lionheartedgirl promises to let it shine :)

LittleBoots

Hope youre okay x

lionheartedgirl

hi, am still alive and ok, at work and had a mad day and CRAZY weekend of harp stuff (MrP is next weekend, sorry ladies!) but will post later.

hope everyone is good, will catch up on diaries later I hope.

lionheartedgirl

Evening all

back as promised! LONG one coming up.

a very melancholy post this evening, I am absolutely pooped survived work thank goodness but literally just about got through.

Saturday's gig was lovely - a heck of a long way to drive there and back, but I was very well looked after by the venue - including a free sandwich, I offered to pay, but was presented with something as if I had paid full whack in a decent restaurant - my request for either chicken or ham was met with a ham and decent mustard sandwich (Colemans of course as I was in Norfolk!) with homemade coleslaw, crisps and delicious side salad, and proper napkin! I was thrilled. Normally I am lucky to get a glass of water! The couple were lovely, their guests were appreciative and the father of the bride thanked me as I was loading up afterwards. Got home at 10pm and permitted myself a glass of wine and small box of Roses that a lovely brownie had given me.

Slept in Sunday as Sunday night's gig was to be another late finish, wasn't expecting to be in by midnight. It turned out to be one of the most bizarre events I have ever done. Started by a frantic phonecall, could I get there any earlier as the booker had the times wrong. Flew down the A14, got caught by a police car but saw him in time and slowed right down. Was tailed for a few miles then he got bored and turned off, thank goodness. Arrived to be told I was at the wrong entrance, found the right one, was directed to a carpark miles from the dining room so asked to go closer :mad: to be told the room was up 2 flights of stairs :mad: :eek:

Stairs are not impossible but I don't like doing them in a rush, and normally charge extra for them. I had done an hour of Davina in the morning, let's just say I needn't have bothered as my harp weighs 40kg and my abs got another workout!

The guests were all Chinese, I started playing and they all wanted to pose for a photo with me! Rather distracting but I am used to it and don't tend to worry as long as people aren't behind me moving around which I hate. I had been expecting a dinner for European guests so my normal repertoire would cover that, but of course they wanted Chinese music, and I had to apologise. I managed one piece which is one of the very first pieces most harpists learn but it went down a storm! :T

I had a hugely entertaining conversation with a very chatty bagpiper who was there to pipe in the beef course. Given the guests kept asking me to play quieter - and the harp is not a particularly loud instrument - I had been a little apprehensive as to what they would make of him in a small room! But it was wonderful and I thoroughly enjoyed his music! We had a giggle over all the bizarre requests we get, performance related injuries etc, what a nice bloke

Fortunately I got a tip at the end of the night - the agent I was working for was very apologetic when she rang me to see about going earlier and was furious when I told her about the stairs! It sounds like such a small thing but it can be make or break especially as I travel on my own!

I finished early and the Chinese guests were very appreciative and the venue staff helped me with the stairs again. The venue was stunning and I hope to go back for a proper nose around soon - bit scary though as I got lost on the way back from the loo, and given it was a NT property that was basically open for private use, most of it was in the dark!!

So got home earlier than planned thank goodness. But couldn't sleep hence the tired and emotional state this evening.

Had an email from harp buddy, she is finding things tough trying to make her way as a musician. I know where she is coming from and am frustrated by my lack of energy lately as if I don't stay on top of things I won't have time to spend really working on harp stuff. The day job is getting me down, I've had a month of frustratingly slow problems and am just catching up with myself with everything else that has been piling in.

Went clothes shopping this evening but couldn't find anything that really suited. Wanted something nice for the weekend but nothing doing. haven't heard from MrP since Saturday night, so wondering !!!!!! is going on. Hope he is OK, but guessing he has changed his mind. Not sure how I will get through this week wondering if he is coming, but have almost had enough! :mad: Mug, I know, eternal optimist etc. But he has til the weekend.

I've had some tea but feel really ropey so am off to bed very soon hopefully I will feel better after some kip.

Wordsmith - Davina wise I would start with Power of 3. It's a really good all rounder, you can do bits of it if you don't feel up to a full hour straight away. Stick with Jackie (she stands on the right as you look at the screen but in truth, she is not Davina and the other person is a bloke so you won't miss her!) as she is low impact and does the more basic stuff. Music wise it's kind of housey stuff - nothing too headbanging (but not sure what you are into!) - I love it. If you aren't a Davina fan she might be a bit much but I have found what suits so am banging on about it a bit! :rotfl:

love to all and hopefully normal service will resume tomorrow!
xx

lionheartedgirl

afternoon,

had a really good night's sleep last night and felt a bit better this morning.

got a text from MrP, he was knocked off his bike on Sunday he is ok but bike is a bit mashed so doesn't look like he will be coming now. I believe him, it's not really the sort of thing to joke about. He was very apologetic etc. saying it's temporary and he still wants to see me so will try and sort something else out.

Have offered to go up there instead but he seems to be resisting which I think tells me all I need to know so it really, really hurts and I feel very, very silly for letting it get this far, when I have had the feeling all along that it wasn't going to happen.

Last night I plotted an alternative weekend for myself should things not come off, so I will be heading to Bluewater late on Saturday afternoon. A 20% off Oasis offer dropped into my email inbox :j which is good because there are lots of lovely things I have had my eye on in there, so hopefully I can find something nice. I was planning to make something nice for pudding for Friday night if MrP came, so will still go ahead with this and will enjoy it on my own over the weekend instead key lime pie I think, yum yum.

I will have a weekend OFF dull stuff/harp jobs, and will take some time doing all the thinking I have been wanting to do for ages. I also want to start on my downstairs loo - really need to do some long overdue nesting and can hopefully pick up a few nice little home bits at Bluewater. I can also get on and do some practice :j suddenly my weekend is looking very full!

I put my skyscraper heels on this morning to help me face the day bravely but changed my mind as I remembered I have to pop out at lunchtime and it's a bit of a trek :rotfl: so will save the heels for Friday instead.

I am off to collect the dog tonight so will have lots of cuddles with him - he will appreciate it and so will I

Wordsmith

Sorry you were feeling a bit blue over the weekend. And really sorry about MrP - but you are rising to the occasion admirably - much better to have a full-on weekend pampering and pleasing yourself than moping over what might have been. It does sound rather as though it might be better not to spend any more time thinking about him - not wanting you to go to see him sounds a little suspect. And if he does make some effort to see you this weekend, then all the better ... although after all your plans you might just want the weekend to yourself!

Hope the rest of your week goes well for you. Enjoy having your dog to stay.

LittleBoots

Sorry youve been down , also sorry to hear about MrP. Your weekend plan sounds good though, I rarely ever go into Oasis nowadays...funny it was somewhere I always went for my going out outfit when I lived in Essex! How come when I was a student I could buy a new top every friday??? Oh yeah..thats how I found this site!!

Enjoy the doggie hugs, I am getting cat hugs just now. My cat seems very intuative to my mood, she seems to sense when I need a cat hug . I've only had her since October too. She's going to stay with my Mum tomorrow for a while as I'm going on holiday, she'll be a bit miffed as she likes her home comforts!

lionheartedgirl

thanks LB. am feeling a bit brighter after a decent meal but picked the dog up tonight and he is really not good

Oasis has always been good for me, their jeans are about the only ones that fit me properly! the tops tend to be a bit on the long side as I am so short but other than that I always feel I get decent value for money there and things I buy from there I tend to wear loads and they last ages :money:

was having a blub on the way home in the car and remembered I am meant to be changing my life, no excuses, starting immediately and being flamboyant etc. So felt a bit pathetic after that! I'm sad to say the poor dog was a bit deafened by a bit of St Etienne on the way back from ex hubby's but it did the trick

there is a race meeting at Brands Hatch at the weekend which some of my friends and acquaintances are riding at, so this will combine well with Bluewater. If I can find someone to help get my bike in the van then there is nothing to stop me having a crack at some races this year, I am sick of waiting for life to happen to me.

lionheartedgirl

afternoon all.

well I have amazed myself today and completed all bar one thing on my work to do list! :j it wasn't exactly a stretching list but boy was it nice to switch off work pooter at 5.50 and know I had finished for the day. the other thing is best tackled first thing in the morning so I will crack on with it tomorrow.

Am feeling a bit brighter today. The dog is better today than he was yesterday thank goodness. Mum came today with her 2 so I had lots of skinny stripey doggy cuddles :j bliss!! :j She did some clearance in the garden and we had a nice nibbly lunch in my conservatory overlooking the lawn which my dad had so kindly mowed on Sunday. So this was a real treat as normally my home day lunches are eaten in front of the pooter!

Had a murderous trip to the osteopath today - a different bit of my elbow is hurting quite badly and although I wasn't due to go back til next week I thought it best to get it looked at. We think I have done something else, possibly when lugging the harp up the stairs on Sunday :mad: He got stuck in as normal and it really did bring tears to my eyes this time. Felt really ill and queasy with the pain afterwards but know it's doing some good really so am trying to concentrate on that.

So I am off to the supermarket to get some bits for my promised key lime pie. Ex hubby's new wife is coming to collect the dog from me and stopping for a chat and some pie (although she doesn't know about the pie yet). She noticed I was upset on Tues when I picked the dog up so texted me to see what was up, was nice that she noticed. I told her about Mr P and that I was feeling a bit sorry for myself. Hopefully a nice natter will help no end

I really need to only come back with what I need.... ho hum.

A shiny new bike is being very tempting - the spendy elves are telling the big bad spendy wizard and I fear my purse is in for a proper beating...will be worth it but am not making any big decisions until I have really weighed everything up over the weekend.

In the mean time I shall console myself with the lovely Gavin later. sounds so wrong as the person that used to do my job has the same name and I definitely do not fancy him one little bit :rotfl: so have to be really careful at work!! :eek:

Roll on the weekend....come on, hurry up!!

Souk08

Have a good weekend honey, and dont think TOO much XXX

choogirl

Sorry it hasn't worked out with Mr P but at least you have some lovely things planned for the weekend, its best not to mope after men. Its his loss

Doggy cuddles sound lovely, almost as good as kitty cuddles. My friend has a gorgeous dog who is always ready for a doggy cuddle unlike my cat who only cuddles on his terms.

Sounds like you had a productive day yesterday, I'm hoping for a few of those next week as well.

What about Gavin leaving The Apprentice?

I was most disappointed with his peformance, I expected better of him. I loved the way he kept saying "calm down" in a Harry Enfield style.

Have a good weekend xx