£50,000 in 3 years diary. Can I do it???

SortingIt_2

That's great news....will keep my fingers crossed for you. It will all be fine and dandy I am sure and you'll be blooming in no time!!

RoxieW

am feeling abit rotten today. I prob mentioned elsewhere in the thread that I have depression and OCD - well, I dont really mention it too often as dont want this thread to be a doom and gloom thread with me going on about all my problems, prefer it to be more positive and focus on the good things in my life - but it does effect me on a day to day basis, although I general manage to keep it controlled quite well by not doing certain things that I know make it worse. But today I just feel rotten and at the start of abit of a bad slump I normally take myself off to the doctors quite quickly, but I'm scared he'll try to put me off having another baby. But if I let it rule every big decision in my life, they I'd have done nothing since the age of 16.
Anyway, just wanted a tiny little rant - then back to the norm. Dont really like reading about it in black and white.

SortingIt_2

Sorry to hear that you are feeling rotten. It must be hard but you seem a strong person and I guess the fact that you are aware of it makes it even better. You must go to the doc's if you feel you need to though - only you know when it is right to have a little one and if it feels right then you must go for it.

It must be really hard dealing with it on a daily basis. I went through a tough time a few years back with depression and panick attacks it really was horrible and if I am honest I do suffer with my down days more often than not although good at hiding them - not sure if that is a good thing or not. But like you I like to focus on the good things in life as know that these keep me going. It is hard to keep it up all the time though.

Anyway this isn't about me. I really hope you start to feel better soon, although if you feel you need to go to the doctors then you must.

Take care xx

P.S - you are allowed to rant - if getting it off your chest helps then go for it! xx

SortingIt_2

Sorry realised I repeated myself a little there!

RoxieW

ah hon, no it really helps to know you've had a similar experience. Like you, I am v good at hiding the depression now - its been part of my life for so long I hardly even mention it, even to dale, unless I'm feeling 'on the edge'. the panic attacks are more difficult to hide thou - I have several a day but am so used to them now that I just try to take myself off to the bathroom (away from kids) and breathe through them. I generally try to avoid busy places etc when I know I'm having a bad day or not slept well or whatever.
Re the baby - I know my capabilities as a mum and tbh if I didnt have my kids and want to take them out places and play with them etc then I'd prob be a recluse and suffer much worse with the depression. They keep me going and dont let me wallow - I never act miserable with them, even if I feel it, and it kind of rubs off and makes me feel better. So to me, my kids are my lifesavers.

On a different, money related note - god what is wrong with me - I just cant stop spending. I really need to get a big grip but its like I cant. What with d's extravagant anniversary gift, and mine to him, then going out for dinner and taking the kids out, this weekend has been an absolute killer. And I was thinking this yesterday - !!!! we've overspent - so what did I do - went out and bought ingredients for an elaborate 3 course meal plus wine to cook for D. Really really stupid - I dont know why I did it!
So all in all, thats all the saving money for Apr stuffed - this seems to be a regular occurrence and it needs sorting! I'm worried that we'll never save anything! May is todds birthday, then we have our holiday to pay for. I guess the crux of it is that we dont want our lifestyle to change - we're not making sacrifices and we need to start

Fingers crossed for a payrise for D this month!

SortingIt_2

Hey you,

Keep smiling. Have PM you.

Will def keep fingers crossed for D payrise!!

~daisy~_2

hope your feeling better Roxie - hugs

RoxieW

thanks daisy - yeah feeling much better. think it was just a combination of thing - getting my period, kicking myself over money, a hectic weekend, having the kids bickering all day long and miserable weather so we're all cooped up etc etc - guess I had the monday morning feeling on tuesday!!

gonna stop kicking myself about money and start afresh from day one. Just did £100 shop which gives me enough for 2 weeks worth of dinners so not done too badly with the groceries budget this month - I mean - I have overspent but not by as much as usual lol!!

dale got one from work and promptly fell asleep on the sofa - looks like thats me doing all the tidying up and putting the kids to bed then - again! may sound like a small job but 2 lots of stories and listening to coby read make it an hour job! god I'm grumpy!! looking forward to a soapathon tonight

SortingIt_2

Good morning!

How are you today? I hope you are feeling better and managed a relaxing evening after putting the kids to bed.

Think we may have found the perfect flat! Went to view it last night and it was lovely. A bit more expensive than we wanted but you get what you pay for. Now just got to speak to agents this morning and hope that noone has an interest in it.

Right must do some work!

RoxieW

Brilliant! I'm so glad you've found somewhere. I'm sure you;ll love it as much as the old place. Did you go out last night with A? Or is it this weekend? Hope you had a brilliant time if you went out.

Right - setting myself some goals today to stop me getting sucked into this machine for obscene amounts of time -

1) Do the davina
2) Do the ironing :mad: booooo!
3) Sort my new purchases (still in bags in my room)
4) Do some baking with the kids

Have decided to get my bum into gear with sorting out my weight - figures if I have to log here what I've eaten and what exercise I've done plus weights/measurements then it may spur me on. Please join in!

So.......

My aim -

To lose a stone (taking me to 10 and half) and just generally tone up, getting into size 12 trousers.

I'm aiming to do it in 2 months as I've got a friends birthday mid june where loads of us are going to a cottage in the lakes, complete with hot tub - so bikini moments!

My pledge -

1) To exercise at least 3 x a week. This week I'm aiming for the davina today swimming tomo (when the kids are at gymnastics) and one more session

2) To keep an eye on my food intake - although, to be honest, I've really been off my food recently and am having to force feed myself - particularly during the day when I just dont feel hungry.

3) To have wine no more than twice a week.

For example, yesterday I had -
brunch - 2 slices of wholemeal toast with some cheese,
snack - 3 digestive biscuits,
dinner - wholemeal pasta with tom and basil sauce
evening - 1 large cookie

Not really excessive - although i ate more biscuits then I usually do.
I know my weak spots are evenings - particularly wine and chocolate.
Cutting down on the wine will be hard but its the perfect time as we're trying to conceive.

Now - the nitty gritty

Stats - 16/4
Weight 11st 7 pounds Size 14 (ish)
Hips
Waist
Bust (really dont want this figure to go down!)

Damn - cant find the tape measure - no really!! Will fill in the above when it comes out of hiding.