Old Style Diary Archive - MAY 06

stressedoutmumof1

Evening all

Jo - Just wanted to say chin up!! It's poo when you split up with someone, but the most important thing is looking after yourself.

I also have to say I'm one of those weird people who love their jobs too, I work hard, but it gets rewarded (verbally) - which is probably why I love it.

We're away for the weekend, so I'm desperately trying to tidy up, I hate coming back to a messy house.

Bye for now

RacyRed

You got the same colour hun? I was hoping for the red one, :rotfl:

cha97michelle

Thanks for making me chuckle Racy. I needed that.

I've had a rush around day again back at work, having to do lots of dreaded cover when other teachers just didn't turn up. I also had to have my back to work interview, when technically i only missed 2 hours of teaching. It's a bit of a joke. I've brought home plenty of marking to occupy me over the weekend, as it all needs doing before our next school inspection on the 22nd.

I had to take fred to the big vet in the next town again today, for a 2nd opinion. They now think he haas damaged his hip, and i could choose to leave it, or get it x-rayed again and some attempt to sort it. As he is such a young cat, i thought it best to be looked at again, so that's at least another £30 next week. Plus, another day of running around with him, more time off work for one of us. I think it will have to be DH next time as i have done it all the time to now and its starting to get too much for me to carry the carrier.

Also, DH managed to get pulled over by the police for driving while he was using his phone ON OUR STREET with a £30 fine. I could wring his neck.

i had a school lunch today as DH is away AGAIN this weekend and i knew i wouldn't feel like cooking. I've just had some wheetabix for my dinner. I'm turning into snowy. Hope i don't catch her insommnia.

I really need an early night and a relaxing weekend. Will have to stop up until DH phones to say he arrived ok.

See you all tomorrow.

Michelle, xx

Pink.

Thanks for the smile racy..........

I don't often post on here, but I've had a horrible day. I wan't to leave home right now, but I don't have half the problems that many of you are facing at the moment so sending hugs and thoughts to all of you.

Pink

tiptoes

Hi all not been around for a while have been busy with getting course work and exam revision done, so lat exam on monday and then thats uni done:j :eek:. My DS/DD are really pleased as "I get to be a real mum again", they know how to make you feel guilty don't they.

Racy: You gave me a giggle, thanks
P-P: Hope you sleep better tonight
Catowen: Hope hospital when well
Snowy: you should see my house, the dust is think, though you can't see that for the paper and books everywhere, have promised self will get stuck in on Tuesday, just need to find an industrial sized stardrops:rotfl:

Have two new additions to the family, DD/Ds have got a rabbit and a guinea pig, which suprisingly are my responsibility. Have got the tightwads Gazette from the library, which I plan to read next week after the cleaning.

Take care all

BWZN93

Hi all!

LearningtoSave - Sounds like a fab idea!

Bargain Rzl - be as brutal as you like - im kicking myself here for not getting rid sooner! Ive now got a brand new kingsize bed all to myself, and im going to learn how to sleep right in the middle...

Thanks for all your kind words! Its really nice to see that you all care. It has been coming for a while though, I sometimes cant help but spill it all here so I guess you have all been waiting for this! :rolleyes:

As I said earlier, the final straw was quitting the job he had only had for a week, :mad: when it was the one thing that I was really pleased about, because it meant I could stop working so many saturdays and stop exhausting myself so much, :mad: as well as it being a bit fairer financially. It took pretty much 6 months of almost bullying him into it so I feel like ive wasted a lot of time and feel pretty stupid for trying to get him to grow up and face the fact that he is 26 and life isnt lived through playing computer games and guitars. :mad:

It also annoyes me when I think back over the last 6 months and realise this should have been done much sooner - xmas day was spent barely saying a word to each other (no present for me) :mad: , my birthday was spent at home waiting for him to wake up to do something which never happened :mad: , and no present :mad: , Valentines day was spent seething at him for forgetting and spending all day in bed :mad: , and Bank holiday weekends spent on my own because he was, yup - asleep all day. :mad:

Actually - im getting bloody angry :mad: :mad: :mad: at him right now for treating me with no respect and care - I may as well have been a bloody servant and it was all for nothing. He was supposed to spend his time doing productive music stuff - and thats why I agreed to him working part time post uni because I thought he might actually try and make a success of it, instead he just sat on his lazy a$$ playing computer games and living in his head waiting for me to come home and clean up and feed him. :mad:

I suppose me working and him not working has done one thing though - I spent all my spare money on the flat and pretty much everything in it is now mine, so at least I dont have to do the nightmare of splitting posessions - he can take his goddam guitar, computer, clothes, and get the hell out of my life. I worked bloody hard to make myself a home and for my own security, so at least I know I can take care of myself and the cat and I know I can pay the bills on my own. Ive been through worse and im not letting this b*****d grind me down.

Ill stop now - I dont want to bore you all! But if anyone wants to pm me msn details that would be fab - im going to need people to talk to given that I now live only with a cat so I might forget how to string a sentence together. :eek:

Jo xx

nuttyrockeress

Elona, be sure that your dad does appreciate all your efforts. He is also going through it at the moment, and unfortunately, family are the first people they take out any angst on.

The medication won't really help his mood either.

Be strong and smile - all beit though gritted teeth. Let him know that you love him and are rooting for him to get back to better health.

Above all, look after yourself, you need to have the strength to get yourself through it and get him through it. Sure times will be hard and all you feel like doing is locking yourself away from the world and have a damn good cry. When it feels like this, take a deep breath and try to get yourself some "you" time.
Go for a walk, a drive, gather your thoughts but try not to let him see your upset.

I know that he really does appreciate all that you are doing (I don't know either of you I know) and i'm sure once things get better, he will tell you just how much.

Take care hun - if you ever ever need to chat, you know where the PM button is!
Lyndsey x

Faith_2

JW1096 you didn't waste your time or make a fool of yourself. I've been reading some of your posts over the past few months and was wondering when the inevitable would happen. You gave it your best shot. You tried and you have nothing to regret.

Just look forward to the future and enjoy!

Been there, done it and got the smile on my face to show for it!

Faith_2

And cats are great company lol!

RacyRed

Pink-winged, I'm so sorry you have had a horrible day and that you feel like leaving home.

You work really hard for us hun, have a rant if you feel like it, we will listen big hugs :grouphug: to you and eveyone else who needs them.

Jo, men or cats? :think: :think: :whistle: (just be careful in the post office hun )