Diets & Relationships...

GEEGEE8

Hey everyone,

I'm struggling today again just completely gone off the rails and really need to get back on track!

Minxtress - I think men do suffer insecurity when women lose weight. I know my OH would, but then if he went and got loads of muscles I would prob be insecure too - and no we can't win! lol..

BF - I know exactly how you feel, I just seem to have lost my focus and can't get it back at the moment. The oven is still broken and that's really not helping matters. I feel bloated and just generally awful.

I didn't go swimming on Monday as I had loads of Uni work, meant to be going badminton tonight but not 100% sure if we are yet, I have an exam tomorrow at 9am and an assignment due in tomorrow, eeeek! Done most of the assignment, just another hour to go on it. Then revision on Steels and Concrete, erghh.. lol.

Things are going well at home so far, although as I'm busier now then maybe that's helping?

GEEGEE8

BF - Who is getting made redundant? Not you I hope?

burntfingers_2

Yeah me, am seconded to my job that I do now...and the funding has been withdrawn :eek:. I can't complain tbh as I have had almost three years of this secondment, but I love where I work and the work that I do. But without the funding I can't work at my secondment and can't go back to my original job as they can't afford to keep me either.

My job for my company is not a necessity, it is an extra service and as they are running on a tight budget then there just isn't the funds available to keep me

GEEGEE8

Oh no! I'm really sorry to hear that

do you have anything else in the pipeline? x

burntfingers_2

I keep been told that there are things in the pipeline at the secondment place, but so far I am not privy to that information. Am hoping that things will turn out okay, as it is a much needed service and ticks lots of boxes, which unfortunately is what it seems to be about

My own company is trying to find funding for me, although time is ticking by and to be honest the government department they applied to for the grant application needed to be in by 12pm on Monday. It left HO at 11.57am, and wasn't completed correctly. It stated on the application that any questions not known needed to be marked N/K or N/A not applicable..you wasn't allowed to leave any questions unanswered....but there was plenty :mad:

Anyways, back to you this is your diary.

How are you today? Are things on an even keel at home and more have you got the oven mended yet?? How's the diet going ? I hope you managed to complete your work ready for today...:)

Staying logged on again today, so will keep bobbing back :coffee:

ttfn Bf xx

GEEGEE8

Hey BF, well I really hope they get something sorted out for you, especially as the application has been messed up.. grr.. some things you are just best doing yourself unfortunately, other people just don't seem to care.!

I'm so tired today, day two of getting up at 6:30 for Uni. My boyfriend gets up at 6am every day, but I'm just not used to it, and ended up going bed late, not a good start.. Oh and I had an exam at 9am, so 1hr drive to uni, 40min exam, 1hr drive home.. £12 in fuel, £3.40 parking.. I'm going to have to start going on the train again, it's £9.10 return I think. Just a bit of a hassle, but driving is costing me a fortune now. When I'm in all day, parking alone is £8.50! eekk!

Home life is going strangely okay actually! We went badminton last night, which was nice, let's off steam! lol. Oven is still broken! I ordered the part on Friday night, said it was posted out on Monday by 1st class post and still not arrived. We have been eating ready meal microwave stuff, I made sausage mash and green beans the other night, but OH is moaning that he wants 'normal' food again, so he is wanting to buy an oven from Argos tonight, like a mini oven thingy lol.. I think we should just wait for the part but I've been saying that all week, and he is buying it (£45), so I'm just gonna let him do what he wants, it keeps him happy and doesn't bother me either way really.

Diet is a disaster, I don't know what went wrong! Actually I do.. the assignment and the exam this week. My weak spot is stress and it's ruined my diet haha.

Good news is the assignment got completed and handed in today (officially not due until tomorrow), and my exam went okay(ish) this morning, although I don't get the results for 2 weeks, so fingers crossed! Another exam in law next weds morning, should be easy enough and we get instant results for those ones as they are done on the computer

Worked out that I got the 2nd highest grade in the year for last semester, so I'm well pleased just need to get focussed for this semester and hope to get the same.. motivation is slowly returning

Hope your day is going well!

Gem xx

burntfingers_2

Hi Gem

If I had known about the application for the grant then I would have completed it myself and at least if it failed then its my own fault not just down to someone elses incompetence :mad: Am remaining hopeful though although having said that I have started looking for another job.

Well done for completing your assignment on time, especially with all the stress that you have had lately. Fingers crossed that the exam went well for you too.:T

If he is willing to pay for the oven and he can afford him let him get on with it, at least you will be able to have some decent meals and not just the ones that go in the microwave, its strange how you start to miss proper meals though isn't it?? He will probably buy the oven and the part will turn up but sods law if you don't buy the oven it will have got lost in the post somewhere !!!

At least you have done some form of excercise this week ie the badminton I haven't done any but with everything going on at the moment have felt really stressed and not been sleeping too well.

My OH is brilliant though and will ask me if I need to talk about things or he just gives me a cuddle and always, always cuddles me in bed which daft as it sounds makes me feel really safe and loved so very much. So with him by my side I feel that I can cope with anything and everything..:)

I am feeling really tired too, but think its a lack of sleep, tossing and turning and then your mind starts going over and over things and finding it difficult to switch off.

Looking forwards to the weekend which is starting tomorrow with a night out with my soon to be ex hubby's family....then out with my sister and her OH on Saturday night lots of alcohol and food so bang goes the diet again....:rotfl:

Hope your enjoying your evening will be logging in again at work tomorrow so will catch up with you tomorrow sometime.

ttfn

bf xx

GEEGEE8

Hey BF,

Sorry I didn't reply before, my updates on subscriptions aren't working and it looked like no-one had posted so I didn't look.. arrghhh.

Had a bit of a tiff with OH by text this morning, over nothing! It's really annoyed me because he works a lot of overtime and he works sat morning overtime, so is usually really tired by then.. so I always get my head bitten off for no reason at all.

Every day he will text and say 'morning' before I wake up, which is nice.. been doing it for months and months.. last 3 days he hasn't text at all until I've text him, *I know this sounds petty*, so I text and said 'morning! don't you text morning anymore or something?'.. well, that innocent text started WW3! I simply thought he would say, he didn't want to wake me, and I would say, don't be silly I like it. No! I got accused of being in a mood, getting out the wrong side of bed, do I expect him to text at 6am and wake me up.. I said numerous time I didn't mean it like that and it was just an innocent comment and I'm def not in a mood, was just wondering.

Well, it's gone on all morning, him having a go at me.. saying me being happy didn't last long, he's going into town after work to get some things for himself, I always ruin weekends, what is wrong with me, that I've lost the plot, I've been really out of order and have to apologise now... blah blah blah

I have asked 4 times now what exactly I need to apologise for? He won't answer, his answer is always 'forget it, had enough of talking about it'... and the latest one 'you're entitled to your opinion', when I said I don't know why I need to apologise about an innocent text that wasn't even bad and that I straight away explained wasn't meant in the way he read it..

What a joke, I've been in tears this morning because of all this, it's so stupid!

He says don't text me back, so I don't.. then I'm ignoring him when I feel like it apparently.. then he refuses to answer my text??? !!!!!! is going on here?

I only asked why he decided not to text in the morning anymore...

jinky67

All sounds very familiar to me :cool:

burntfingers_2

know what you mean about the text thing....your used to getting one and then the one day that you don't get one, you start to think that you have upset them or something...I'm afraid its all part of the control....they manage to upset you by not texting, and what was something so innocent ends up been your fault and making something out of nothing....

So then in the end, he has made you feel carp....your left wondering what you did wrong...then you start being nice to him so its kinda like reinforcing the negative behaviour.

I got into that trap and found it hard to get out of....keep your chin up none of it was your fault...sorry but think he is playing games with you ....

Keep focussed on meeting up with your uni friends and try and build some of your contacts back up and continue with your course/diet etc...he will come round or he won't but none of that is your fault...

Hope you have a better evening tonight...will log on when I get into the office tomorrow and say hello