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lionheartedgirl

morning

well, although I managed to get myself going yesterday, this morning I didn't. I didn't even make the shower (yet, will go honest!).

So have rung into work and am on the sofa today. I hate ringing in especially on Fridays or Mondays but I really am wiped. Normally I would at least keep on top of email but today I can't even face the work pooter.

My head is still bad but mostly I just feel so stupidly tired, right to my bones. So I am going to watch some telly, read some magazines, have a snooze, pat the dog and just flake out generally. I will also be glad of the thinking time, although my brain feels like it is on overdrive lately. The work worries on top of everything else I normally think/worry about has just got too much! :rotfl: But I do need to have a bit of a plotting/planning session so at least I can get myself back on track a bit.

I have a counselling session on Monday so will talk to her about this. I hate the feeling that even a simple decision can't be made because a million and one other things rest on it, all tangled up. I am still fretting about ex things which have weighed down a bit this week - think this is wedding fever related :mad:

I just need to relax a bit really.

I am hoping to get some practice done later as i have a lesson tonight, hopefully I will feel a bit more with it later.

Spoke to my harp buddy last night which was great - had my bath and didn't feel like practice after that, so was wondering about my 15 mins heart singing time. But then she rang so my heart sang from a good chat with a good friend. She is coming to Italy as well :j so we talked a lot about that. Her parents had asked her what she was hoping to get out of it, which was a really good question and we had a long disucssion about it.

Both of us are looking for the same thing really - working out how to carve out our niches when neither of us are ever going to be professional concert harpists. There is room for us and our talents, we are sure of that, but we just need to work out what the way forward is The fascinating thing is, we are both asking the same questions but we don't know if we will get the same answers. how exciting! :j

Off back to the sofa, may brave the shower in a bit but need some breakfast first

Souk08

Hon, write everything thats bothering you down. Im about for a bit. PM me if you want. I have just posted on the Matrix re my biggest fear. Feel better now its out X

lionheartedgirl

thanks, have just replied to that as I share it! different of course but definitely relate big time! it is my old boss's biggest fear too, and she is very happily single, never married or wanted to, and has just celebrated her 50th birthday.

That's a great idea to scribble it all down, will drop you a line though thank you. x

burntfingers_2

Morning

It will do you good to have a day off, nothing worse than the feeling that you are coming down with something. Could be the fact that is was hot last week and now it feels like antartic...:(

Strangely enough I said to OH last night that I was feeling like I was starting with a cold as I kept shivering and felt really hungry but we both put it down to the fact that we hadn't eaten/slept much over the weekend.:beer:

Hope the dog is a little better today, although plenty of snuggles on the sofa will probably make you both feel a little better...:)

heres to a chillaxing day to you both

hugs

bf xx

Wordsmith

Sorry you're not feeling great today - everything seems worse when you are a bit under the weather anyway. Worrying about your dog must drag you down, too - just enjoy every second you can with him/her.

Pamper yourself today, remind yourself of your many talents and look forward to your lesson tonight. Hope you feel well enough to go.

mrs_motivated

just found this diary - and may i say - I LOVE IT!

honest, interesting and i am rooting for you hunny xxx

LittleBoots

Hope you are able to relax and enjoy your day off, recharge your batteries
I am seriously considering visiting a psychic centre soon, was never quite sure if I believed in such things before but I just feel so lost just now I'd do anything! I'm sure I'd take it all with a pinch of salt though

lionheartedgirl

oooh LB you have reminded me about my much neglected tarot cards I'm not very good at them so take ages but always find it helps me think about things in a different way especially when at a crossroads, so will see about looking at them this afternoon - thanks!

psychic wise, I would say i am very open to it all although a little scaredy about some of the darker stuff. I have a friend who went to a healer a while ago and recommended her. If you are going to go I would try and go from a recommendation or there is more risk of ending up somewhere that is either bad or a rip off or both. but good luck with it!

thanks Wordsmith and BF, I am now able to have the dog over the weekend too - ex was going to collect him tonight while i have my lesson as I wasn't going to able to get back in time to feed him, but he said it's fine to have him a bit longer and he will collect him on Sunday now :j so lots of time for cuddles and fuss.

I have just found some really lovely music to listen to by a Scottish harpist who has written and recorded a whole album devoted to the theme of whisky! how marvellous! :beer: the first track really stirred me so am lookiing forward to listening to some more. My CD player etc is lacking a cable so I need to pull my finger out and get that sorted as I am feeling a lack of music in my life apart from in the car, and that is not good for an aspiring musician!

Welcome to mrs m too - read your diary yesterday today and was in fits of giggles! please keep popping by! :j

going to have a butty and then a dunk in the shower and then plot the afternoon's relaxing activities. It may involve chopping my head off as it still hurts :rotfl:

lionheartedgirl

well at last head has stopped hurting so no need for DIY surgery

haven't done tarot as my head isn't really in the right place to do it, needed to calm the money worries which I have now done.

the spendy elves haven't been as bad as I thought over the weekend, turned out they did their worst on the food spend last month! :mad: but am forewarned and forearmed now at least.

This month I really, really must stick to my food budget. My finances and my figure will thank me for it. I MUST must must stop the emergency wine/HALT trips to the supermarket on the way home.

Having added up everything, I have enough for a haircut and counselling but no extras. Which should be ok this month, although I will need to spend a bit should MrP appear in a couple of weeks time as planned. I won't need much (especially if he is a no-show :rotfl: ) but just want to be able to pay my share of drinks etc if required, I at least need to offer. But I have a wedding fair on Sunday which popped up at quite late notice, so can use the money from that.

just sorting doggy teatime out and then mine (early for me) then off to my harp lesson. Foreseeing a long chat with my teacher this evening about life stuff as well as music stuff....

LittleBoots

Sounds like a great teacher you have
Glad the head is better, despite those pesky elves!
I got my tarot cards read, tis in me diary. I'm not sure if I believe it as I believe it of because she told me good stuff...