Day by day...

faithcecilia

The course is about the convent.


So no drink for me last night, unless diet irn bru counts?

Job centre today, hopefully for the last time:j but not 100% sure if you can sign off more than 7 days before starting the new job, so I might have to face them next week too:eek:

onetomany

lets us no how u get on hun x

faithcecilia

onetomany wrote: »

lets us no how u get on hun x

asigning on was fine, but say its too early to sign off yet, so have to pop in next week.

Popped into Wilkinsons for some socks on way home, now considering doing some housework before I go to my counselling later.

daska

But next weeks visit will be the last time you have to face them and you'll be telling them to 'get stuffed' - very politely and not as directly of course Did you get all your travel arrangements sorted out?

ceridwen

Ahhhh...I see...so I guess that means we are sorta working on a timeline that means you going back into the convent in June next year then maybe?

faithcecilia

ceridwen wrote: »

Ahhhh...I see...so I guess that means we are sorta working on a timeline that means you going back into the convent in June next year then maybe?

I don't know I think its sort of a psychometric assessment thing. My instinctive reaction was to ask if they say I'm okay does that mean I can go straight back, but I managed to just say yes okay those dates are fine.


'Interesting' counselling session today. She wanted to go back over last weeks session, working on getting my distress score down, but I didn't want to, to me to get to the stage where I don't feel anything is to discredit my vocation - I am too passionate about it to want to feel nothing. We talked about it a bit, I sulked quite a lot as I felt we were wasting the session:rolleyes: and basically I told her I am sick of having to repeatedly talk about the same things when they are in the past and no amount of talking will make a blind bit of difference! I wasn't rude, but I didn't go in for niceties either. She told me that being sick of talking about it is actually a good sign - I HAVE talked about it, but now am ready to 'get on with it'

I haven't come away 100% overjoyed today, but I do think, and she said too, that its good that I have aired it. She said my honesty is uncommon and she was pleased(yes, okay). We also talked about how we are going to work once I move (we are going to telephone counselling) and have booked a couple of extra sessions before I do go.

ceridwen

faithcecilia wrote: »

I don't know I think its sort of a psychometric assessment thing. My instinctive reaction was to ask if they say I'm okay does that mean I can go straight back, but I managed to just say yes okay those dates are fine.


'Interesting' counselling session today. She wanted to go back over last weeks session, working on getting my distress score down, but I didn't want to, to me to get to the stage where I don't feel anything is to discredit my vocation - I am too passionate about it to want to feel nothing. We talked about it a bit, I sulked quite a lot as I felt we were wasting the session:rolleyes: and basically I told her I am sick of having to repeatedly talk about the same things when they are in the past and no amount of talking will make a blind bit of difference! I wasn't rude, but I didn't go in for niceties either. She told me that being sick of talking about it is actually a good sign - I HAVE talked about it, but now am ready to 'get on with it'

I haven't come away 100% overjoyed today, but I do think, and she said too, that its good that I have aired it. She said my honesty is uncommon and she was pleased(yes, okay). We also talked about how we are going to work once I move (we are going to telephone counselling) and have booked a couple of extra sessions before I do go.

Hmmm....well that certainly raises a few interesting thoughts in my mind anyways...ie the thought of "not feeling anything". I guess each viewpoint on that is as valid as any other - but, having read (okay-dokey - touched RATHER lightly on reading about Buddhist ideas for instance) - I tend to think enviously of the idea of NOT having strong feelings about anything - of feeling rather "detached" and relatively emotionless about everything and feel I probably often make much the most "rational" decisions about things when I can keep my turbulent emotions under control....:rolleyes::D. I sometimes think I could quite happily live in just a calm/"detached"/peaceful frame of mind - and to me personally that is still VERY much a "work in progress". I have a temper/I get anxious pretty easily/etc - but staying calm and "detached" are sorta goals I tend to have in mind to aim for anyway...:D

I guess its each to their own in this respect - but personally I am finding life a LOT easier now that I am part way along the road towards that calm/"detached" frame of mind destination. Might not suit everyone I know...

One thing I have learnt by now - over the years - is that other people often deliberately try and stir up one's feelings and emotions in one way or another and it helps A LOT to realise this fact now and try and stay as "aloof" as I can manage from it..maybe thats just me...:cool:

ceridwen

Good morning Faith

Just been reading the papers and found an article you might be interested to read:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1225297/My-life-drink-night-stands-left-feeling-hollow-Ive-answer-Im-going-nun.html

faithcecilia

ceridwen wrote: »

Good morning Faith

Just been reading the papers and found an article you might be interested to read:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1225297/My-life-drink-night-stands-left-feeling-hollow-Ive-answer-Im-going-nun.html

I know of her. The community she is joining is one I seriously considered in my early vocation, but realised that m tue calling was to be a nun, to live a life of enclosure and separation from the world rather than being an active Religious Sister (the terms are usually missused, as in this article, bu only enclosed women who take solemn vows are technically nuns). They are a good community, doing a lot of very good work, and I am sure she will be very happy there. I wish her all the best.

onetomany

ceridwen wrote: »

Good morning Faith

Just been reading the papers and found an article you might be interested to read:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1225297/My-life-drink-night-stands-left-feeling-hollow-Ive-answer-Im-going-nun.html

thanks ceridwen ive learnt a lot from you link