£50,000 in 3 years diary. Can I do it???

RoxieW

still sulking grrrrrrrrr. Even thou I caved and made him some dinner. I didnt put his cultlery out thou haha (I know, I know but it made me feel a little bit better) I'm weak.

He did make me a cup of tea with the last of the milk but if thats meant to be an apology then he needs to actually say the words.

I wonder who'll cave first, not wanted the long weekend spoilt.

SortingIt_2

Good morning,

Don't you just hate situations like this! The principle of it all and the fact that he just can't say those two words 'i'm sorry' easily is SO annoying but I would be the same as you given the long weekend ahead and not wanting it spoilt as they don't come by that often and want to make the most of it! Mare!

A is off until Monday which is very rare so plan on making the most of it. Getting hair cut tonight...my easter treat. We're also baking some easter cakes...how old are we!!!??? Then tom eve we are off out to Guildford for a night out and then Sat evening dinner at friends house and Sun to A's parents for nice Sunday roast and Egg hunt...very excited!

WFH today and finding it very hard to stay motivated....also very bored and eaten far TOO MUCH and feel really bad...why can't I just do it and stick to it??? Part of me thinks as of Monday I should stick to a strict diet and see if I can't do this properly as I know it will make me feel tons better if I did...so annoyed with myself :-(

Sorry to moan!

SortingIt_2

Hey Roxie,

Well after my rant earlier I have taken action and have sent off for the Rosemary Conley postage slimming programme thing. I have used her diets before as did a sponsered diet for breast cancer years back and it was really easy to follow and lost about 10lbs in a month. Also ordered her Salsa dvd to do at home - thought it might be fun.

My aim is for 28th April to have lost at least 1/2 stone or more and toned up - Andy and I are off to the Lake District for 3 days camping and 1 night in lovely hotel so thought it would be a great date to aim for to lose weight and increase fitness/strength. Also thought I would buy some nice new underwear for the hotel to show off my nice new trim figure....which I will have!!!! Not so debt free wannabe as cost £55 but do get loads included in the pack and I am determined to do this....starting from Monday which gives me 5 weeks exactly!!!

Hope you are having a good day - any nice plans for the Easter weekend?

RoxieW

hey hon - well i'm sat here in tears after a big row with D. Not related to the other one lol - a row on top of a row! Basically its the devil that is facebook - found out he's been in touch with someone who tried to pull him and beat me up once - he calls her flower and says she's looking well! Oh and he cant be bothered with the single life cos its too much hassle - erm hello - what about your wife and kids?? He also described me to another of his pretend friends as 'a good woman who looks after him'. No I'm not beautiful or smart or whatever - I wash his socks. Then he comments about another girl being hot. Grrrrrrrrrr. Am so so mad right now - and upset too. But talking to him is like banging my head against a brick wall.

RoxieW

I !!!!ing hate facebook and myspace and the like. Found out last year off his myspace that he's had a lapdance as he was bragging about it - idiot - suffice to say I wasnt best pleased and its really made me feel insecure and pretty !!!!. Now this.

He's best advice thou is - get over it.

RoxieW

what a !!!!ing nightmare for the easter weekend

SortingIt_2

Ah hon, that is horrible!!! Big virtual hugs being sent your way!

Why do men do this, I agree the likes of facebook and myspace etc are a nightmare. It's no wonder you are feeling [EMAIL="!!!!"]!!!![/EMAIL]! He shouldn't even be talking to someone who has tried to beat you up, let alone sending her messages and I guarantee you that it is all an ego boost for him (as it would be for any man) Gosh they make me SO mad. Men are SO weak sometimes!!

As for the 'good woman who looks after him'.....he's blo#dy lucky to have you and should count himself lucky and it is easier said than done to 'get over it'.....in other words he has been caught out and has become defensive and I am guessing because he was already sulking and in the wrong he is even more so now.

I will keep popping in and logging on - feel free to rant and rave....

Take care you xxx

RoxieW

thanks hon - thing is - he just doenst see that he's done anything wrong. i know you're right but good god I'd never get him to admit it. Just made me feel so !!!!!! - I mean, thats all he could say about me? It doesnt help that sometimes it does just feel like he's with me because its 'easy' and comfortable. Now I feel like I've read it in black and white. And as for the !!!!! from facebook - oh he thinks bygones should be bygones. Its like why! Are you so desperate to have her as a pretend friend that you dont care if its upsets me. God i'm so mad and upset right now. Can see a massive row brewing tonight and a !!!!!! weekend to follw!

SortingIt_2

I am not surprised it makes you feel !!!!!! - you want them to say 'she's fun, intelligent' etc and they don't...'shes good to me' etc etc. I am sure you 100% mean much more to him but men are just rubbish at all that business. As for the !!!!!! that's is just typical of a man - bet if it was the other way around he would be fuming and there is no way he would let it go if some other man tried to beat him up....they amaze me!! Why would he want to bother with someone who upset you....typical man....they like to be liked!

I hope that you manage to feel a bit better about things, remember you are better than this other girl and he is with you! Keep smiling xxxx

RoxieW

oh yeah, but according to him he'd be fine if it was the other way around and I'm just completely psycho! Its all crap but he wont admit it. It makes me so mad as I always end up backing down - if he could be honest! I guess my trouble is I'm abit too honest and I just cant hold my feeling in. He just thinks this is all melodramatic. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr................

thanks hon xx