We all need to be heard for a little while.

codemonkey

I don't think you're narcissistic. Its ok to talk about yourself - especially when you're freaking out. Your voices are just trying to trick you because you've made so much progress. Does WaSP absolutely have to see Millefleur today? Not sure you should be alone.

I am back at work today after a week of training and 2 days off and I don't want to go. My face hurts, its wet and windy outside and I'm tired because I woke up at 1am, missed my 'sleep window' and couldn't get back to sleep until 4am (I have certain periods during which if I wake up or can't sleep, my body wont allow sleep until a certain time - no idea why). I want to stay in bed and have dog cuddles.

heartbreak_star

Been up and down all night with a bad stomach.

I do not want to be at work.

HBS x

seven-day-weekend

I think the hotel room sounds like quite a good idea. The one problem is, they might need to ask about something to do with the work. Maybe they could have WaSp's mobile phone number just in case? I certainly don't think you should be in the flat on your own. Millefleur's TV will have to wait.

codemonkey

Hbs - poor you. And here I am moaning about losing 3 hours sleep. You should be at home resting. Hugs.

LostSoulForever

Morning all

I hope everyone is slightly better than they were yesterday.

WAS - Noooooo definately not Narcissistic in the short time i've been reading this thread. In fact after reading your first post of the day at silly o'clock . I was thinking how much i enjoy reading your posts, they always come accross in an amusing way - not that i'm amused by them :rotfl:.

TL - My suggestions for names all had %$&£$%& in them

tea_lover

LostSoulForever wrote: »

TL - My suggestions for names all had %$&£$%& in them

So do mine! :rotfl:

Sorry to hear everyone's feeling poorly today. Dr Tea prescribes rest in the duvet fort and lots of weak tea and biscuits

heartbreak_star

Thanks Code. I honestly wish I could, but I went home early last week with the same thing so I'm gonna have to drag myself through it

HBS x

jobbingmusician

Oh god, I can't get multiquote to work this morning! (Or even quote, I have just discovered on the MB board)

What they all said - WaS, you post to help others even when you are feeling bad. Talking about yourself on this thread certainly doesn't count, as it's what the thread's for. Recounting your own painful experiences to help others does NOT count as narcissism since it is obvious from your posts that you are trying to see the other's POV and understand their experiences.

It's like the PD thing, innit. You may have been PD at one time in your life, as you have described, but that doesn't mean you can't change - and you have worked exceptionally hard at your own MH!!! xxx

Waves_and_Smiles

Hugs, HBS. I hope your tummy feels better soon.

I hope you get through the day without feeling too awful code. Hugs for you, too.

Aw, thank you everyone. I am crossing narcissism off of the reason to hate WaS list and the voices can be quiet. Please do tell me if I ever come across as selfish though and I will try to change that, it's the last thing I want to be especially after you all have supported me so much. I will always try to fix the problem myself, it is my responsibility to accept my own shortcomings and make sure that they don't make others unhappy. To do otherwise would be narcissistic. Which I'm not. Right? (Shut up WaS!).

I asked WaSp if he will put off visiting Milliefleur until things quieten down. He has agreed but with a pained reluctance. He is under pressure from his aunt to fix it, she has been commenting that he doesn't visit his mum much anymore to help out which makes him feel awful and then I feel awful that he feels awful.

There are people on ladders and hammering going on, it is currently a 3 blanket situation. I am dressed and my carer is cancelled again so now we wait and see if the door is finished and the windows are replaced today. The noise is already making me cringe, as ridiculous as it sounds if this carries on for much longer I really may have to book into a hotel because it is going to be make me ill.

In the interests of explaining what is happening with this particular psychosis symptom (and reassuring myself that I am not going more bonkers than usual) the problem with sounds is common with psychotic disorders. It is very similar to the experiences of someone on the autistic spectrum, I am hypersensitive to sound and cannot filter it.

You know how a tv can be on in the background but you can still hold a conversation and filter it out? I can't do that. I hear every sound as if it is right by my ear at the same volume and it doesn't blend into background noise. Hence if there are a lot of sounds at once I automatically try to listen to each one individually and they all drown each other out result in a huge roaring noise that I can't define. If there is a lot of noise and WaSp talks to me I can only hear his voice in waves and it makes no sense because the other sounds interrupt it at the same volume. It physically hurts my ears and gives me a headache very quickly, it is also very confusing.

A situation with as many sounds as there are currently is my worse nightmare, it makes me very overwhelmed and anxious and along with the paranoia of having people appearing outside windows and talking outside my front door makes for a very distressed WaS. I am going to attempt earplugs and see if that helps. The usual problem with those is I am left with nothing to hear but the voices (which obviously don't stop due to them not being real) and I pay more attention to them but anything is worth a try right now.

Solarjunkie

WaS, don't cancel the carer. Being there & letting people in & out as necessary IS caring, your hair etc will just have to wait for a bit. Knowing someone else is dealing with it for a while should give you a bit of down time. Get them to reinforce message to workmen - WaS is unwell, has cluster headaches, needs as little noise as possible, and is in bed under duvet. Put on WaSp's headphones to block out some of it.
Workmen in my experience are not unkind, just forgetful, and need reminding frequently that their work impinges on peoples' lives. "Really bad headaches" take a lot less explaining than everything else! They may well remember in the future too that some of their customers may not be feeling well, so you are helping those notfeelingwell future people too. Not narcissistic at all.

Hugs to all those needing a boost to get through their day.