The Trials & Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

Whattodonow

Good luck rowin, hoping this is the cycle for you xx

Whattodonow

I think i would rather AF showed up than have to see that one line on a stick yet again. Somehow I think if would be easier - more gentle and i would have a little time to process it before letting OH know.

Also struggling to sleep T2D

Hugs skint, hope all is ok
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tea_lover

hi fairydiamond... if it's any consolation (not much I expect lol!) I'm currently having a v bitter and twisted week.

picklekin

Have my fingers, toes and eyes crossed for those PUPO, I really sympathise with how you must be feeling, like the old TWW on steriods...

Nothing happening here, I am waiting to here from the private gynea, but I guess other than that we'll wait till after our holiday in June then make the big jump to IVF. OH seems to have gone on a spending spree, trying to fix up the house etc, even talking about doing up the kitchen. I think he think that IVF will consume all the savings and wants something to show for them, I feel very sad about this.

time2deal

Whattodonow wrote: »

I think i would rather AF showed up than have to see that one line on a stick yet again. Somehow I think if would be easier - more gentle and i would have a little time to process it before letting OH know.

Also struggling to sleep T2D

Hugs skint, hope all is ok
X

I agree, that's why I was kind of hoping to see if she showed up before testing. It is easier - there is just something so depressing in starring at another blank space where there should be a line.

Symptoms easing off a bit for me. I read your body gets used to the progesterone after a while. Also after a little research I allowed myself half a sleeping pill last night as I needed the sleep. Feeling v tired this morning, but better mentally.

Fairy_dust

TCD Congratulations

T2D, Peonie, WTDN Hope you are all doing ok, when are your OTDs.

Frozen, SewIt, Rowingirl How are my cycle buddies doing?

Fairydiamond Big hugs. It's sh.it , isn't it? There are days when I'm a blubbering mess and there are days when I just get on with it. After 8 years of trying the sadness of wanting a baby never goes away but you start to deal with it in your own way. Although I've never used them, there is the option to use counsellors through the fertility clinics if you feel that would help.

Not sure who else I've missed but hope everyone is doing ok & Hello to the new people !

AFM Baseline scan tomorrow & to start Buserelin on Thursday. Stopped my Norethisterone on Sunday night so will be expecting AF on Thursday (that's what happened last cycle). Still not feeling very positive about this cycle but hopefully will as time goes on

codemonkey

Morning ladies. I am feeling like death today. Had to increase my meds because of pain and they make me feel like a zombie. I've decided to cut down on salt because I'm struggling to lose any weight and apparently it's because the drugs I'm on atm make you retain water like a mofo. This makes me sad because I love crisps and bread and well, all, salty things.

fairydiamond - the emotions you expressed are nothing out of the ordinary in here. Pretty sure we've all wanted to have a tantrum like a 3 year old when yet another person tells us they're pregnant. Especially if that person is on their first month trying, or has been with their partner for 2 minutes or actually, just anything really. Even in here, where I know how much we've all been through, and I am genuinely happy for those getting their BFPs (hopefully all the PUPO ladies!!), I still feel a "why not me?" pang. At the moment I want to throw things at that stupid, badly dubbed clearblue advert or any advert that uses the words "your baby". " I don't have a baby. I have a dog. And he has dog shampoo and dog food and I'll never buy your stupid products even if I do get pregnant because you've made me sad.":rotfl:

picklekin - I suspect we're sharing an OH, cause mine is on a "lets do up the house" kick - although he's focusing his attention on the bathroom. He wants to rip out the bath and put in a walk in shower and I've been resisting based on the damage it'll do when we're trying to sell it and because I was hoping we'd need the bathtub for children. But as it doesn't look like we do, we may as well. We no longer need a bigger place if it's just the two of us.

tea - huge hugs.

tea_lover

Why is that clearblue advert so badly dubbed?? It's awful!

Rowingirl

tea_lover wrote: »

Why is that clearblue advert so badly dubbed?? It's awful!

And the acting is dire as well. And the psuedo-science used in the adverts is like nails down a chalkboard.

MrsDavo

Hey Ladies,

TACOD - Congratulations!! That is amazing news and does give me hope.

T2D, Peonie, WTDN - Huge good luck to you all for the end of this week! Keeping everything crossed for all of you!

Sewit, Frozen, Rowingirl, Fairy - Good luck to all 4 of you as you start your treatment.

Code - Thinking of you still, hope you are being kind to yourselves.

Huge welcome to all the new ladies on here.

Fairy Diamond - It's not always positive in here, I think we are all just pretty excited about the 3 ladies testing this week! I know I am.
We do all have days where we feel we couldn't carry on even if someone dragged us. I had a huge wobble in June/July last year but in the last 6 months I have become more complacent shall we say. More carrying on with each day because whether I like it or not, each new day does come.

Tea - your friend is horrid! Horrid Henry she is! So get what you mean about the agenda thing! How insensitive of her. You'd think being a Dr she would have more common sense!

Jammy26 - Good Luck on the Clomid - in the nicest possible way as someone else mentioned, try not to think of it as a miracle drug. I did and I was so very disappointed. 3 months on the stuff and it didn't make me ovulate once! I am due to go back on it next month after a 3 month break on Metformin to see if it helps this time! - I am not hopeful anymore.

AFM - Still not got my smear results through yet. Wondering what they will come back like.
Got my swab results and it said mild thrush which I have been treated for now.
Hospital appointment for us next Wednesday and it has come around quicker than I anticipated. Going to write down some questions for her as last time I didn't and got a bit upset/overwhelmed.
I kind of lied last time and said my weight was still 10st 8lb, which I knew wasn't true - it was more like 11st! But today I have stepped on the scaled and it said 10st 4lb, so I am hoping to lose the 4lb before next week if I can, and at least say I lost 8lb!
I came to a conclusion the other day that has given me slight ( think 0.001% ) comfort that we haven't actually had a baby together yet. That is that there is no way on this earth that even if we were to get pregnant right now, that I would have another baby out of wedlock as we marry this August. I am not religious, and don't believe in no babies before marriage or anything like that, but it just feels nice to know we have kind of done things in the "correct" order. Met, fell in love, moved in together, married and then hopefully a baby!