A new start for Mooloo

bertiebots

hope lets hope its one of those beautiful spring mornings tomorrow , a fresh start to your new start Mooloo. If the sun is shining why not go for a stroll with dgd and feel the morning sun on your face?.
I dont know what your village is like but am picturing some lovely yellow daffys to cheer up your day. Hers a virtual bunch because you deserve to see some sunshine.......

:grouphug:Dodgy hug x

Savvy_sewing

bertiebots wrote: »

hope lets hope its one of those beautiful spring mornings tomorrow , a fresh start to your new start Mooloo. If the sun is shining why not go for a stroll with dgd and feel the morning sun on your face?.
I dont know what your village is like but am picturing some lovely yellow daffys to cheer up your day. Hers a virtual bunch because you deserve to see some sunshine.......

:grouphug:Dodgy hug x

They are lovely. thank you. The flowers are not out in our village yet, but they are around. Unfortunately my walking distances are not brilliant as yet. we will see waht we can come up with.

Errata

The EX boyfie sounds like a real charmer, I don't think. You may tend to think in the coming weeks that he wasn't so bad and would another go be possible.
If you sit down right now and write down all the bad things he did to hurt you, make you feel small and pathetic, didn't give you a helping hand etc etc Then read it every time you think he wasn't so bad, you'll remind yourself he most certainly was.

Savvy_sewing

Dont forget he reads this. he will not be asking to comeback once he reads this, if he isnt already sitting at his PC reading it.
I will not be trying again, dispite wanting to have made it work. I am exhausted, and I needed support not critisism from him. I needed help and he wasnt available. He didnt change his routine very much for me. But then in his mind, he will say that I didnt tell him everything i did, or who i spoke to, or who rang me, or who text me, or PM's me. I didnt tell him I was going to the fridge for a glass of wine.
Heaven forbid if I was to go to the pub! Well now I can.
Well I could if I could afford it.

I will just have to pull those boot straps up, and makesure I keep my guard up. Not let him in again. Becuase it would just happen all over again and again wouldnt it.

I intend to teach Phill his sewing lessons. I intend to find a way to move on and make enough money out of my sewing so I can keep my cottage, and grow my veg, and look out of the window at the sheep on the hill.
Oneday I will have the energy to stand tall again, and to look back and laugh at how stupid I have been these last 6 years.
But I will still hurt for quite a while yet. dispite my bravado.

Edinburghlass_2

National Trust properties are free tomorrow, you can check on their website if you have anywhere close to you for tomorrow?

http://www.nationaltrust.org.uk/main/

Errata

Course you will, that's only human. It took me a while to get over someone once, but now if I think of him the thought always ends with 'the bar$stard'

It's early doors, as they say in footie, but you're sounding more positive than you did in your first post today, keep it up.

And if the boyfie's reading this, all I have to say is :p:p

Savvy_sewing

Thanks all, I am off to bed, I am exhausted. Night. x

thorsoak

Frankly, Mooloo, and I can only go on what I have read here - BF sounds as if he was as much support to you as a chocolate teapot!

At least you have one stress removed from you ...{{hugs}}

Sleep well.

Molly41

Good morning,
It looks like a lovely sunny day here today. Hope you had a restful sleep and that DGD is ok? xx

Savvy_sewing

Morning,
Its a reluctant early morning. DGD kept waking up, with nightmares, as did I. She has an upset stomach alright. But not sure its bothering her that much at the moment. Just not good for me changing the nappies.!
Hard part was she was asking if we were going to see him?
I had a disturbed night. Took hours to fall asleep, it was in the very early hours, that I finally went to sleep, approaching 4 I would say, as I saw 3.45 on the clock.
So when DGD started shouting for granny yet again, at just before 7am I was not thrilled.

Thankfully as Molly said, the sun is out, so looking out of the window I can see the sun on the hill. The sheep are bleating, as they were most of the night!, and I am hoping I will get through a Sunday.
Its strange not having a goodnight text and a goodmorning one. But i have to resist the urge to send one.
As noted, it will not do my anygood in the long run. Its not me that needs to appologies, and its not me who is suspicious, and devious about things.
But of course that is my practical head, and not my romantic head thats remembering some of the good points.
I am already feeling very choaked up!
Cup of tea time, while DGD has her breakfast and she already put the TV on to CBeebies.! On this occasion I think if its keeping her busy, then perhaps I will not protest very loadly. Until my tablets have kicked in, and I get myself moving.