MSE Pregnancy Club 25

Rups32

bamama. my preg brain is getting worse day by day..

more bloods for you? you poor thing. i hate doing that. weird that iam still burning down there.. will just have to wait till see the midwife on wed now..having lots of water (well trying today) so fingers crossed. also have a sore throat today.

morocha

When i met him, i was his all, he has deppresion but if you knew him you would never guess, he is very funny and chats to everyone. He is always there to help anybody. Once we got married then he changed, like the comminment was not something he wanted( he was 26) and went downhill from then on, breaking up then asking for forgiveness. Then i was not anymore the person who could make him feel better, he started to push me away and not allow me to at least try.

Bamama

Yep more bloods. Should have your results soon shouldn't you?

Rups32

so sad morocha.. you do what makes you happy and sane and if that means not having him in your life, then so be it. you have dd and she can see him often so at least you are not stopping her. xx

Rups32

yes bamama, well when i saw the doc last time, he asked the nurse to do a vulva swab so lets see. its just uncomfy when it burns

Bamama

We're all here for you morocha xxx

Hope it clears up for you Rups

Rups32

i hope so too. hate these sore throats where it feels like someones grating the inside of your throat.

had a weird dream that i had enrolled to study a midwife course. lol..

elisabeth854

Hey ladies,

Sorry its been a while since i last posted...been working, having the kitchen done and to top it off our laptop has been on the go slow -takes about 10mins just to load up! I have been lurking and reading on my phone, but find it too fiddley to update and post from it.

Congratulatios to all the new mummies, and labour vibes to all the boldies. I can't believe how quickly time is flying by...i've only gor 6 weeks til due date now, and with Christmas in between i know it will be upon me before i realise.

Today is my first offical day of rest though (well work wise). I did my last shift yesterday and am now off until at least January 2014 -feels amazing!!

Morocha, hugs to you. I know what it is like living with someone with depression, or having them in your life. My mum is a manic depressive...she has been on tablets since i was 16 (i'm now 33). She goes uo and down all the time...she feels good and thinks she does't need the tablets anymore and can cope on her own, stops taking them and then goes into a black hole again. I've always been there for her...but last year was the final straw. I had a miscarriage...and my mum in the same month decided it would be a good idea to try and end her life. She ended up having to come and stay with me and i was looking after her (when in my eyes she should've been there for me). I had counselling after that and the one thing that really stuck in my mind was that she has an illness and will probably never chage...no matter how much i want her to, or how much she says she will. She leaned on me too much...and i needed to concentrate on me more.
I think what you are going through is something similar...you need to think about yourself, how may times can your OH put you through the heartache and pain? Have you had counselling? is it something you would consider? My mum wasn't interested..but i found it really helped me and it made me come to terms with a few things.

Sorry i have gone on for so long...just wanted you to know that i'm thinking about you x x

Rups32

hi elisabeth. how have you been?

so sad reading about your mum. you def put things into perspective. it must have been so hard living with your mum or having her around. x

hope you enjoy your mat leave.:) its wonderful not having to think about work at all!

elisabeth854

Hey Rups,

I'm ok...although have had a bit of melt down in the last couple of days. I don't want to moan, but have been in tears this morning. I got my first stretch marks last week, i feel like i'm growing inches by the day...some of maternity clothes are now too tight, i have nothing to wear -but feel that buying new things will be a waste of money with only 6 weeks to go. I know i'm being silly, and having a baby is something i want more than anything in the world..but feellike i'm losing my sense of self, and that i will never be me again...does that make sense?
Its probably just hormones, and tomorrow i will wake up and feel absolutely fine..

Are you all ready and prepared if anything does happen early for you now? got your bag packed and nursery sorted?

me (33+6) x x