I Have Messed Up My Life Bigtime

messedup_3

thankyou every single one of you, this has been such a support. I am sinking at a slower rate ...... it is such a horrible feeling....I am trying to calculate all the interest for the debts but cant get my head together.
Do you think the bank will lend be 40k I cannot beleive what I have done.I have no motivation...I used to love my job...I hate it now. I was driving home tonite...mind ticking ticking and I feel like I work for nothing...and then I have to remind myself it is not my bosses fault....I have a good job and lots of regrets. I must stop comong on here , I could ramble on until I bore you all.
My head is literally hurting.

liewe_heksie

Hi messed up
Don't worry about us, we're just happy that you have come to talk to us, we were all sick with worry about money at one point, and some days I still am, but I have to remind myself that it is one day at a time, one step at a time, I didn't do this overnight and it definately can't be fixed overnight, but knowing that you're doing something about it is a great feeling, it all adds up in the end, every little bit paid is a little less to worry about, and hey you're not boring us or troubling us, that's what this website is all about, people! and there are loads of helpful and caring people here. Take care.
LH x x

smashedbooboo

I am with you on that tam. Sadly i had endometreosis. Tried IVF but did not work. Eventually i ended up having an hystericalectomy. I kept a diary as well until i had my op. But by then i was begging to have the op. Due to all that goingon i could not face up to the debts as well. But now things are turning round slowly but surely. And i can see alight at the end of the tunnel. Albeit the euro tunnel but even that has an end to it. And at the end of that is paris. so thatsthe way i am looking at things. At the end of my tunnel i can see lots of happy times ahead. xxxxxxxxx

messedup_3

LOL euro tunnel hahaha
I hate laughing when i feel so sad lol

smashedbooboo

While i was writing my last post MU. You got in a post stopping coming on here. DONT YOU BLOODY DARE GIRL. NO WAY NO HOW. You keep posting fo as long as you like. One way or another we are all in this togethr. WE all help each other. And we all at some time think we are being boring etc. Not true. All our problems are different so as long as we keep speaking we will always pick up a hint or tip that will help us. Even if its just a hi or a hug. It all helps. xxxxxxxxxxx

smashedbooboo

Dont feel guilty for laughing when your down. Laughing really does help. You see. You have made a little step on the road to recovery. Trust me. It really does help xxxxxxx

Penny-Pincher!!

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Tam

I read on these boards somewhere that you can't eat an elephant in one bite and that's so true. Just eat as much as you can whenever you can and one day it will be gone!

smashedbooboo

I second what Penny_Pincher has just said. You can pm me also. Can only offer moral support at moment. xxxxxxxx

messedup_3

Yes I do think it is a good idea to keep a diary,I am moving house at the weekend, and so I am desperately searching for a benchmark to lever my head out of the mess, I now know what real stress is,stress that makes my head literally hurt, my life is upside down.
I would feel happier at the moment to organise all my personal life paper work home etc...god knows how I have kept on top of things only just,I have such a stressful job , twice I have been late this week, I have never been late for work in my life. You see I have created so many problems for myself!!
When I get my statements I will be able to have a better SOA x