The Trials & Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

lucyloo77

Hello guys, remember me?! :hello: I know I haven't posted for a while, but I've still been reading (stalking) this thread without fail!

After my failed ICSI at the end of August I then promptly broke my left arm (I'm left-handed) at the beginning of Sept. The night before we went on holiday in fact (arghhhh 2013 has SO not been my year! ) So I haven't been able to type/write much, but finally now the plaster cast is off!

We've still got our 1 little frostie in the freezer, so are looking to do our frozen cycle around the end of November/ December time. Then if that doesn't work then we're planning on having our free fresh ICSI cycle (free because of the clinic's monumental c@ck-up last time) around February time.

Hope all you ladies are well. I have been reading and keeping up to date with all your news! xx

Part_Mouse

Tea they have never responded before now having a pity party feels like such a slap in the face when its taken since aug to get here with one poxy egg

lucyloo77

PM, so sorry to hear about AF. Also keeping my fingers crossed for you for jump-started ovaries xx

tea_lover

I am well up for a pity party, will join you. Feeling v sorry for myself, and v likely to slap someone. Let's spend the weekend in our pj's eating biscuits.

I know this sounds like a stupid question but does anyone like their job? I don't know if I'm just unlucky or if this is just how it is and I need to suck it up lol. Maybe I'll never find anything I like as I just want to be at home with my baby I hate it. I really thought things couldn't get as bad as the awful situation this time last year (bullying boss, horrible commute, etc) but I hate this just as much. Dread coming in, not even pretending to be polite anymore. Just want them to sack me!

MrsDavo

I'm so sorry PM. That really really sucks big style!

Sending you a huge hug, :-( x

lucyloo77

PJs/biscuits sounds good to me - count me in!

Tea, I despise my job too. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I just don't want to be there, I want to be at home being a mum. So maybe I'd hate any job for that reason, but tbh I do think it's my actual job that I hate so much, I really do not enjoy it at all! My job doesn't feel like a reason to get out of bed in the morning - being a mum would. I've been signed off for 5 weeks with my arm, but am back to work again on Monday. Am dreading it. Maybe I'll break the other one....

Part_Mouse

Lucy I so hope your next go is the one that does it for you.

Part_Mouse

Sat here in tears just wishing for once something would go our way.

lucyloo77

The other thing with the job thing, is I feel really stuck there cos of all this fertility lark. Not just about (potentially) getting maternity pay etc, but also with time off for IVF. I couldn't exactly get a lovely new dream job and then rock up saying I need all this various time off for IVF could I?! Sure they'd love that! Whereas at my current job I just don't care if they don't like it that I take loads of time off for treatment as I hate it so much anyway! (if that makes sense?!)

lucyloo77

Aww PM, big hugs xxx This all sucks an unbelievable amount. Sending you virtual chocolate and cream cakes to help mop up the tears a bit.