Mumof3.12kindebt .. dfw again ! - 15 dec 2020

mumof3.12kindebt

Afternoon all hope you are all well. 

I'm feeling so tired today. Not sure why. 

I have so much I need to get done but just zero energy
 

Car is booked in to have handbrake adjusted on Friday. 

Think we are going for a walk and too the park later. 

Will be a no spend day today  

mumof3.12kindebt

mumof3.12kindebt said:

Random 'fact'

515 days until my debt free date goal. 😀  I've set our goal for the end of next year. 

Might not even be possible but I'll give it our best shot. 


£14,304.32p to go ! 


If I made £15 a day extra everyday for the rest of this year I would make enough money to clear half of the debt !! 

If that's not motivating.. I don't know what is ... 

So from today I will put every effort into making at least £15 a day 


'Walks off to start listing things for sale' 

Hold up ... I got it wrong...  Reading this back I was thinking... that doesn't add up to 🙄

Its actually if I make £15  a day extra until the end of next year. I'll have enough to clear half the debt ... £30 a day would clear all it without it coming out of our income. 


SOOooo 

The main goal for this last stretch of our becoming debt free journey is to spend as little as possible. And maximise our income as much as possible. 

mumof3.12kindebt

Anyone else want to join me in having a manic half an hour...  I need motivation 😫  

Will start at 2pm if anyone wants to join me .. 

mumof3.12kindebt

Cleaned the downstairs toilet and kitchen 😁


I just wanted to update re my health 

Some of you may know some of you may not know. I have cerebral palsy. Last year I was off work for about 3 months due to severe pain and unable to stand or walk unaided. I was unable to get up the stairs, severe fatigue and then my nana passed away and I was hit with the worst depression i have had In about 10 years. 

Saturday I saw a neurologist who confirmed that it isn't my cp. (I knew this, and was hoping the drs would find a cause and stop blaming  my cp) I've been referred to another specialist to try and find the cause.  
I've also had to finally give in and reduce my hours at work. 

I'm on strong painkillers and my mobility has been shot ever since. I cannot do what I use to be able to do. Everyday is now a huge struggle.  The depression isn't as bad as it was but physically and mentally I'm still struggling. 

Mentally if they had said it was my cp I would of known how to deal with it. Because I have all my life. Now instead I feel like im left in limbo. 

Now I have severe muscular pain and spacistiy due to my cp. And neuropathic pain on top (but we can't find a cause)  My speech is also worse not so much pronunciation. But I will throw in a word into a sentence or use an incorrect word with the same first letter to what I meant to say.  
I've also developed a tic in my eyes when I have infection in my body. 

I now have to use a tens machine as well as oral pain relief. Luckily I'm able to tuck all the wires into my leggings and clip it to my leggings so I can use it at work. It helps but despite every effort I'm always in severe pain which as a result leaves me fatigued. 

I'm fortunate I have employment and a manager that understands. 

But the reality of it all is that I need the debt gone incase I get to a point I can no longer work and have to try and find a job that is kinder to my body. I absolutely love my job and its what all my training and qualifications are in. I'm hoping to work my way up to more office based over the next few years. 

Days like today are a real struggle along with this I also have long covid. And possible 2 things wrong with my heart. I'm awaiting a heart echo. If it shows what my ecg did I could be looking at open heart surgery for both things in the future. 

Life has had to slow down. I'm not even 30 yet. I've had to learn to pace myself. Accept that some days I can't do much and listen to my body. 

On top of everything like a lot of mothers I constantly beat myself up and feel like I'm not good enough. 

I start councilling this month. I'm hoping that will help. 

I'm posting this because I know I'm not the only one on this forum struggling with their health. If you are one of them I send you love and strength 💪 


Together we will get through this ❤ 

My cp will never go away. I developed it at birth due to lack of oxygen, was resuscitated for 8 minutes and then again soon after. And I will die with it. 
But medical professionals gave their all to give me life. And I am absolutely determined that what ever life throws at me, I'll fight to carry on just like they fought for me. I'm lucky to be alive. And I cannot express in words what it feels like to know you could of been pronounced dead at 8 minutes old. I live for all the babies that didn't get a chance. For all the greiveing parents and families, who had to say see you on the other side. I don't give up, because my family and the intensive care team helped me fight for this life. It might be a little harder and I may of developed a disability but it's part of me, without it, I'm not who I was meant to be. ❤


Love hugs positivity and prayers to you all ❤

mumof3.12kindebt

3 portions of veg soup made from tonight's veg peelings and scraps 

Put them in the freezer for ds1 

WinterWarrior

You are fighting a good fight, you should be very proud of yourself.

CRANKY40

I hope someone finds out what your extra problems are due to and that there's some medication available that will help. My son and I are both hypermobile. I started to really suffer with pain in my thirties but he's been in a lot of pain for most of his short life. There's so many things that his friends do that he can't do with them and if he does have a day out he's in agony the next day. He has severe muscle pain because his ligaments don't support his muscles so his muscles have to work harder as a result. 

Thank you for showing your positive outlook. Love and strength right back at you❤  You're a star ⭐

mumof3.12kindebt

goals for August  

Financial 
1♡ 20 no spend days  ✅ 3 so far 
2♡ stick to budget 
3♡ Minamise our food waste ✅
4♡ £500 overpayment to debt 
5♡ make £15 a day in June ✅ on track 

Personal 

6☆ remove 155 items from the house ✅ removed 6 items today 
7☆ get stuff crossed off my to do list 
8☆ limit mobile phone usage ✅
9☆ study stuff 
10☆ Read for one hour a day 
11☆ Drink 2 litres of water a day 

Other

13◇ use as much stuff out the pantry, fridge and cupboard as we can ✅

14◇ get more organised around the house so I'm not buying duplicates and I know what
We have and where it is. 


Update on todays goals 

mumof3.12kindebt

CRANKY40 said:

I hope someone finds out what your extra problems are due to and that there's some medication available that will help. My son and I are both hypermobile. I started to really suffer with pain in my thirties but he's been in a lot of pain for most of his short life. There's so many things that his friends do that he can't do with them and if he does have a day out he's in agony the next day. He has severe muscle pain because his ligaments don't support his muscles so his muscles have to work harder as a result. 

Thank you for showing your positive outlook. Love and strength right back at you❤  You're a star ⭐

Massive hugs to you both. Be kind to yourself ❤

mumof3.12kindebt

WinterWarrior said:

You are fighting a good fight, you should be very proud of yourself.

Thank you x