Miscarriage support

portsmouthali

Hope the antibiotics have kicked in Hulagirl xx

Had a fairly nice day yesterday, felt quite chilled & was looking forward to the summer. Not so good today though been very tearful and almost overwhelmed with sadness at times I feel better now that my son is home from school, and my OH will be back from college fairly soon.

Just one of those days I guess Hope everyone else is OK xxxx

gratefulforhelp_2

Hugs for you. x

hulagirl79

Ah ali- hope you have a better day tomorrow, i understand how you feel i feel all sad and lost on my own but feel better when other half is here. Think the antibiotics have kicked in although lots of bleeding today.
Hugs to everyone. X

MoneySavingMamma

I'm still having normals & downs (no ups yet)
Just completely gutted really. Talked to OH a little bit last night, I'm leaning towards TTC again, but taking a step back from work to rest a little during preg, and having time to be a good mum if it happens.

I'm still so tired, is this body drained from mc, or depression?

Rang EPAC as heard nothing from anyone (They said midwife would be in contact) they've told me it sounds like its nearly finished (not bleeding now, more watery?) and to do a preg test, if neg, then hormones gone.

Would that not just be traumatising myself more? Looking at that neg where my positive was? Don't think its work putting myself through more

Still lurking on <12weeks, so many graduating to 12-24weeks now. I should be 12 weeks tomorrow, scan Friday.

QQuaver

MoneySavingMamma wrote: »

to do a preg test, if neg, then hormones gone.

Would that not just be traumatising myself more? Looking at that neg where my positive was? Don't think its work putting myself through more

It is traumatising:( (((Hugs))).

When I first did the test, I got +. That was sad too. Then I waited for AF to arrive, and did the test after it was gone. That was negative:(

gratefulforhelp_2

MSM the way I looked at a negative test was it equalled body going back to normal which meant at least I had the chance to try again, even if I wasn't sure I wanted to.

I can see its really hard though, if you're not ready to go back to normal, or you don't feel right now that you ever will. x

portsmouthali

hulagirl79 wrote: »

Ah ali- hope you have a better day tomorrow, i understand how you feel i feel all sad and lost on my own but feel better when other half is here. Think the antibiotics have kicked in although lots of bleeding today.
Hugs to everyone. X

The daft thing is, I've had 2 offers of company today (from my sister in law and my boss, who had a day off) but I turned them both down as I can't face seeing anyone other than OH & our boy. I feel silly talking about it to anyone who hasn't been through it in case it seems like I'm making a fuss over nothing - I know you all don't think that, and don't mind me going on & on...:p

MSM, I hated doing the pregnancy test after my first loss, like Q's it was still positive and I found that very upsetting. Didn't do it after my 2nd and not doing it this time either xx

hulagirl79

Ali- i understand how you feel. I cant be bothered to talk to most people, find it hard to make the effort to talk. But you are right we dont mind you rambling on ;-). I have done it enough. X

manda1205

MSM, I know what you mean about the downs and no ups as such, personally I dont think it means you're depressed, it just takes quite a while for your hormones and the grief to settle down and you dont really realise it until it does if you get me? You will get through it though, eventually.
With my first MMC I had a ERPC and I was very down immediately after and cried quite a lot, yet with my natural MC I was fine straight after and thought that was it, then about 2 weeks later I kept getting really upset again, and still now (its been about a month) I get upset and angry/jealous seeing other pregnant people, I just realise it will get easier and you have to move forward. I also think its good to let your body rest, I had 2 MC in 3 months and after second I got water infection, 3 mouth ulcers and felt so tired and just not well, think my body was saying "just rest for a bit".

portsmouthali

Manda, I've been surprised at how different I feel having had the ERPC this time. With my previous m/cs, the sense of loss was almost gradual really. This time, although physically it's been much easier, the grief has hit me like a ton of bricks. I guess maybe it's because the hormone levels drop much quicker?

I'm also worrying a bit about work - I'm supposed to be going back on Monday but the thought fills me with dread. I feel like such a failure (ridiculous I know) and although my manager & my colleagues are all lovely people who will all be very kind to me, I don't feel like I can face them. The thought of seeing our families this weekend is also worrying me but I know we will have to as it's mothers day. I so want to stop feeling like this