The Trials & Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

Waves_and_Smiles

Hi ladies, I hope that you don't mind me popping in. I wanted to apologise to you all because I made a thread about how adorable little ones are and suddenly thought it could be rather insensitive of me considering what you are all going through. I honestly didn't mean to cause anyone to be upset and if I have I am deeply sorry.

I do understand how you all feel to an extent because I made a decision not to have children due to many health problems. It would have been very difficult for me to carry a child and very hard for the child to grow up living with my illnesses. It was the hardest decision I have ever made and has caused me many tears and heartbreak over the years. I know how desperate the longing is and I would never wish to make anyone feel worse, the thread I made would have been one of the things that would have made me cry and think how unfair it is. Mind you, I was crying at baby adverts too for a long time so perhaps it's just me. I still do sometimes.

I am keeping you all in my thoughts. x

vesper

Don't worry worriedandscared. I read your thread and loved it.


My friend's little boy knows exactly how to cheer my up, he runs up to me for a hug, blows a raspberry and runs away. Never fails to make to laugh. Just what I need.

picklekin

Blerg, Monday morning... Feeling very low of late, just nothing seems to go right for us. Some of you might know but I had this big holiday planned next week, not been abroad in ages and was going to lie on a beach in Turkey. Now it seems we probably wont go, husband had a pneumothorax a couple of weeks ago, not serious and no treatment required, but when he went to the check up was told he can't fly, he has another x-ray today so cross your fingers for me. This was gonna be last blow out before settling down to be super healthy and go for the IVF..

Why is it always so easy to focus on the negatives and ignore all the nice things I have?

Part_Mouse

Pickle

Aww huge hugs to you, it's soo frustrating with all the bad things come at one. I hope your dh is ok.

Sorry I've not been around much all.

Still injecting, 4 weeks this week and I suspect we will be increasing the dose again.bums getting very sore from all the needles.

pinkteapot

jammy26 - when we'd been TTC for a year and had all the tests, they noticed a fibroid on my first ultrasound. None of the doctors seemed remotely interested in it ("oh, you've got a fibroid", not "OMG! You've got a fibroid!"). No treatment has been suggested.

At my last ultrasound a couple of months ago it was measured as almost twice as big as the first (up from 9mm to 17mm in two years). They were still completely unfased by it. This was my pre-IVF ultrasound and they didn't say it would cause any problems or suggest any treatment.

As someone else said, about a third of women have them and most never know it. They can cause heavy and painful periods, but unless it's extreme, most people don't investigate the cause of this. They don't tend to treat unless they're causing serious problems. Fibroids naturally shrink after the menopause as their growth is hormone-related.

I would always suggest avoiding Dr Google - a little while ago I had serious anxiety over some swollen lymph nodes after Google convinced me I had cancer!! But the patient.co.uk site tends to be good and their information on fibroids will give you more background:
http://www.patient.co.uk/health/fibroids-leaflet

SewIt_2

*quick de-lurk*

Jammy - like pinkteapot, I have fibroids, only discovered during IF tests. Was told that as its on the outside of the uterus and not in a place that would hinder implantation, that it was nothing to worry about. It went away by its self and now they have found another one at the top of my uterus, also on the outside, but again they are not worried as it won't impact the growth of the baby. I had no symptoms whatsoever, no heavy periods, no pain with them etc.

GTS - so sorry it was a negative cycle for you. big hugs x

Frozen - how are you getting on in the 2WW? When it OTD? Got everything it is possible to cross crossed for you. xxxx

*re-lurking*

frozenpenguin

GTS - Huge huge hugs to you, even when you know what the result will be, it's still absolutely horrible. Take care of yourself. xxx


Great to hear from you SewIt! Hope you and your little one are getting along okay xxx


Thanks for all the good wishes lovely ladies, OTD is tomorrow - in a way, I kind of don't want to test - it's just nice being in this PUPO limbo at the moment!


Hugs to you all xxx


(also, just to add - I really really really don't like updating the lists and having to take people off for negative reasons - I don't want any of you to think I don't care when I move you up or down the list, I just really wish I was moving everyone into the recent graduates section! )

frozenpenguin

IVF/ICSI/IUI/FET cycles currently ongoing.

• frozenpenguin: ICSI LP. Provera 26/3. DR (Suprecur) 27/3. Stims (Gonal-F 150iu) 16/4. EC 1/5, 10 eggs collected, 8 fertilised. 1x5d ET 6/5.
• Part Mouse: IUI. Stims (Menopur) 24/4.

Picklekin: IVF in June
emmaj30: IVF end of June/start of July. Stims (Gonal-F 225iu).
pinkteapot: IVF LP July
Fairy dust: Endo scratch in July, IVF in August
Goodvibes: Further treatment Oct/Nov, working on improved SA at present.


Ovulation induction (Clomid unless otherwise stated).
Floaty: Started Clomid (50mg) April while on IVF waiting list. Chasing up referral with FS.
cwtw: Started Clomid March 2014
Jammy26: Started Clomid (50mg) Jan 14. HSG 29/4. Ultrasound 16/5, diagnosed Fibroids.
Littleme82: Clomid. HSG looks fine, FS appointment 04/03/14, extended for 3 months.
MrsDavo: Clomid (150mg) and Metformin (1500mg) to try and induce ovulation, Next appt 7/8/14.


Awaiting FS or other appointment.
Bigmomma: Referred to Gynae, appt 21/3/14
Chocoholic_chic: Waiting for ICSI referral appointment
Clevernamehere: Fibroid operation in February, taking a break from TTC.
codemonkey: Deciding on next steps
Danielley: Discharged from FS, referred for IVF
FairyDiamond: IVF Consultation 3/2/14
Gettingthereslowly: Waiting on next steps
GlasweJen: Surrogacy preparation.
lisawood78: Surrogacy consultation 12/5/14
Lucyloo77: Hysteroscopy. 28/2/14
mrsvicx: Trying naturally
Ruth26: HSG 28/4
Skint_Catt: Awaiting referral for pituitary growth
Smookle: IVF/ICSI referral Jan 2014
vesper: Appt May 2014.
Wonder_Woman: Consultation in June



Recent graduates:

• Carrot34: Natural 12/04/14
• loveactually: LP. DR (Buserelin) 14/2. Stims 10/03. EC 26/3, 8 eggs collected, 2 fertilised. 1x5d ET 31/3. 11/04/14
• Star02: ICSI SP. Stims 5/3. EC 17/3, 17 eggs collected, 14 fertilised. 1x5d ET 22/3. 31/03/14
• Angeltreats: Natural 28/03/14
• Tinkwings: Monitored cycle. 23/03/14
• Chickpea: Natural 21/03/14
• Sewit: IVF LP. DR 13/1 Prostap. AMH4, Gonal F 375. Endo Scratch 3/1 (CD12). EC 10/02. 17 eggs, 8 embies. ET 13/2. 2x3dET 13/2. 26/02/14
• Whattodonow: IVF LP. DR 15/12. Stims 4/1. EC 17/1. 19 eggs collected, 16 fertilised. 1x5dET 22/1. 225iu Merional 02/02/14
• Time2deal: ICSI SP. Stims 3/1. EC 15/1. 9 eggs collected. 5 fertilised. 1x5dET 20/01 AMH 6.6. 450iu Menopur + Centrotide. 01/02/14
• Peonie: IVF SP. Stim 1/1. EC 15/1. 13 eggs collected. 8 fertilized. 1x5dET 20/01. 31/01/14
• teaandcakeordeath: Natural from 'just relaxing'! 26/01/14
• Purcy81: Natural 7/12/2013
• Derby2: Long Protocol IVF 1/12/2013

picklekin

Wouldn't that be nice, a mass graduation, we could have a party! I will keep my fingers and toes crossed for you tomorrow FP, I'm sending calming thoughts until then.

mrsvicx

Hello all
Sorry Ive been AWOL for a while. Ive been getting my head around everything that has happened.
It all seems like a dream now, and as though it happened so long ago. Everything seems to have gone back to normal, bleeding has stopped and I presume that my hormones have returned to normal as I am now more control of my emotions (I did not like the constant sad feeling that I was experiencing!)
I am usually quite a hard person, not in a bad way, Im very sensitive to other people, but it takes a lot for me to show emotion and I spent the first part of last week bursting into tears all over the place - very embarrasing at times!

Im sorry to hear that things are not going great here either - hugs to everyone that needs them - Im thinking of you all, and reading the thread, even if I dont always post xx