lionheartedgirl promises to let it shine :)

choogirl

Glad you're feeling better Lionheartedgirl, sorry to hear that your pooch isn't too good.

Hope that you manage to get a nice, restful and relaxing weekend xxx

lionheartedgirl

afternoon all, nothing much to report (but probably won't stop me filling the screen with rubbish all the same! :rotfl:)

really struggled to get out of bed this morning but got to the hairdressers for a trim at least. hairdresser dropped the mirror though when she was trying to show me the back of my hair and it broke I know I didn't drop it but I am very superstitious about this and it has never happened to/around me before! :eek: I'm sure it will be OK but made me think about how pants things have been and how good they are now, and that I really don't want to go back to bad times! :rotfl:

popped into town quickly to go to the music shop, they were very helpful although admitted they had never sold an amp for a harp before :rotfl: but said I was welcome to bring the harp in so we could try some out. Mum's friend has lent me one for the mean time, tried it out when I got back and it is brilliant! :j I also asked about recording properly and I need a microphone and a bit to go between the microphone and my mac. They recommended the bit but don't have any in stock so have ordered one not cheap but not horrendous either. They also suggested a couple of good pubs for live music so I hope to get out and about soon, will feel a bit of a dafty going on my own, but figure if I am sitting/standing in a corner on my tod, most people will assume I am waiting for someone and/or not be bothered. I will go with a smiley face and be chatty as chatty is required

harp lesson was good but long, my teacher was very chatty and one of her neighbours popped round so I had him sitting in on my lesson and then had to give him a little concert. It was very funny but nice as well as my teacher said he was so appreciative of anything to do with the harp as he sits on a combine harvester all day So at least now I know I have my first audience member for my recital in September as he has promised to come! :j

used my HMV gift card to get another Davina and had a little left to get some other music. So bought St Etienne greatest hits (have been listening to a lot of Goldfrapp lately and loving the dancey/electronic thing) and a Sarah Vaughan CD (old jazz singer) - just a best of but that was all they had and it was only £6 (and it was part of my gift card spend from a previous refund!). Frustratingly though, it doesn't have the song I wanted (just checked!) but never mind. The song is The Gentleman Is A Dope and has some great lyrics

I am going to hoof off - no real plans just some tea (had a rummage through the freezer and found a posh burger so will have some chips with it, perfect!). After a few days of no alcohol, I caved and bought a bottle of wine on the way home. Also topped up the non-alcoholic options so I have plenty of those to distract me. I bought the September Issue on DVD so will watch that tonight, there really is NOTHING on the telly once So You Think You Can Dance has finished!

I have done some practice but arms started to hurt again so I stopped. My teacher has given me some advice - just one particular piece is really hurting, I know why but wasn't sure how to correct it - so just need to put this into action ALL the time rather than just for a while and then carrying on as before :mad:

got a wedding fair tomorrow afternoon so need to get organised for that too....

catch up soon
x

LittleBoots

Errrr hello lhg dr who is on
Todays episode has pirates

Wordsmith

Don't feel awkward about going to the pub on your own. You'll be going in order to listen to the music, it's not like you'll be sitting at the bar nursing a drink and avoiding eye contact with everyone. Treat it the same as if you were going to the theatre on your own. I suspect when it comes to it, you will feel nervous and not want to go, but pushing yourself to really will be worth it.

You didn't break the mirror, so you aren't going to have seven years' bad luck. (In my opinion, nor is the hairdresser!) In fact, it was a Good Thing, because it made you remember how much better life is now than it was.

Hope the wedding fair goes well. I assume you are playing at it? Have a pleasant and relaxing evening.

choogirl

Hi Lionheartedgirl

Wow your diary really moves at pace, I read it and think I'll reply later and its moved onto a different subject.

I think that you'll be fine going to the pub on your own, as you say people will think that you're waiting for someone and will be engrossed in the band etc.

I agree theres nothing on on a Saturday night, DH, DS and DD love Dr Who but it scarred me for life when I was a little Choogirl and I've never been enamoured with it since (I used to hide behind the sofa when the Daleks appeared!) We've been ploughing through the entire boxset of Friends when theres nothing decent on tv, I really need to get back to reading as well instead of watching mindless dross on tv.

Hope the wedding playing went well xx

lionheartedgirl

evening all choogirl it does move at a pace I have to admit, my brain tends to run away with itself and I have no one else to talk to most of the time! :rotfl:

in no particular order - wedding fair went well this afternoon, was a bit slow getting going again this morning and had the feeling I had forgotten something when I left, and also that I was going to have a broken string today. Sure enough, I had forgotten business cards for the agent who I was working for, rang her but her hubby was coming to do the chatting while I played (along with a pianist who was very very good!) so he had plenty, which saved me the journey back home - I was half way when I realised, fortunately it was reasonably local. I did break a string as well *rolls eyes* but no major dramas as I had plenty of spares. It just makes a bit of a bang and gives me a bit of a shock!

I was very brave and went to pat some horses afterwards, they were doing horse and carriage rides as part of the fair. The carriage driver was saying the horses were getting a bit fed up but it was fine to make a fuss of one so I did. I am scared stiff of horses but since reading and watching the Horse Whisperer I see them in a new light now and would like to at least try a riding lesson to learn more about them. My aunty and cousin are horse mad so they would be very proud!

I also had a chat to the Virgin holiday ladies - they were really there to sell honeymoons but got time for a little natter about where to go on my own and they will send some prices. Because I was swapping with the pianist I had a few mins to nose about every now and then which was good.

The venue was stunning - a former stately home, now a private school, overlooking the river/estuary. The staff were lovely and I had plenty of OJ/tea and also a ticket for a free hog roast butty. I've never had one before as they always look a bit brutal (I was brought up as a veggie!) but it was nice enough and I was so hungry I wasn't going to miss out.

The dog situation is worsening, he really is very sore. Ex hubs was meant to have collected the dog this afternoon but I got home to find the dog still there, which was a lovely surprise. We had lots of cuddles and fuss as a result. When ex turned up, I spoke to him about how I felt. His new wife was there too (a good friend, think I have mentioned before) and she was very supportive so I think he is a bit more on message now. I teased him a little as he was doing the not listening trick but with two of us saying yes this is what he's like, all blokes do it etc, he had to take note!

We are going to review things with the dog weekly and see how he goes. But no escaping, it will be sooner rather than later, and I need to get a support network sorted now as I will not cope if I have to come home to an empty house that day. Ex hubs has new wife and step daughter. I...ummm... don't. I think my mum will help but she may find it too hard as she only lost her dog quite recently and found it very painful.

I have counselling tomorrow and my counsellor is a dog lover so we should be able to talk it all over then.

I have done some practice on my new harp :j :j this evening and have amazed myself! I'm really pleased with how it's coming along so need to get a list of things I want to learn. It's a different way of thinking as if you need to change key it all works in a different way, but it's good to learn and I can't wait to show off when I have a few things under my belt!

Back to work tomorrow which will be pretty shattering so had best get off to bed. Night all xx

Wordsmith

Sounds like you had a good weekend LHG. So sorry to hear about your dog, though. It is something we have to go through for the years of love they give us. Maybe warn a good friend that you will have to descend on her/him one day but you're not sure when? Your mum may be the best bet, though - she probably understands you better than anyone else and she will understand the situation, too. Or what about your ex hubby - perhaps you can support each other?

When the time comes, and I hope it is not too soon, is this going to stir up other emotions for you, besides grief at the loss of your four-legged friend? Be prepared.

But I don't know what advice to give, as personally I would want to be totally alone and out of range of a phone (probably for about a month!).

dirtyepic

Hi there, just a quick message to say how much I am enjoying your new diary, I keep trying to leave messages but don't get round to it. Hope that lurgy didn't strike. I have been feeling a bit under the weather with a temperamental cold too.

Great news about the new harp. I will always be on the look out for your first appearance at the sage. I subscribe to their news letters!!

Take care, keep smiling and keep cuddling your lovely dog. Everyone appreciates a hug.

Dirtyepic

LittleBoots

Great news on the harp progress
I got a bit teary there reading about your dog its good to know he has so much love around him though. I hope you have some understanding people around you. None of my close friends have pets and dont understand that they are actually a big part of your family and their loss is as heartbreaking.

Forgot to say, I understand your anxiety about the mirror, I think I would be the same. It wasnt you who broke it though, try to remember that. I always greet magpies! Even if its discreetly under my breathe so not to look like crazy lady!

Itsadogslife_2

I completely understand about your dog, I lost three dogs last year, two rescue oldies that we had had for a while. This was bad enough and upset me but we have always had more than one dog, so we still had our other dog when these sad things happened. But just before Christmas I lost a young dog to sudden death, he was my soul dog and was only still a pup at 9 months old and he went to sleep one night and just didn't wake up. It upset me to my core and I still feel like I grieve for him now. I felt like I had lost a child, and still feel very bitter and angry that he was taken from me so young. Other people in our village didn't really understand and probably couldnt comprehend why I was having to do the school run bleary eyed with no make up, in reality they were lucky I had got out of bed

If you need to talk when the time comes