Buffy takes it 6 months at a time

Buffythedebtslayer

Today was less good. The new rabbit has stasis and is very ill. I took her to the vets first thing and she stayed till 6.30 being fed and on drip. She seems better. but not great. so all day was spent waiting and we all know I SUCK at that. I need to feed her every two hours. All night. It is ok. Well not fun for either of us. 
I cancelled an Amazon order. I nearly got a refund at the vets but the new girl saw to that! 

Buffythedebtslayer

The rabbit is eating on her own. 
I have had some sleep. banging headache and I can apparently turn my alarm off in my sleep........but was only an hour late for the feeding. 
XX

Sun_Addict

Sorry to hear you have a poorly new rabbit, assume the fact she's eating on her own means she's getting better?  Fingers crossed she picks up xx

Buffythedebtslayer

She seems to be better. The other one who ate her recovery food is a bit under the weather now. 
I have achieved nothing today aside from school work, rabbit staring and a nice omelette. toying with a nap and then some light shed sorting.........XX 

Oh it is is officially half term! yay. 

Buffythedebtslayer

I am in a very bad place today. 
Having achieved nothing for the last eight weeks and being constantly reminded of it I am all out of resilience, patience and appreciation. 
I !!!!!! sick of taking the !!!!!! and misery. I am tired, no I am exhausted from the constant depression and criticism. I want my life back. My friends are my family. 
I suppress my feelings and my opinions and my wants. Oh and I got told yesterday my dreams where small and the implication was there was no point now cos how were we going out of this so yet again I might as well give up. 
I was terribly ill yesterday, IBS related - due to stress and it was truly horrible felt so alone.  

I am losing myself. 
I am going out to high street which will mean another shower and change of clothes. But it is worth it to be free for a bit. 

beanielou

So sorry Buffster. It sounds grim. 

Hope things improve soon. Xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

beanielou said:

So sorry Buffster. It sounds grim. 

Hope things improve soon. Xxx

I went shopping, got my sister some bits. Also got her some birthday stuff. came home, made lunch, had a long nap. Played with the animals. The dogs always know when I am sad. One sat on me for an hour and the other one is asleep next to me right now. 
It will be ok. I got to watch Finding Dory from start to finish which is lovely and does have the message of "there is always another way" was quite useful. 

Buffythedebtslayer

Today was a nice day. 
Until the briefing but any way moving on! 
Ate nice easy food (cereal, soft boiled egg, crispy pancakes(!), Baked beans on toast, with tinned fruit and ice cream for dessert) 
Saw my friend. My GOD my friends are so important. I love my whatapp groups and zoom catch ups. 
Walked 6 km! (slowly!) 
Now doing my money as I get paid soon. 

beanielou

Glad that you have a good day. 

Buffythedebtslayer

I have been a seething ball of fury all day. The Dominic Cummings scandal has angered me considerably. I have always understood that the rich can do as they please, they profit from economic crashes, wars, money makes the world go round etc etc. The pay off is in theory economic stability and certain periods of peace? a kind stable civilisation.  Normally the ones who get caught resign slope off to make millions away from us and the game continues.  If you get caught, you go. 
Fine. Well not fine. not fine at all but I haven't got the energy to try and replace capitalism. In a collection of !!!!!! systems it is the best one in my view. 
However, the fact that he hasn't resigned as yet (I still hope) and sat and lied, played the victim and used his position to cover his disregard for the guidelines, the key workers efforts and the public who stayed at home despite the difficulties we all face is grating on me. This is a global pandemic, people are dying. Show some respect you revolting little creep. 

That aside the rabbits kept me awake..........slept till 9am, shopping with delivered. I got mad - I shouldn't have. POINTLESS. but hey I have feelings. I am an adult. I am allowed to express them. skipped lunch, napped. Watched news. seethed. 
Other than that I put the rabbits together for a bit. Sort of ok. walked the dogs, had dinner, hoovered, did some washing. put some clothes away. Now eating rocky road. 
Tomorrow I need to get !!!!!! done around here. 
Take care all XXX