The Trials & Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

Lily_Rose

Morning Kate, sorry to hear that only 1 fertilised, I know it's hard not to feel deflated, keep positive vibes going! Hope the transfer went ok and remember to keep busy during TWW, have everything crossed for you! X

Had a scan yesterday, had 5 follies around 14mm and some really small ones. Got another scan booked on Thurs.

I hadn't told work about treatment but as I was 1.5 hours late yday due to me missing a connecting train as there were earlier delays :mad: also it was out of the ordinary me being this late, I felt i had to tell my line manage that I was doing IVF. It went much better than expected and she was really worried I'd got into an accident or handing my notice in! I felt a weight lifted and she is the only person other than the clinics, fertility acupuncturist and counsellor that I had told! We are thinking whether to tell family...

Hope everyone is well xxx

kate5555

Hi Lily, how did the scan today go? Do you have a date for EC yet? Good to hear it went well telling your manager about your treatment. I ended up telling my mum and two of my best friends we were doing IVF a few months ago, they have asked recently if I have started and I said a vague yes but I don't really want to talk about it now because we want to keep it to ourselves until we have news or are ready to share.

The transfer was fine on Monday, the clinic is just 5 mins drive from my work so I popped out in my lunch break and was back at my desk an hour later - very surreal feeling!

I'm keeping myself busy and doing quite well to keep myself distracted. I was expecting the 2ww to be the hardest part but I'm actually finding it not too bad. To be honest I think it's because I have all but given up hope I'm going to get pregnant this time. Our embryo on Monday was only 4 cells and fairly fragmented, and while they said it could still result in pregnancy, I feel the chances are so slim now and I don't want to give myself false hope. I started this cycle feeling so positive and optimistic, naively thinking we would even have plenty frozen embryos for future attempts! And at every stage I have been feeling let down, now I have kind of accepted that it probably wasn't meant to be this time. If by some miracle odds I end up with a BFP then it will be a lovely surprise.

Lily_Rose

Hey Kate, I'm glad you are keeping busy. I found it quite tough during the TWW. Please remain positive, I have read on other forums where the embryos weren't great but ended up giving birth to a healthy baby! Do you know when your test date is? Fingers crossed for you x

I'm uncertain with the number of follies but I remember the nurse saying 5 big ones and a few small ones. They only want between 3-8 eggs which is bit of contrast with previous clinic as they wanted numbers.

I have been able to produce a some follies this round on a third of the dosage of the previous 2 rounds and been stimming for less days so I do wonder whether the high dosage has caused the poor quality, of course only time can tell...

I got a call after scan yesterday and they said the blood test showed low hormone, I think it was low LH so my other half ended up trekking into London to pick up 2x luveris - not sure what it is really as no explanation given but when I read on google (my best friend) it mentioned it was supposed to help with egg quality but also for low LH. I hope it helps with egg quality! Was told EC should be on Monday.

I have another scan tomorrow, I think they are doing last minute checking.

Lily_Rose

Hi all, I had another scan this morning, EC ready for Monday!

They said I had 21 follies, definite 5 and poss another 6 more, the rest are too small. I have been given another 2 x luveris, I asked the nurse what it was for and she said it was to help egg quality and also my LH was low. Triggering tonight. I feel so nervous!

Trying to keep calm and happy. A lot of comedy films today I think!

Kate hope you are ok, also to anyone that is reading in the same situation xxx

Cheeky_Monkey

Wishing you the best of luck for Monday Lily_Rose

I'm sure you must be excited and nervous in equal measure. Please let us know how it goes :beer:

kate5555

Hope everything went ok with the egg collection today and you're recovering well Lily.

My test date is on Friday and it can't come soon enough. I'm struggling a bit with the 2ww now - weird vivid dreams most nights which feature pregnancy in some way!

xx

Lily_Rose

Thank you Cheeky & Kate! I was feeling a bit achy and had pressure prior to collection and feel a bit crampy now.

They collected 10 eggs, anxious about call tomorrow. They are hoping for blastocyst for Saturday but fearing the worst (as only 1 made it on the first cycle but poor quality), I did ask about day 3 transfer and they don't feel it would be as successful but will transfer if need be.

We used frozen sperm, appare the morphology wern't great but fingers crossed everything will be fine!

We are going on hols next week and embryologist said he doesn't think there's any issues with flying. Be nice to relax and not had to worry about things too much

Fingers crossed for you Kate x

kate5555

Hows everything going Lily, are you still on track for blastocyst transfer on Saturday? Fingers crossed for you too xx

This week is dragging by so much. I've started to feel tentatively hopeful now even though last week I was sure there was no hope. The test on Friday is a blood test at the clinic, I'm tempted to do a home test tomorrow or first thing Friday as I hate the idea of someone else telling me if I'm pregnant or not over the phone. I may not trust the result of a home test until I do the blood test anyway but at least would be a little more prepared for the news.

Lily_Rose

Only a day and a bit to go Kate! Keeping my fingers crossed for BFP!! I would also be tempted to test in the morning rather than go for a blood test, especially if the HPT would confirm thr result. I think I need to go in for a blood test as well?

Forgot to update yesterday, 8 eggs were suitable for injection and all fertilised. We will have a day 3 update tomorrow but I doubt all 8 will reach day 3 or blastocyst. Previous clinic provided daily updates so obviously feeling more anxious. If all goes well, we should have transfer on Saturday xxx

Lily_Rose

Evening all

Got an update on our lil embies, we have 2 grade 1, 5 grade 2 and 1 grade 3 at day 3 post collection. Embryolgist seemed quite confident we should have at least 2 to blastocyst. I hope more will reach that stage and good enough to freeze.

Me and OH are extremely surprised that we still have 8 as our previous cycles we had half or less than half embies at this stage, not to dampen my hopes but reckon they will start dropping off ...no update tomorrow but will receive a call re: time for transfer for Saturday.

Kate hope you are ok, no doubt you are a bag of nerves! Best of luck for tomorrow, really hoping you will get great news xxx