We all need to be heard for a little while.

codemonkey

Hello calley and welcome to Team WaS.

Its very unfair that I go out, don't drink and still feel hungover. I'm blaming side effects of the new meds/withdrawal from the old ones.

jobbingmusician

I think the pampering thing is lovely, but wonder if we're doing the right thing by encouraging you to go back to bed? Is there ANYTHING which is enjoyable which you can do out of the house or in your local community? A nice visit to a coffee shop, for example? (Ever MSE, I am trying to think of something low cost, even though for all I know you could be a secret millionaire )

elsien

Being outside in the sun and listening to the birds always makes me feel better, even if I'm not doing anything, just sitting.
Although I do know some people when they're feeling low can't face going out. What used to cheer you up when life was feeling a bit better?

Pyxis

Sometimes, when you're that exhausted mentally, you just want to close your eyes. Whether that's in bed, in your armchair or on a sun lounger, sometimes you just have to shut out the visual input and relax your brain.
After an exhausting counselling session, which may have been emotionally draining, possibly upsetting (in a good way, iyswim), or maybe full of revelations, it's quite possible, and very probable, that your brain just wants to rest!

tea_lover

Do you have a garden Calley?

purpleshoes_2

I suffer from anxiety and low self esteem caused by various things, work stuff from years gone by. Past relationships. I spent the best part of five years staying in the house and there's hermit, but I took it too far.

I don't think I realised how much my excess weight made
me miserable until I lost it. I have unsupportive doctors who through the worst years of anxiety and horrible insomnia refused to give me an anti ddepressant or anything to help with my sleep pattern.

Most of the help I've accessed over the years I've got myself.

I can identify with getting notification of a parcel and thinking it's bad news. The only thing that helps me is, something along the lines of, what's the worst that could happen here? Could I cope with it.

I also do something for myself once a day. Even if it's lighting a candle. Or going out for a coffee (and I don't love coffee but I do it). Also I try and say how I'm feeling
After 20 odd years of going I'm OK, if I'm not. I'll say it.

For so many years in the recent past. I worked, ate, slept, functioned. Am trying to do more than that now.

And looking back on my life 3 years ago, I think I might have been low at times, but that was a terrible year. There is progress

Part of my problem is that I'm shy but I'm also quite chatty and bubbly and I suffer from people not believing me when I say at times I suffer from crippling anxiety.

There is light at the end of the tunnel. My meltdown was at the end of 2012. Compared to then my life is a million times better.

My family had a really tough year that year. I was working for the boss from hell, had worse but she was the last straw. Was still grieving for my gran and was Seeing someone who turned out to be a complete idiot.

Sometimes things just get a bit too much. For me eventually I got an anti depressant that reset my sleep pattern and that in turn led me to cope with the rest of life.

Sometimes your mind and body just go, ok then, I need looking after.

I think so anyway.

Pyxis

Thanks for that, Purpleshoes.
It all soooo depends on whether the help you need is there. Trouble is, most of the time, you don't really know what help you need! So it's just pot luck whether you stumble across it or not!

purpleshoes_2

There's been very little help available in my area. As I said I have terrible GPs who I only see if it's urgent. My mum is in the same practice but with different doctors and they are fab but I can't change to them unless they open their books.

Personally I battled with insomnia for 20 years that eventually got resolved in 6 months because I finally got help but had to have a mini meltdown to get it.

I also think I very much neglected myself over the years as I was in a job working with vulnerable people where crisis stuff happened and you don't always get the support you need to deal with it.

PS. Call me Pauline. If I'd had my brain I'm in gear when I made the account I'd have been called something less ridiculous.

Georgiegirl256

purpleshoes wrote: »

PS. Call me Pauline. If I'd had my brain I'm in gear when I made the account I'd have been called something less ridiculous.

I know what you mean! Georgie would have been fine on it's own, don't know why I had to stick the girl on the end! Purpleshoes is fine btw! Do you actually own some purpleshoes?

Your long post above is very open and honest and needs to be applauded. :T :T :T

Pyxis

I really like Purpleshoes!
I like shoes and I like purple!
It's a very endearing name!

But if you'd prefer to be called Pauline, I'll try and remember! Trouble is, my memory is dreadful, so dooooo forgive me if I call you Purpleshoes again!