The Mental Debt Struggle...

LittleMissDetermined · 18 October 2022 at 8:08AM

Morning @Keedie! Huge congratulations on the bonus payment, that's brilliant news! I am so pleased you can crack the back of those fees and it'll give you a bit of a boost for the run up to Christmas

It's wonderful to be recognised for the hard work you have been doing, especially in monetary form!

Like @Sun_Addict said, don't forget to treat yourself, it's due to your hard work after all! So, savour the smoothie and enjoy watching the world go by
LMD x

Squirrelz92 · 18 October 2022 at 8:08AM

Ooooooooh yay Keedie!!! Such brilliant news on the bonus! You go ahead and treat yourself to that smoothie!!!

xx

IndiJonesi · 18 October 2022 at 9:52AM

@keedie that's brill news about the bonus. I am delighted for you. Well done on your achievements, Indi x

AntoMac · 18 October 2022 at 10:07AM

On the subject of second guessing things Keedie you are far from alone. The only person I can think of who appeared to have zero self doubt and absolute conviction and confidence in his own ability was a certain Mr Trump. Moving swiftly on……!!

A couple of questions for you to think about when you’re feeling broken/struggling. I think I know what your answers would be, at least what I think your answers should be!

Are you doing your absolute best? Can anyone do any more than their absolute best?

Do you know anyone who has never made a mistake?

Would you want to change any of the values by which you live your life?

If you were following your own story from the outside would you be impressed by your spirit and determination?

I don’t have the answers to life any more than anyone else does, but I sure as hell know that if more people lived their lives with the same kindness and humility that you do we’d all be much better off.

Keedie · 18 October 2022 at 10:08AM

Thank you @LittleMissDetermined, @Squirrelz92 and @IndiJonesi! I absolutely love this forum and everyone is so supportive. I will definitely enjoy my smoothie

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I contacted the online school, as I found out that they do a 3 subject package (which is conveniently not very publicised), and it's £3,300 instead of £4,838 which I paid, and he's only doing 3 subjects now that he's at college too. So I contacted them and requested that he be removed from 3 subjects and they will give me a refund for the difference, which I estimate to be about £1,200 pro-rata from the next half term. I'll be happy for any refund, and this will go straight back into my mum's savings and will reduce the amount that I owe her. So I am very happy with that.

Keedie · 18 October 2022 at 10:32AM

Yes that Trump Ego was a law unto itself @AntoMac!

Those questions are very invaluable, so thank you. I looked at them and honestly answered them, and I feel a lot better about things. I am trying my hardest, and I don't know anyone that has not made a mistake, and I wouldn't want to change or compromise the values that I live by. I think the hardest one to answer, is whether or not I would be impressed by journey if I was on the outside looking in. It's that lack of confidence that I have to work on. My family and friends keep telling me that I'm doing very well, and I'm very resilient and strong. But I don't feel it. And that I definitely need to work through. But I'll note those questions down to ask myself when I am struggling. Thank you for your kind words, they really mean a lot to me.

On a random note, my signature seems to have got all squashed and I've tried to fix it twice, but it's still squashed, I don't know what I've done wrong?? Does anyone know how to put it back into list format? Maybe it took up too much space...?

LittleMissDetermined · 18 October 2022 at 11:05AM

My signature has gone loopy as well Keedie... no idea what's happened but I can't get mine back to how it should be either

Keedie · 18 October 2022 at 11:08AM

It's a bit randomly annoying isn't it @LittleMissDetermined? I think they've reformatted the space allowed for signatures maybe. Mine was rather long, but even when I've removed bits to make it shorter, it just defaults back to the squashed version... bizzare.