Day by day...

ceridwen

Savvy_Sue wrote: »

Send your friends over to the DFW board, faith ...

Good suggestion there.

I'm not a habitue of that Board - but people do seem to get a lot of support and helpful advice there - so sounds like a good idea to me.:T

Glad you've been getting through the weekend okay.

ceridwen

faithcecilia wrote: »

I should shouldn't I? Sadly she is still at the 'it will be okay, I can manage point and doesn't seem to realise it won't get better unless she really works at it. I will keep trying...

Well....one point to make to her is that one never knows when something nasty is going to happen to one's income. I've seen it happen - not to me, but to other people who had taken on a shedload of debt. Sometimes people work their way through their debt okay - without having job problems whilst doing so. Other times - I have seen friends and others be in an amount of debt that I would find very worrying and then find they are at risk of reduced income.

My own job situation is precarious - and its a great comfort to me that I havent got any debt at all if the worst comes to the worst. Even better is having a bit of "darn them" money stashed away in case:D

Savvy_Sue

Well, at least point them to the main site. There's all sorts of helpful advice there on how to manage debt, how to save money, and how to make your money go further.

If you're giving christmas presents, you could do worse than buy Martin's first book for them!

faithcecilia

Oh dear, today isn't going well. I am emotionally exhausted. I was feeling so sick I had to cancel the friends I was going to see today, i just couldn't do it. I keep crying and I just want to go home now. I've been down here, I have had a couple of reasonable days, but it has all now got a bit much. I am looking up trans again but know I am not going to be able to afford to just go now, although that is what I want to do at the moment. Thank goodness I did bring the laptop, it is prooving to be a lifelime because otherwise I would only have my own thoughts and I really don't think I could manage that at this precise moment.

ceridwen

Well you have been cramming a lot in Faith....so 'tis not that surprising...

grit teeth my dear....it wont be much longer now before that train goes...

faithcecilia

Well, I am into the last few hours! I have had a lovely day so far, catching up with yet more friends, meeting children who weren't born when I ent away, and eating too much:p I will be glad come 8:30, when I have done the getting into and across London bit of the journey and am on my last train home, knowing my frandlord is meeting me at the other end so I don't have to get he local train and then walk home. I am shattered, and there have been times during the weekend when I have really wondered why I ever bothered coming down, why I chose to put myself through it all, but now I do think it was the right thing, even though it ended up getting the 'answer' I didn't want from my parents. I think I have managed to lay a ghost or two to rest and now at least I know where I stand.

ceridwen

...and I guess that answer you didnt want from your parents was that they will never give you their blessing to be a nun?? Oh well - it would have been nice to have it - but, if needs must, then you'll have to go ahead without it then...

As I said before - it can take many years for parents to accept the child they have - rather than getting upset that they didnt get one similar to themselves. Maybe some parents never do - I dont know.

I guess ultimately that there probably arent many parents around who try to find out what sort of person they have actually got for a child/what their interests are/what their abilities are. One of my virtual friends here on MSE always amuses me by describing her son as the "small person" - but it is very pleasing as well and she obviously is determined and happy to get to know the person he actually is - and I think thats lovely. But - it does have to be said - that parents like her dont seem to be in the majority from what I can see sadly....

If your parents wont accept you as you are - then dont take it as being any reflection on yourself. If there is nothing wrong with you - and there certainly doesnt seem to be from where I'm standing - then that is THEIR problem, not yours.

faithcecilia

Oh I want to go home, and my trip to where I used to live has only made me more sure that I need to be back at Quidenham, that I can never go back to Essex.

Had an email from my prioress saying she cannot give me the attention she thinks I am asking for so she is handing me over to the novice mistress, which I think will be better. I am writing to her, snail mail, at the moment.

I cannot fit out here.

Roll on 11 days, a new job an a new routine. I am sure that will help as I will be concentrating on my work and my employers, and I will be at the the back of my own mind.

The course they want me to do in Manchester is booked for June, that seems a long way ahead but I guess that is how it is.

I want to get oblitterayed, drink myself into a coma and sleep for 3 days. Sadly I am too sknint for that.

onetomany

keep smiling faith your doing a great job have a hot chocky and snuggle up with a book or in mycase i use mse lol sending u a big hug x

ceridwen

faithcecilia wrote: »

Oh I want to go home, and my trip to where I used to live has only made me more sure that I need to be back at Quidenham, that I can never go back to Essex.

Had an email from my prioress saying she cannot give me the attention she thinks I am asking for so she is handing me over to the novice mistress, which I think will be better. I am writing to her, snail mail, at the moment.

I cannot fit out here.

Roll on 11 days, a new job an a new routine. I am sure that will help as I will be concentrating on my work and my employers, and I will be at the the back of my own mind.

The course they want me to do in Manchester is booked for June, that seems a long way ahead but I guess that is how it is.

I want to get oblitterayed, drink myself into a coma and sleep for 3 days. Sadly I am too sknint for that.

Well...'tis the most unusual nun I've come across methinks..to be sure....errr....nope.....I dont think drinking yourself into a coma sounds like a good idea to me:eek: - there are advantages to being skint then;):D

So - the Manchester course. I'm a bit confused - is this to do with your prospective job or the nunnery? (Not quite sure what this course is..)