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lostinrates

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

It's very possible. It is better on the antibiotic because without it I had huge, red peeling lumps that would crack and bleed and it looked terrible. Now it is down to bumpy cheeks, redness and soreness but it is still a long way from ideal. Everything apart from water aggravates it, it seems, which is difficult because I have naturally very dry skin so I need something to moisturise. I even tried baby lotion and Vaseline thinking they couldn't cause a problem but it was inflamed the next day.

I don't think you are missing anything really by not taking the antibiotic, it takes the edge of it but the problem is still very much there and you don't want the brown teeth!

This is really cheeky suggestion but next time I replace my moisturisers etc I could ask jobbing musician if she would forward you what is left in my bottles, to give you little samples? I can package them up and pay postage so it costs her nothing, So you could try some stuff with out spending? I just feel weird sending used moisturisers etc....:o:question:

( hmm, I might be able to find little bottles to make up testers in, which some how feels less grim, but then you don't get to see the packaging.....)

Waves_and_Smiles

Aw, how sweet of you LIR! I would be more than grateful! That is so sweet of you to think of me, I am willing to give anything a try at this point. I don't mind ends of tubes! Thank you so, so much. That is beyond lovely of you.

lostinrates

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Aw, how sweet of you LIR! I would be more than grateful! That is so sweet of you to think of me, I am willing to give anything a try at this point. I don't mind ends of tubes! Thank you so, so much. That is beyond lovely of you.

I just know how it feels. That desperation is horrid and the more stressed you get about it, the worse it gets! Its so annoying!

Ok, I'll bear this in mind, If jobbing musician doesn't mind it might come in a few batches as things empty...:o

I'm not using MSE as much just at this moment in time and no one be afraid to kick me, Pyxis, this might be your job as WaS will be too polite.

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahaha! You know me well, LIR. Thank you so much again, and you are right about the desperation. I have been trying to deal with this for 20 years and I just can't afford to keep buying creams and then throwing them out when my skin gets worse. If I don;t use moisturiser then I have terribly dry skin, a lot of time is a choice between sore, red bumps that even makeup won't cover or flaking and itching tight skin when I use nothing. I am sure that you know what it is like over the years. I am more than willing to pay postage!

lostinrates

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Hahahaha! You know me well, LIR. Thank you so much again, and you are right about the desperation. I have been trying to deal with this for 20 years and I just can't afford to keep buying creams and then throwing them out when my skin gets worse. If I don;t use moisturiser then I have terribly dry skin, a lot of time is a choice between sore, red bumps that even makeup won't cover or flaking and itching tight skin when I use nothing. I am sure that you know what it is like over the years. I am more than willing to pay postage!

No, don't be silly, I'll pay postage, I offered. I just don't want jobbing musician to think I am lumbering her with it. If you pay postage via jobbing musician then Royal Mail get paid four times, for what will be a relatively small transaction and I am happy to make it. . I'll have a look later and see how I am doing for stuf.

faerielight

thanks guys, .. and waves.. it's a good idea.. I've emerged from catatonia, went into fight and angry mode today when the hospital rang to tell me they have no surgery date, and insulted my intelligence trying to make me feel like I'm a vIP patient and they have my best interests in mind.. They talk like politicians, these managers, they are trained to cover up the failings of the hospital., and choose their words carefully..They tried to tell me it was good news as I'm now on the urgent list, but I've been on the urgent list for 13 months! They forget that unless I'm dissociating I've got a photographic memory and a flipping degree!

. I 've got to the point now medically where I can't even eat without being sick and having such terrible pain.. my 2 hernias swell and get really hard and the trapped bits of both my small and large intestine are struggling to move things along.My surgeon told me 13 months ago to be on a liquid diet and prmissed I'd get the operation 6 weeks later.. I couldn't keep it up, I ended up going back to binging again just to numb myself from the trauma, and I put back on all the 3 stone I'd lost in the last 18 months..

. I'm in such a bad way, and psychologically, after 4 years of fighting to get any form of mental health support, they've sent me round the houses and jumped through hoops only to end up where I started which is to tell me to get my GP to refer me for the umpteenth time! and she's away for a month anyway.
So the fight has now disintegrated and i'm in an out of dissociative states where my inner child is inconsolable and frightened.

Waves.. I have terrible rosacea too, If I get the slightest bit hot or excert myself, which with M.E and arthritis is not much, just getting up my basement stairs, I go purple, puce and the sheer heat of my face melts any foundation and makeup off.. I hate it, I want to be as inconspicuous as possible.. My gp has prescribed me some medical based foundation, I haven't actually tried it yet, but it's called Veil Cover Cream... they sell multiple sample packs for £8 .. here's the link: http://www.veilcovercream.com/samples-c5/veil-veil-cover-cream-sample-kit-p32

regarding face powders for pale skin I use Loreal BB Powder.. It's really pale, it's a setting powder and it has a tiny bit of coverage : http://www.boots.com/en/LOreal-Paris-Nude-Magique-BB-Powder_1379491/

and I mostly use Jane Iredale mineral foundation, it's soothing to the skin and it comes in so many shades and you can get decent sized pots of the pressed foundation samples that last for ages.. they are £2.50 from here : http://skinmaze.com/products/jane-iredale/samples-service-purepressed-powder my pots have lasted a good 3 months. I've not found anything to treat the flushing, I've tried all the antibiotic creams, azelaic acid, nothing works x

System

Hey

Sorry i went AWOL wasn't in a great frame of mind and certain topics on MSE were making it worse (and i seem incapable of ignoring things that anger me).

I'm ok.

The longer i was away, the harder it felt to come back, but i miss you guys and i realised i didn't want you worrying about me so i should come back and let you know i'm alright. I'm sorry if i caused anyone to worry.

Generally life wise things are ok. Sunday was a bit of a weird day as i had repeated calls off a friend and when i answered a guy who i don;t particulary like was making demands telling me he had my friends phonee and tv and stuff. To make this make sense i need to giv you the background. About 6 months ago me and my friend were at this guys house, all wwas wel, wwe had a few drinks and that was that. Only a few weeks after my friend messaged me saying whilst drunk we had broken this guys hat. Now i was 100% certain we hadn't and she said the same but she asked me to apologise to him to keep the peace. Which i did. Except this was in hindsight the worst thing to do. The guy in question has various health issues, and he rang me whilst i was at my festival telling me how everyone had abandoned him and he wanted to kill himself. I told him i'd come round and see him when i got back, which i did. Except what happpened scared me. He'd clearly self harmed recently (apparently as a way to remember someone name) an was telling me how he'd kept someone hostage and threatened to cut their toes off, he was agitated and to cut a long story short, i couldn't cope with it. I felt he was beyond any help i could give him (and he'd made comments such as "he who ignore the elephant in the room does so at their own peril, which personally felt threatening) so i'm ashamed to say i walked away. I did so because i didn't feel safe and i didn't know what to do. I should have told my friend about this but i didn't because she was still friends with him and because previously hen i told her i felt threatened she told him what i'd said which led to him kicking off at me (after that i blocked him but he still kept leaving voicemails).

Which leads us to sundday. Swain took the phone off me the next time this guy rang and bascially found out he had a knife and had smashed my friends tv up, we were about to call the police but thankfully my friends neighbour had already done so. He's been arrested and released on bail, but can have no contact with my friend. Obviously she's very shaken up by it all, i went to see her yesterday, she's holding up ok but she was saying how she feels he's not just a danger to himself but a danger to others and possibly needs sectioning, but doesn't know how to ask about that happening. She has his CPN's contact details and was going to call but i told her to check with the police first. I feel terrible because i should of told her my own concerns (though she probably wouldn't have felt she was in danger as the last time she saw him he was fine with her)

Other than that i've been at work, which is going ok except the other day i had an 8 hours shift and honestly, it broke me. I felt crap as i just thought to myself, how the hell am i ever going to cope with full time work if one proper shift has such a negative effect on me?

Things with Swain are goood, he went on a hello kitty ebay spree and so far i've had jewellry and colouring books, i have make up and shoes yet to come! And i bought myself a back pack and some more jewellry.

Oh and i went to the seaside today, well me and one if the kitties did, it as really nice, i had fish and chips, went to the arcades, did some charity shop shopping and sat on the beach with an ice cream




Sorry for the long post, i hope everyone is ok. I need to catch up on the thread so i may be a few hours as i have a lot to get through *hugs* also thank you for the PMs, sorry i didnt reply as i havent been on (and rarely check my email), and was gonna reply individually but thought i'd post instead.

mellymoo74

MU! xxxxxxx

Indie_Kid

Penguin

I discovered some time ago that a now-ex friend (for obvious reasons) is a !!!!!.

He's been in prison since last year and was sentenced and there was a report last year that he's beena ccused of more stuff. He's now gone on trial.

Just needed to get that off my chest. I've not told anyone and no-one knows that I knew him. There was something I found odd about him; but couldn't work out what. Now I know what!

End penguin

Wellyboots6

Welcome back MU!
Don't feel bad for not saying anything to your friend, you did what you felt was best at the time based on the information you had. You only feel bad about it now because you have new information on the situation, so you really weren't to know what would happen.