Are you happy with your 'lot' in life?

BEAR

I could/should be. moved into a lovely village a year ago, met lots of people and plenty of things i would like to be involved in. hub is lovely, no money worries and a great house BUT...

son has been a nighmare for years, addicted to cannabis but wont seek help, doesnt care what he does to people, has 1000 of debt and is a jeckell and hyde type..lovely when its going his way

i am constantly worrying. I feel as if i am in limbo..this could be such a perfect life

btw son 18

amyloofoo

No doubt I'm sharing this due to the time of night / glasses of wine I've shared with my friends earlier but no, I could be happier with my life. I always had issues with my parenting and family, which looking back on it were probably due to my bipolar disorder and their over-the-top religiosity following my adoption. Despite this, I'm close to my parents but feel that there's a lot of my life I just can't share with them.

When I was 17 I had an abortion as I'd been advised that I may be a carrier of my natural mother's condition (Turner's syndrome) and was taking my A-Levels at the time. It was a surprise pregnancy due to contraceptive failure and, please don't get me wrong, I still believe in reproductive rights and that abortion is good for lots of women. Despite this, I've felt lots of guilt since and now I'm married am struggling to conceive which is incredibly difficult when I think I could have already had a much loved and thought about child.

I have always been considered to be a very pretty girl, and previously worked as a model. Despite this, I know my husband prefers curvier women than me, and he has been propositioned by a previous lover who is 'more his type'. People look at us as though he is the one who has got the better end of the deal, but I am constantly scared that he is going to find someone more 'womanly' than me who will conceive easier. Maybe this is my punishment for what happened.

amyloofoo

BEAR wrote: »

I could/should be. moved into a lovely village a year ago, met lots of people and plenty of things i would like to be involved in. hub is lovely, no money worries and a great house BUT...

son has been a nighmare for years, addicted to cannabis but wont seek help, doesnt care what he does to people, has 1000 of debt and is a jeckell and hyde type..lovely when its going his way

i am constantly worrying. I feel as if i am in limbo..this could be such a perfect life

btw son 18

18 is no age to have such issues. I hope things get better for you both soon :grouphug:

Tiglath

I'm reasonably happy with it all except my health. It's been a horrible year in that sense. I think middle-age has finally caught up with me and I'm not bouncing back from recent surgery the way I've done in the past. Ask me again in 6 months when I should be healed

maintenanceman

amyloofoo wrote: »

No doubt I'm sharing this due to the time of night / glasses of wine I've shared with my friends earlier but no, I could be happier with my life. I always had issues with my parenting and family, which looking back on it were probably due to my bipolar disorder and their over-the-top religiosity following my adoption. Despite this, I'm close to my parents but feel that there's a lot of my life I just can't share with them.

When I was 17 I had an abortion as I'd been advised that I may be a carrier of my natural mother's condition (Turner's syndrome) and was taking my A-Levels at the time. It was a surprise pregnancy due to contraceptive failure and, please don't get me wrong, I still believe in reproductive rights and that abortion is good for lots of women. Despite this, I've felt lots of guilt since and now I'm married am struggling to conceive which is incredibly difficult when I think I could have already had a much loved and thought about child.

I have always been considered to be a very pretty girl, and previously worked as a model. Despite this, I know my husband prefers curvier women than me, and he has been propositioned by a previous lover who is 'more his type'. People look at us as though he is the one who has got the better end of the deal, but I am constantly scared that he is going to find someone more 'womanly' than me who will conceive easier. Maybe this is my punishment for what happened.

You have answered your own question, Read your own post another 3 times .

maintenanceman

amyloofoo wrote: »

No doubt I'm sharing this due to the time of night / glasses of wine I've shared with my friends earlier but no, I could be happier with my life. I always had issues with my parenting and family, which looking back on it were probably due to my bipolar disorder and their over-the-top religiosity following my adoption. Despite this, I'm close to my parents but feel that there's a lot of my life I just can't share with them.

When I was 17 I had an abortion as I'd been advised that I may be a carrier of my natural mother's condition (Turner's syndrome) and was taking my A-Levels at the time. It was a surprise pregnancy due to contraceptive failure and, please don't get me wrong, I still believe in reproductive rights and that abortion is good for lots of women. Despite this, I've felt lots of guilt since and now I'm married am struggling to conceive which is incredibly difficult when I think I could have already had a much loved and thought about child.

I have always been considered to be a very pretty girl, and previously worked as a model. Despite this, I know my husband prefers curvier women than me, and he has been propositioned by a previous lover who is 'more his type'. People look at us as though he is the one who has got the better end of the deal, but I am constantly scared that he is going to find someone more 'womanly' than me who will conceive easier. Maybe this is my punishment for what happened.

You have answered your own question, Read your own post another 3 times .

maintenanceman

I suppose we don'treally control like. life controls itself. we are passengers of our own fate, Ia that deep? wow gotta lay off the beers

torbrex

I would have liked to wander through life with someone by my side and shared the good (and bad) times with but at 53, I don't hold out much hope for that happening anytime soon, otherwise, I have just got on with things as they have happened.

I am as my mother once described me "an unclaimed treasure"

lostinrates

Surely most people have areas of life they would like better in?

This summer for me, as I not for others above, has been a difficult one for me health wise. I have chronic ill health and had have since my twenties, most of my adult life. Its got me down before as it has this summer, where for a while at least I have been fairly sure I was gettiong significantly worse. This fatalistic approach has, regretably upset my husband, but I have been...calm..about it through out. As it turns out, things almost certainly will not be so bad this time, but it is a recelation to be that i can find calm...not happiness, i have not been happy about it, but calmness, when i thought it was very much worse. I retained a sense of humour but for the times i have cried like a baby and had tantrums.

On a day to day basis three things get me down. My health, the impact that has had on my ability and productivity....career I suppose, and the impact it has had on my appearance. Its embarrassiong but true to admit i would be well and attractive over well and successful given a choice.

But life is what it is, and these are the cards I have. I don't always play them well.....i have dopne things i wish i had not, but in general the rest of my life is good, and i am grateful beyond belief for that.

Happy? Truthfully i have to say a regretful 'no' at the moment, but feel ungrateful saying so. Resigned but fighting it and joking about it, certainly. I believe i have been and can again be content.

Maureen43

No. Not at the moment. Splitting from husband while he continues to behave appallingly. Pros though - I have a fantastic family and a small core of amazing friends who have been there for me.

I have mentally written off 2012 and am hoping 2013 will herald a new happier me. Planning on moving house and maybe starting the dating game when I feel up to it.

I am at heart a positive person so believe all this is possible.

Big hugs to all those having a rough time.