Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

whitewing

Or, kittenhearted!

faerielight

wise words, Whitewing

Pyxis

Bluebell68 wrote: »

I was going to say yea they help a lot they don't
down to me, im the 1 that gets up in pain in pain 99% of the day have go down the stairs on my bum a lot of the time

its carp really is im sick of the nasty hurtful comments or being ignored
the looks he gives me is of total discust contempt
he isn't like this all the time but has been for last 5 months or so
now he's back talking to his family im treated like 2nd class lower class or an object

I've put lot weight back on I just want it all to stop I haven't done anything to deserve how I am being spoken to or treated
thank you for listening
xx

What has he said when you tell him how unhappy you are?

What would you like to happen? Would you like your relationship to continue, or do you want it to end and you separate?

elsien

:wall:I despair.
I am trying to book our holiday transfers. I realise I do not have the address we are staying at. I phone parent. She advises me it's around the back of "the big hotel" and 5 minutes walk from the beach.
This may be insufficient to both direct the taxi driver and to ascertain the correct apartment in the block. Presuming we find the right block. I'm not entirely convinced I have the right town.
It has not occurred to parent to ask any relevant information from the friend we are having the apartment from. :wall:

Parent has also mislaid her euros and her currency card so has no idea what money I need to order. And breathe.

Torry_Quine

(((((Bluebell)))))

jobbingmusician

Lots of hugs and squishes to everyone who would like them, especially bluebell and calley. And congrats to faerie for making such a good start on your new regimes.

And a special squish for elsien, because I totally understand about your employer!!!!!

Pyxis

Code and Lambyr, hope you're both ok? :A

Hugs if you're not. ((((((((()))))))))

Izadora

elsien wrote: »

She advises me it's around the back of "the big hotel" and 5 minutes walk from the beach.

I'm sorry, I know it's completely rubbish and must be hell to deal with but that really made me laugh. It's the kind of thing I can imagine one of my friends coming out with, booking holidays/days out with her is always great fun...

(((( Bluebell )))) Is there any way you can go on strike to make them realise just how much you're having to do at the moment or would that cause more problems than it would solve? Sorry you're in such a horrible situation at the moment, hopefully being able to vent here will help even if it's only a tiny bit.

onomatopoeia99

elsien wrote: »

:wall:I despair.

I can't imagine going on holiday with my parents :eek: . Only time since childhood was when the whole family went to Italy for my brother's wedding and were there for six days, but they aren't really into museums and galleries like me, so we didn't get to any of those.

Also, I really don't want to get involved in organising other people - I can barely organise myself so it wouldn't go well .

Lambyr

Pyxis wrote: »

Code and Lambyr, hope you're both ok? :A

Hugs if you're not. ((((((((()))))))))

Thanks, that's sweet

I'm okay. I had a day yesterday where pretty much everything was frustrating me for no real reason, and then I broke a bowl by accident which triggered something of a massive, profanity-laden overreaction.

Maybe it's just some residual stress from finishing my OU assignment? I dunno. I tried working on my novel yesterday. I know exactly what needs to happen in the chapter I was working on, and it's not even that big a chapter - just introducing a couple of characters, point of conflict, establishing certain narratives - but just couldn't find the words, couldn't stay focused and only ended up writing about 600 words in four hours which was just rubbish.

And I'd even deliberately gone out of my way to turn off distractions. Got the lappy out, went and sat on the sofa with mum, put some orchestral music on with noise-cancelling headphones - this way, not gonna get tempted to play a game, or idle away time on YouTube cos mum's right next to me. Bah, six hundred words.

Need to get in the zone a bit more. Mum's not up yet (whacky sleep pattern that she has) so I'm having a coffee, watching a few fan-created music vids on YouTube for shows I like and trying to relax a bit so can have another go today.

Also got bills due and won't have the money to pay them until next weekend cos I forgot about something so that's a pain in the bum. Paid off what I can but that's gonna be an irritant for the next week.

So that's me. Just a narky mess. Nothing's really wrong, just wish I could relax a bit. Dunno if it's related but my shoulder feels really tight today. Rubbed some heatrub into it earlier.

Bluebell, sounds awful what you're going through and I'm really sorry to hear about it. Wish I could offer you something more helpful. I understand what it's like to feel trapped and lonely, albeit for different reasons in my case but I can't imagine what it's like doing what you have to do in pain all the time. Hope at least getting things off your chest can help a little.