Wendy's "To get it out of my head" Diary

GirlRacer_2

Not too far away from ISOM, I'm in the valleys - Merthyr!

Oh Wendy sorry yesterday ended up more expensive than planned, it always happens like that doesn't it. Good luck catching up with everything, hope you manage to get it all done.

In_Search_Of_Me

Ohh I love Merthyr GR! Was debating getting ahouse there before house prices went up! I was there a couple of week ago & the scenery is stunning...gets alot of bad press though doesent it! Isnt that where the radio 2 allotment is?
Hope you're having a good day wendy!

Keeping_Positive

To be honest appaling day barely anywork, the computer was on go slow, brain didnt know what to write and mood plunged to the stage I just kept crying and wanting to smash everyhtin including lap top up. Had a sleep, done a bit of shopping, dropped DD1 at new (boy)friends house for tea. We are having fun winding her up though some light relief. Got dineer to do and stilla moutain of work.

Dont think I am up to a big difficult work load and family life including debt busting. At this stage I go off the rails and there are some early signs I am heading that way again. Spending too much not meal planning or doing shopping lists as much.

I just feel there is too much to do and collapse under pressure.

Sorry to whinge again guys just at a loss at the moment.

Hope your day has gone better.

dizzy_lizzie

Hi Wendy...please take care of yourself. Just think about you for now and make sure you take some time out for yourself. Hope you feel a lot better about things soon.
Luvz and hugz Dizzy x

In_Search_Of_Me

aww hugs wendy...are you planning some fun in amongst all the stressful stuff & a bt of time for you? Even if its just reading a book locked in the bathroom for an hour...do look afteryourself & have a big virtual hug from me. PM if I can be of any help - even if just a private moan...:)

Keeping_Positive

My thanks button has disappeared??Thanks ISOM. Have been trying to get some me time but when I do I then do seem to use the work time properly. Going to start going back into the office for write up days to see if that helps me focus. Its too easy to think about home carp otherwise. When Im on site its fine becasue I am x amount of miles away.Managed to avoid buying a Anthony Worrell Thompson pan set just now do some improvement! Had an unexpected amazon sale and made £20 so thats OH golf club paid for. I thik I worried him a bit last night becasue even when I had calmed down I stll wanst happy. He text me today to say thanks for the effort I put in for him and kids. Spent 2.82 at shop on vital stuff, bread for kids lunches, sugar for OH coffee and Chocolate for MEEEEE already demolished

In_Search_Of_Me

Hang in there Have you tried to sit down with OH & say (when you feel calm) how you are feeling at the mo? Just wonder if it would help to have a heart to hear & also give him an opportunity to see how he feels? Sometime just talking, without anger, can help build the bridges...just a thought. Enjoy the choc! I am on a serious need to eat less cals as expanding with all this baking!

Keeping_Positive

I cant seem to put it into words. Had a go yesterday evening which I think did surprise him. I dont know what happens to me is it just hormones? frustration, depression? After his outburst last week I have struggled to make myself feel happy about things. Need to make appointmant with doc by the end of the week (add to my endless list of todo ASAP) so will talk with him. Maybe up the meds a bit. So far no done anything stupid but really really want to smash things these days when Im upset each time the feeling gets stronger. The MSE in me always wins though I cant afford to replace anything!

Keeping_Positive

Hello

Computer back up and running had the usual nigtmare with talktalk tech help. I am so moving to BT in August and sorely tempted to move sooner and stuff the £75 fee. The MSE in me keeps trying to hold on.

Mood has lifted a bit. Busy couple of days working on assignment an still more to finish tomorrow. OH wants to go for a drive tomorrow so going back to the trade sellier Dubgirls mentioned on the Longhauler thread. Great stuff but not sure the £10-15 diesel cost is actually worth it.

DD1 has a boyfriend and she went to dinner on Monday. His Mum seems great and laid back. Hes coming tomorrow about 12 so need to head to bedfordshire early tommorrow.

Havent had a working online spending diary and of course not kept up with it on paper either. Will have a go tomorrow morning Im bound to be awake early.

No luck on car will lower the price soon and thinking of ebay but not sure given my recent lack of success on ebay. Had two interesting Nigerian sounding emails today.

Doctors on Monday so will talk about upping meds. Nearly asked to be signed off but hope I can avoid that.

Cant think of anything else so will go read some more threads and pop back tomorrow.

Night all xx

Verbatim

Hope you're feeling good today Wendy.

have a lovely weekend.