I will cut my coat according to my cloth. {Edited by Forum team} 2019

beanielou

Thank you hb2 Appreciated.
I am plodding on as normal.

Savvy_sewing

We didn't go out. In the end we just spent 12 hours reorganising the workshop, building the shelves, moving out my sewing related work to the workshop from the sitting room, rearranging the sitting room, and clearing up the garden.
Tomorrow it is the children's room, and then my room.
A few DIY jobs etc as Biggest is coming back tomorrow and bringing her husband to help.
DS went to Housing etc but can't get off the tenancy as the rent arrears are continuing to go up as the ex is still not paying down her side and until the whole lot is paid then they won't remove him from the tenancy, apparently that is now also in court proceedings, so I don't think I will be paying anything off for that.
My thoughts are to get him to look for a room to rent for himself, or it will be removing the seats from the car and sleeping there.
He doesn't have loads of friends remember that he had to turn his back on them as they were unsavoury friends. I certainly don't want him going back wards.
The one friend he has lives at home with his Mum so he cannot go there.
Quiet how and what he does I don't know , but I have told him that he must stop sulking pick himself up and start again. He can see the children here, just cannot live here, although nobody has told me how often etc he can be here, so until they do I plan on keeping him involved with the children and helping in what ever way he can. Today I got him to do the food shopping for me and help with operation tidy up the garden.
I have had a message from a lady that used to be a carer for the twins and she has offered to help me next week with the children so I said I would talk to her tomorrow and then I will see if because she has a crb that social might let her help.
I am seeing my Solicitor on Monday afternoon, unfortunately with children in tow as I have no other choice.
I am very worried about my business and how I am going to work with it all going wrong. I will just have to keep smiling and keeping keeping on.
Night

hb2

Well done for getting things sorted Mooloo. Not as much fun as a day out, I know, but it will probably do more for your peace of mind. I'm glad that Biggest is doing her bit too.

Savvy_sewing

Up at 2.30 then up at 6am
All breakfasted, and the boys dressed. One wag load done.
About to do another but need the washing line put up as hanging in the bathroom takes ages to dry when the heating is not on.
I have some hanging on the sewing rail in my cabin as it's warmer in there.

Front room feels quiet big and empty now!

Garden is going to take some time.
My worry is about sewing and not being able to clear up the shop.
I don't want to let anyone down.

Brighton_belle

Mooloo wrote: »

I don't want to let anyone down.

It's you who have been massively let down by others Mooloo, including SS who do appear to have led you up a garden path and left you stranded.

Savvy_sewing

I am just going to bed.
Long day. The boys were challenging tonight as they have started to really miss Daddy.
I think the social and my son have all got it wrong this last year or so.
I will need the patience of a saint, and to possibly go on a course on dealing with difficult situations with children as keeping calm and yet showing authority is paramount.

Night people

just_trying

Night moo, though you should hopefully be in dream land now!

Your doing your best and a brilliant job. The only thing I would say is try putting them to bed a little later. It's possible depending when they have a sleep during the afternoon they just aren't tired. When they go to your bed or they do something wrong stick to your guns, they'll learn.

They will miss their dad, first there not seeing there mum now dad isn't there also. Hopefully dad can be there as much as possible. There threats have pu you in a impossible situation.

Hopefully you got some stuff organised today, wishing you well xx positive vibes.

Savvy_sewing

Morning.
Adjusting to the lack of sleep is the biggest issue, when DS was here I would bring the boys down stairs, go back to bed for a while, or listen to my hypnosis.
But of course I cannot do that.
The baby was awake about 1.20 but he has a bottle of milk and goes back to sleep. He woke at just before 6. He shouted "nanny" I haven't managed to get him to say Granny yet. But when we came down he was disappointed that Daddy wasn't in his bed.
So far his brother is still asleep. Not sure he will be long but at least they are not fighting and screaming at each other.
I am guilty of adding the Children's channels to my sky package as they are mad on Blaze and the monster machines and several other programmes that I couldn't get. They have a terrible habit of trying to bang toys on the TV and I am forever moving them away from it.
I think I will have to have another think about putting the TV on the wall. But I don't think I have the resolve to move the front room around again yet.
I am trying to get used to the changes as it is.

My new neighbours moved in this week and I felt compelled to apologise for the screaming etc and explain my situation as while they have been building etc over the last year they know about my son living here etc. But I just burst into tears.
Where do I find the resolve to not think about what I should have been doing and the life I had planned and not to resent what I have lost?
I need to embrace the new life. I know that I just need time to adjust.

But it is hard.

So I need to keep those big girls Knickers firmly in place!
Dig deep into my positivity pool.

hb2

Mooloo, it is OK to grieve for the life you had planned, it doesn't mean that you love the children any less.

beanielou

Remember you really have had the rug pulled from under you this week.
I actually think SS have a lot to answer for.
So sad for you all.