Wendy's "To get it out of my head" Diary

GirlRacer_2

Hi Wendy hope your feeling better today. I've just come off my meds and I feel better than I did when I was on them. I think the problem in my life was a certain male. Now he's sorted I feel so much better.

Hope the lunch with DD's boyfriend goes well. I'm dreading it when my kids bring potential partners home!!!!!

Keeping_Positive

Dont worry GR they are only 10. Main worry is that when they play fight she doesnt scratch him again. Hes still got the war wounds from Monday! Dont think I could be so calm though if they were older. I think Daddy may be a bit more interested in the boy.

Feeling ok. Just printing a mountain of course work to take to post office hope it scores better than last time but I have spent more time on it so it should do.

Did some shooping early on got loads for £30. Freezer is packed.

Printers finished so got to go.

Keeping_Positive

Ooops forgot to add a BIG thank you to Verbatim and GR for your posts.

GirlRacer_2

When I shop on-line I seem to get much more for my money. Can't quite work that one out though.

dizzy_lizzie

Hello Wendy...hope all is well with OH. You do sound more cheery.
I must try online shopping. Wish I'd thought of it yesterday as I really cannot be bothered to go, but I don't want to have to do it tomorrow!
Good luck with your course work.
Luvz Dizzy x

Keeping_Positive

Hi Dizzy Online shooping is good but I havent done a shop in ages been doing lists and going to the store looking for bargains. Also wasnt getting any decent codes to work. Should get back into it.The £30 was an hours drive away I wish they did home delivery!! The stuff is good and cheap but not worth frequent runs.

Lost track of spending at the mo need to be focused and try to remeber. Sent OH with a list to Tesco to get the bits we couldnt get this morning. I think I need to right May off completely at the moment for money saving been a nightmare.

Course work posted so fingers crossed.

Things normal with OH I dont really have a chioce. I do want to be on my own but its not possible with the kids without causing alot of upheaval and possibly more pain.

dizzy_lizzie

Hiya Wendy just want to say hope you're ok. Really sorry with how you're feeling with OH.
Life's too short to be unhappy hun. Hope you work things out so that you're feeling happier about things.
Luvz Dizzy x

GirlRacer_2

Hi Wendy, just read your post, been feeling down today and didn't really read the diaries this morning.

Sorry your feeling like that with regards to OH. Going it alone with the kids is a major upheaval and therefore the decision cannot be taken lightly. Is there anywhere that OH can go for a while (maybe to a parent) to have a little trial separation? That way you'll be sure. It's awful when life gives you 2 choices and you don't know which one to take isn't it?

Big hugs
GR x

Keeping_Positive

OH wont leave the house, in the past when I was weaker I would leave for a few hours or a night but never able to take the kids. These days he keeps saying he cant cope with the kids when I am away so I use this against him.

I cant force him to leave and worry about leaving the kids if I went even if just near by. Financially not the best move either. Hes not very strong at the moment mentally maybe I am being to hard on him but I know I would love to be free for a while.

Thanks for hugs , hugs back abd dont worry about birthday see it as a day to have some fun. It should be a celebration of another year of wisdom!

GirlRacer_2

Thanks Wendy. My decision to be a single parent was thrust upon me and I must admit the kids have got me through the hard times. Life without my kids just wouldn't be an option. Me ex just wanted a single life - parties, drink, pubs and women.

Haven't you got a girly friend you can go away with even if just for the night. I go away for one weekend a year with some girls and it keeps me sane in my mad world. Have a good night out, get dressed up and go for a nice meal. IT'll make you feel much better.