lionheartedgirl promises to let it shine :)

lionheartedgirl

morning,

made a brave start on Davina this morning but stopped soon after as my back started to hurt again. I did something to it a couple of weeks ago, it had got much better but given I need to play for a long time this weekend, I didn't want to risk it. I had been hoping to avoid going back to the osteopath - it really hurt last time and I have not been able to face it since (I know that's a bit wimpy as it's doing good but it really was nasty) - but I just need to get over it and get it done.

I have knuckled down and done a bit of cleaning this morning, bathroom sink was dreadful and the bath needed a wipe. All done and I will tackle the shower in a bit when I get in it The kitchen is sparkling as I did it last night. The rest of the house is shocking but just messy rather than a health hazard!

I was typing away and heard a big bang. Turns out the postie has been and this was a ton of magazines landing in the porch. My magazine habit needs a serious cull, I am stacked up with loads to read but can't bear to cancel them! The worst thing is, I still buy more!

So. House and Garden, Elle, Glamour and Performance Bikes. What a combination :eek: I also buy Grazia and Living etc now and again. Do I need them all? No. Do I like reading and flicking and ripping nice house things out? Yes. Hmmmm...... something else to think about.

Tonight I will be tucking up with Zinedine Zidane - saw a DVD in HMV last weekend, a film that was made about him all shot during a match with a few chatty bits as well. I am not a football addict but I do follow/enjoy/appreciate it, and I am a film buff too. So I'm looking forward to that. Wonder if I can avoid the post-gig junk food temptation tonight....hopefully the shorter drive home will help me feel less bleurghhh and I can face making something better for me.

ETA - the dog thing isn't going away so I think I will start looking again. http://www.clarksfarmgreyhounds.org.uk/ - Charlie and Doc look lovely. Charlie looks like my boy but has white on him too (Bubble only had white on his chest) and may be a bit too bouncy for me. Topper is still there too. If I am going to be on my own long term, I need some company round the house or I am going to go nuts. I don't want to turn into a crazy dog lady though

Wordsmith

Um, what's your definition of a crazy dog lady?

Shoe_Gal

My Red and Glamour arrived today - I love that monthly thud!

LittleBoots

'Glamour and Performance Bikes' jumped out at me!! Haha love it
Getting a bit teary over the dogs so only had a quick look

lionheartedgirl

haha, yes it's a bit of a mad combination. It's about the only one that's about fast bikes and having a whale of a time riding them, but doesn't have half naked women in *insert rolly eyes smiley*

sorry about the dogs LB - meant to ask, did your cat ever come home? I was thinking about her/him yesterday morning.

Busy weekend on the harp front. But really good, had another rehearsal with mum this morning, and then a lesson this afternoon. Most of it was really good, a couple of bits where I got really frustrated and a little tear or two might have squeezed out. I am starting to get nervous about the concert - I have invited lots of people and lots of them have said they are coming :eek: which is the idea but it's all getting a bit real now! :rotfl:

Yesterday's wedding was a cracker! THe longest CofE wedding I've ever been to, and then a lovely reception on her parents' farm that was more like a village fete! :rotfl: but not in a posey way like some of the weddings you see in magazines where everyone is too cool for words Best of all, it was 9 miles from my house - LUXURY. And definitely my kind of do.

The bride's father stood on her frock when they got to the front of the church, she couldn't move for a bit and was laughing. The organist was dreadful and I shared knowing glances with many of the front couple of rows of guests while he was playing Here Comes the Bride :rotfl: The vicar made many jokes about how his favourite sermon was well known by all the Sunday school kids as being the one about turning the water into wine.

I had another teaching enquiry yesterday - from a bloke not in the first flush of youth. He sounds mad as a box of frogs and I can't wait to meet him :rotfl:

Wordsmith - I have heard the expression crazy cat lady to imply a woman of some years who has gone a bit mad and lives in a house that stinks of cat pee and can't communicate with anyone other than cats. Me and my potential crazy cat lady friend changed it to apply to dogs for me. I think it sounds like an alright life really, apart from the smelling of wee bit

back to work tomorrow bahhhhh and back to school traffic grrrrr.

redsquirrel80

Sounds like a wonderful weekend, the wedding sounds great

LittleBoots

LHG, I have just seen your most recent post...my cat came home today!!!

lionheartedgirl

that is very cool, if a little freaky! :j :j :j

I think I need to go and find a psychic lady to explore that side of things properly.....

My harp pupil was an absolute little star tonight. She was absolutely pooped but kept going and really tried her best.

Teaching enquiries are coming thick and fast, so the time is coming to really confront the question of available hours in the day/week... I am not very confident in my abilities yet but seem to be making it through to the end of lessons OK and my little ones are progressing well.

I'm going to tuck in with Corrie and then try a bit of practice - may be too tired to achieve anything meaningful but I'm at the stage now where the concert is so close that I really do need to force things a bit and just keep things bubbling over....

My birthday is rapidly approaching and I have been considering the internet dating thing... hmmm. Mum (bless her) managed to hit a nerve as she bought me a tiny birthday cake that said Just For You. Very obviously a birthday cake for one I know she didn't mean anything nasty by it and actually meant it as a nice cake, but it did hit a nerve. Ah well I'll get there!

ETA - turns out one of my colleagues was at the wedding on Saturday!!

lionheartedgirl

Well, happy birthday to me! :j

Had a bit of a glum morning but am turning myself round now Yet again I have just realised the reason for the tired/bleurghness over the last few days, as I have started sniffling. So have been coming down with a cold. Not great timing but they never are really!

Rehearsal was great last night - we are really getting somewhere.

I was due to have another one tonight but I feel so wiped out and will just crash on the sofa I think. I have had a nice breakfast (well, more brunch really) of proper bacon butties and real coffee, and have nice food in for later - Waitrose dinner for 2 for £10 can be stretched out over a couple of nights

I have GOT to get on and keep on with the life changing-ness, I am not spending another birthday like this.

The urge to clear/chuck/regroup is overwhelming at the moment, I think it's all part of the healing process. I wore a new frock to work yesterday and it is so different to everything else I have in my wardrobe - this is long overdue a good overhaul and I am looking forward to doing this. It involves letting go of a lot of fears and hangups but I can't wait.

I have to be really honest, and say that I am not sure about taking on all this teaching at the moment. It will take so much time, and I am really not sure I want to drop hours from my job just yet. I have to decide whether I really want to do it, or whether it is feeling flattered that my teacher thinks I am capable of doing it.

I nearly resigned yesterday but managed to keep hold of myself :rotfl: but reminds me that I am not making the changes I had hoped to make and I still don't know where my heart lies if that makes sense? (blame the birthday/lurgy addled brain!)

XF texted to wish me happy birthday, I have not replied. Typed a caustic reply several times but there really is no point in sending anything. He doesn't give a fig about what he has caused, and has not changed despite all the opportunities and support he has had.

I'm starting to contemplate the online dating thing a bit more. Not quite ready yet but getting there

PS - had cards from the most surprising people but none from those I had hoped. funniest was from my ex-MIL, she knows I have gone back to maiden name but still sent it to my married name even though there is another Mrs R now!! I'm so thrilled she bothered though.

hypno06

And a very very happy birthday to you

I hope this next year brings you all the love and laughter that you wish for xxx