I've just found a lump in my breast

James240

Hey gorgeous!!! Hope u have a great weekend xxx and love the lamp xxx

all my love

James x

elona

Ember

I love the lamp - when you are celebrating - how about pink champagne - just to keep up the theme?

Fingers and toes crossed for tuesday.

Remember that the things we worry most about are not the things that actually happen!

Positive pink thoughts to you.

Sofa_Sogood

Hi Ember. It's great to see that your posts have a more upbeat note ... well done on the positive thinking

Good to see some men contributing too - bless

Can I hijack the thread for a minute, to remind those reading that not only should they remember to check for lumps, but also to keep up with their cervical smear appointments?

Thanks for that and good luck again for Tuesday.

powie69

I've just noticed your thread and just wanted to say that my thoughts are with you. It is not sometihng that I've been through myself, but a lot of people close to me have. I hope all goes well for your appointment on Tuesday:hello: .

Just remember that there are a lot of people thinking of you, and that you are not alone.

Best Wishes

Powie69

Ember999

powie69 wrote:

I've just noticed your thread and just wanted to say that my thoughts are with you. It is not sometihng that I've been through myself, but a lot of people close to me have. I hope all goes well for your appointment on Tuesday:hello: .

Just remember that there are a lot of people thinking of you, and that you are not alone.

Best Wishes

Powie69

Thank You Powie69, your good wishes are most appreciated. I am feeling fine tonight, I had a couple of hours panicking again earlier this afternoon, when the fear took hold of me again, but my husband talked to me for several hours and when he went to bed I called Trish who has said I may call anytime I needed to. She was a tower of strength yet again and reassured me about the needle stuff (was playing on my mind a bit) and I came off the phone calmed.
I think it's just this waiting that is doing my head in on occasions. I want Tuesday to be here now, i want it over with. That's the hardest part, the waiting. I do think it is a cyst and the paranoia about cancer has ceased but I just want to be told officially, if you understand what I mean. I just want it to be Tuesday night and be all over with. This week has been dreadful and it's dragging.

Ember :grouphug:

falancan

Dear Ember,
I will run to my pc on tuesday,not for freebie but u!Yes,for*U*!
All of us on this thread wish u well .
I m sorry,my english isnt that good.I m chinese
However,I always read lots of medical books and I learned if lump's sharp are rounded,mostly arent harm.
I have read some article of breast lump after I found your post.A lump 8 out of 10 is not the case u have to worry.On the other hand,Other symptons like abnormal secretion from nipple or nipple color changes,as long as I read,u dont have those symptons too.
Best wishes
Falancan

Bargainbabe_2

Hey Ember,

Just finished reading this thread and its good to read your posts getting more positive. My mum went for a mamogram (sp?) 2 years ago and they located a small lump. She was so worried as we all were. It was a horrendous time and very stressful waiting for the results. It turned out to be a cyst thankfully.

Try to stay positive and good luck for Tuesday

xXx

shelly

Hey Ember. I see the possibility of them using a needle is still worrying you. Please try not to worry about it as it might not come to that. I know women who have cysts in their breasts but they were left as they were,they didn't drain them but had the choice to if they wanted to.

You will get through this and come out the other side on Tuesday a much stronger person than you ever imagined you could be. I know this to be true as last year my hubby and I had to get through a very traumatic time and I just wanted to curl up and die at the time but you have to fight and be strong. If someone had told me before hand what was going to happen I wouldn't have believed I could cope with it......but I did and I'm a better person for it. (I think...:D ) I appreciate life....friends....family and my husband much more now. Anyway enough of my rambling......keep your chin up and take care.

shelly xxx

Ember999

Thank You to Shelly, BargainBabe and the lovely new Chinese Lady, all who have posted this evening. Your support and wishes are keeping my spirits up during this very stressful time. I am sure this whole horrendous experience will make me stronger, once I am over it, I just wish I was 24 hours a day strong whilst I am still in it. The more people that post telling me that this happened to them and theirs and it turned out to be a cyst helps me so much. I honestly didn't realise how many people this experience has happened to. I am ashamed that the issue of breast cancer has never been in my mind before, when it is an issue that affects women the world over. Like a lot of people, i watched the news about it happening to Kylie and I felt upset for her, but when the TV was switched off, I forgot about it. I won't do that again. This issue will stay in my mind long after I get the all clear. I don't think breast cancer is something most of us take seriously until it touches our own particular lives and I have been guilty of such ignorance up until now. I must admit, I thought I was a stronger person who wouldn't feel such terror like I did on the first few days following finding the lump in my breast. If I am honest, I thought it would never happen to me. I am fit, I eat very well, plenty of fruit/vegetables, rarely drink alcohol, have a usually happy disposition, go to the gym, in fact, I do everything 'so right' I never expected cancer of any form to touch my life. How ignorant and stupid I was to think like that. My husband said he hopes when this is all over with I am not paranoid about my breasts, constantly checking them, worrying etc. I hope that too. This has really shook me up and made me evaluate everything in my world. Little things that used to matter now seem so unimportant. I used to get annoyed by pointless things sometimes, like we all do. Stupid things that don't really matter. I didn't appreciate all the good things in my life like I should have done. I felt secure, safe, like nothing could ever touch me. I got a rude awakening in my arrogance. Some of you who have experienced this seem to have dealt with it so much better than I have. The tears and tamtrums I have had don't make me proud of myself, I am ashamed at how soft I have been if truth be known. I hope I am a little tougher when this is all over and remember all the lessons I have learnt. I was telling Trish on the phone that I still haven't told anybody yet, I have avoided my mother-in-laws call twice today and made my husband promise never to tell her about any of this. I know she would offer the required sympathy, support etc. but I also know she would be on the phone to his sisters telling them the minute the phone was put down. I feel a lot happier sharing this with you, you don't know me, I will never meet you and that enables me to be totally honest about my fear and how this has made me cry like a baby on occasions, not something I would want anyone in my real life to know.
Wednesday is coming closer and very soon I will be collecting the keys to the cottage. I am trying to think about Christmas and our first Christmas in the new place, how special that will be. But we all know what I want for Christmas, not some speakers for my Ipod, not a new dress, not a fancy bottle of perfume, I just want a healthy, normal breast and this cyst to be gone!

tru

Ember I can understand you not wanting to tell anyone. I had a very abnormal smear when I was 21 and had to have a biopsy. The only people who knew were hubby and my mum and dad. If everyone knew and kept ringing me all the time, it would have driven me nuts and probably made me worry more