Talk me down please 2

pollyanna_26

You look great Mel. Such a lovely outfit and you are not fat.

It will take a while to lose those thoughts bad coping mechanisms caused. Since the very good final counsellor dd seldom thinks that way. She hasn't even though she's still indoors - apart from our wonky walk on Saturday.

The counsellor calling those thoughts the parrot in her head and telling her to challenge rather than listen to it took a while but worked.

Something as simple as Shut Up was enough after a while.

You really suit those colours.

pollyx

mellymoo74

I'm making what feels like a huge effort so face on, hair done just to go out 
It helps I think. 

mellymoo74

Will be 6 weeks tomorrow 
I have
Reported him to the police
Deed polled my name
Started divorce proceedings 
And gained weight

Archergirl

Wow, all in 6 weeks well done, please don't fixate on the weight though, you are certainly not fat, you may be bigger than you were but you needed to be. You really do look fabulous ......

thorsoak

Your weight is absolutely fine - you are certainly not fat - you know that it is ED ....and also the brainwashing.   You look great - you are able to spend time on YOU and that is wonderful.   Well done on the progress xxxx

pollyanna_26

Archergirl said:

Wow, all in 6 weeks well done, please don't fixate on the weight though, you are certainly not fat, you may be bigger than you were but you needed to be. You really do look fabulous ......

This Mel. I used to worry over the years as your cheeks became sunken and the light went out of your eyes.

Your picture today shows the difference between then and now. There's still the divorce etc but you're ready to do what it takes and having made the break looking so much better..

pollyx

CruisingSaver

I don't think I've posted on this thread before but I've certainly followed how things are with you. You look incredible in the last photo you posted so much healthier and happier than you used to look - just wow!

mellymoo74

Thank you everyone
The difference in how I look is amazing 
Part of it is having my hair done and actually showering and stuff but mainly its not being scared all the time. 
I have coped with and survived worse which is why I'm resilient I think. 
Did have a breakdown though as those of you who follow know and there's no shame in it. 

mellymoo74

My work coach is a darling
Just had a message checking I'm. Ok

mellymoo74

Still here
Coping ok
Will be job chasing on Monday provided we aren't locked down back to Manchester in a couple of weeks