MSE Parents Club Part 3

Krystaltips

Sami it's fine to add to it throughout the day

astonsmummy

Hi all!
You can request your notes, I used a service called 'birth matters' where I went through them with a lovely MW when i was about 34/35 weeks (should of done it earlier) and it made interesting reading as to what happened with Aston.
Incidently near on the same thing happend with Ryan, seems my cervix has a great relationship with 6cm :rolleyes:

I'm back at work already, OH isn't working so someone has to work, I'm loving it actually although it's tiring, hoepfully he'll find something soon then i can cut my hours back down.

No problems to report in this camp, Ryan is just a dream, i'm really happy
Got astons bday party toda :eek:

BrunoM

Lovely pictures Sami and 3 I especially like the arty peering eyes

Elijah has learned how to pull himself up, and now spends all his time doing that and then biting whatever he finds:



Oh - that's mummy's knee he's biting, I know it's not obvious in the pic

BrunoM

Trying to convince OH that E isn't really an unreasonably bad sleeper/napper for a 10 month old... can anyone share some 'bad sleep' stories from around 8-12 months?

astonsmummy

My boys:

BrunoM

Oh what an awesome pair AM that's a great pic. And isn't the baby large and powerful looking (and hirsute ) for 2 months!

cazscoob

well things have went from bad to worse. it is all over.

i woke up during the night feeling carp and full of the cold, OH was sleeping and i heard his phone go. went to see who is was as it was 3am and thought something might be wrong. well did i not come across a load of text msgs from another girl. he has told her he loves her etc etc etc and i am suposidly his cow of an ex who is really nasty?? funny that how i go out my way to do everything to make him happy. my heart is broken and i have been crying all night. 3 years i have been called for everything and i have given up my friends and going out to prove to him how much i love him and want things to work. it looked like things were getting sorted before i went to bed, i went up early as i wasnt feeling well?

I woke him up to tell him i knew, he said they met online and it was just words. he did it to get his own back on me. he keeps saying sorry but i have nothing left in me.
everything has come out overnight about the way i am feeling an how sad and lonely i am. i think i have bad PND but have been good at hiding it? i dont go anywhere really or see anyone. i asked him and HV for help and not one of them helped. i really dont know what to do, right now i just want to disappear. he said he wont leave me like this. on one hand i feel like there is nothing i can do and just have to take him back, how can i cope with 5 kids myself? but on the other i hate him and just want him to go and leave us alone. the tears wont stop and my whole body is shaking, i know i need to be strong for the kids but i just cant function.
what on earth do i do?

Becles

So sorry to hear that cazcoob *hugs* I think you need some time to clear your head and work out exactly what you want. Is there anyway you could get out alone just even to go for a walk, get a cup of coffee - that kind of thing?

I'm out all day today. I'm actually posting from the train on the way to Leeds for a uni day school. If you want someone to chat to tomorrow though, do let me know. Take care xx

cazscoob

i was thinking about going to my dads for a bit? i just feel that im at breaking point.
thanks becles x

BrunoM

Going to your dad's sounds like a good idea this is the kind of thing no-one should have to deal with by themselves... if your dad is the best support and someone who will listen (and hopefully not be too judgmental) then that would be really good for you.

Very sorry to hear