out for cocktails!! going to be bizarre day.. and Tuesday I am going with another two friends so do have things to look forward to.

I have ordered a piece of furniture to fix a problem with my room - so INOD my sanctuary is coming. Very slowly!

Buffythedebtslayer

Walked the dogs, mum is doing loads better - she did breakfast, croissants in the oven. Very nice.

waiting for the list must remember change for the car park. Need to get rabbit food, bird seed as well.

xxx

beanielou

Glad that your mum is a bit better today