Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 4 - The Aftermath

crazy_cat_lady

Morning all.  
I need to get stuff done today. Work stuff. I went to bed early last night because I was so exhausted - in bed and tucked up by 10pm, except I was still awake at 1130, followed by 1am, 3am - 4.15am and woken by ds just before 7am. I felt awful. Got up, fed cats and planned to go back to sleep on the sofa for an hour. DS came down at 8 wanting school work done early so we did an hour. 9am I lay down to get some sleep, and at 9.25 there was a knock on the door, signalling the arrival of my new bathroom cupboard. So I've given up on more sleep for now.
I bl00dy love you lot - you really help to lift my mood when I'm feeling awful (which seems to be pretty often at the moment for some reason). I don't know where I'd be without your support all of you - thanks for all of the encouragement and for believing in me more than I believe in myself.
Not much to report at the moment. Am enjoying spending time with the kids and helping them with their work. DS and I have learned all about SpaceX this morning, and dd and I are watching Macbeth together later - so in the gap in between I desperately need to get my head sorted and so a couple of hours of school work.
Made some of Jack Monroe's carrot cake oats, which are on and cooking as I type. They smell unreal so I'm quite looking forward to that. Also have decluttered another bag of rubbish ready for the tip on Friday. I'm getting lots done, but it's unfortunately not the school stuff which has basically turned into a giant frog. So in a minute I'm going to get dressed, have my breakfast and swallow this frog so I can get on and do the other things on my list for today - which include such excitement as changing beds, hanging out washing, watering plants and making sure I do another bag of rubbish. Best be getting on then I suppose.
Have a good day all and I shall report back triumphant later with all of my current work finished to a very high standard!

dawnybabes

YOU are doing so well, YOU cleared the debt before and YOU will do again.  This is all adding value to your house And think of the enjoyment you will get out if the bathroom,  

PurpleFairy26

Think of ‘good debt’ that Martin talks about. It’s not like you’ve spent it gambling, buying expensive handbags you’ll never use etc... the bathroom is definitely an investment. 

Kakiste

Delurking. Hope the carrot cake tastes as good as the smell. 
Kids are rubbish first thing in the morning aren't they? My daughter (5) woke me up at 6.30am this morning- just to get into bed with me and fall asleep again, leaving me wide awake! 

MeandO

Echoing what everyone else has said CCL. You did this on your own last time and you are doing it now. The bathroom is a necessity and will take away some stress and worry of it failing on you and the expense of constantly trying to patch it up. You have done the right thing and many of us would do the same, me included. 
Sending lots of love xx

f0xh0les

If you took out a loan, it is seen by the bank as 'good debt' not like the credit card, that they see as bad debt.  So just factor in the repayments into the budget, and focus on keeping paying down the cc - that is the one that is most important for you right now.  But you must still be seen as a pretty good bet if they gave you the loan.  Just remember the average UK household unsecured debt is £9,400 (as of December 2019 ) which I think is round about your level isn't it? So basically you are 'normal' with no intention of staying 'normal'.  Not that I think you are normal or anything.

So I guess posh bath bubbles and new towels are on your birthday present list then? You are going to be so easy to buy for!

Chrystal

As Beanie would say, just keep plodding.  You'll get there in the end, but you'll get there with your head held high and with a smile on your face.  You're fabulous and don't forget it. XX

beanielou

Keep plodding indeed 😊

apple_muncher

Do you have to go back to sch, as a core subject teacher?

crazy_cat_lady

Morning all  
Well I am very pleased to report that I managed to get that school work done that I'd put off for over a week. There's still more to do, but the one that was getting me down is done. There has been a rota come out for the next fortnight apple - I'm not on until a week on Monday but my place (and dd's school) are not doing anything at school that can't be done at home. It's work booklets for maths, English and science. I'm not sure what exactly is going on but the Head is doing a whole school briefing this afternoon so I hope I'll find out more then. Before then, I'd better get some work done... ds was up early this morning and wanting to get his work done and out of the way, but he was in a foul mood so we didn't get along too well. On top of that I've had another ropey night of sleep so I'm not feeling great myself today - I couldn't be bothered with ds screaming at me early doors. I need to make sure he gets out of the house for a walk at some point today - he's desperate for a bit of a break from home.
I was expecting that the rest of the bathroom would be delivered yesterday but only one cabinet arrived. I'm not particularly bothered to be honest but it doesn't give the best of impressions, and at least I didn't take a day off work for it. Anyway, I refuse to stress about it, or to lose my temper. I need the bathroom in and fully functioning and as long as it's done safely and correctly it doesn't really matter when it happens. I have time unless we suddenly get 'Nightingale Schools' like I heard mentioned on the news this morning.
It's another grey day here as well which is never great for my mood on top of being so tired. I'm trying to just find a bit of motivation somewhere, and hoping that my dodgy ankle is going to allow me to get out for a longer walk than I've managed the past couple of days... I need to keep that going for my wellbeing and a change of scenery.
By the way, the carrot cake oats were as good as the smell suggested. I love Jack Monroe because when I read their recipes they're so straightforward and I almost feel like I can cook - and they taste good too. I'm going to try some of the good food for bad days recipes today because it's meant to be lots of comforting food, which may make me feel better. I have finally used my carrots up - I made the last two into mash with some potatoes for dinner yesterday (much to ds disgust), but I have a veggie box coming tomorrow so am expecting more. I should have checked this week's contents but I was so pleased to be back on the list that I didn't - just ordered one It should mean I don't have to tackle Mr S any time soon though - and the freezer is full of that golden food that ds loves so much.
Right - I've waffled for ages. Best get on. Have a good day my amazing online friends - thank you for making me feel better about myself when I have no other adults about to talk to, and two overexcited kids looking forward to a power shower.