I will cut my coat according to my cloth. {Edited by Forum team} 2019

Savvy_sewing

beanielou wrote: »

You are awesome

Don't go making me big headed.
I think I am just doing what I feel is right for my family in one way or another.
Have to smile at the picture in my mind of Mum zooming off out of the roof like Willie Wonkers lift!

I also had to smile at the look on the assessors face today when going through the chronology of my life. Apparently having great parents, super exciting times in Africa watching the animals all feeding at the water holes etc is not what he is used to hearing.
Asked if moving so much caused PTSD! Erm nope we had a fantastic life as RAF children.
That's why I love traveling regularly.

I am back here at Mums but I did sleep for about 3 hours on the settee waiting for DS to come in from work before I drove over here.
2am time to try to sleep and fingers crossed Mum doesn't have a panic attack in the night.
I am hoping to go home mid morning and sew.
If I do have to keep coming regularly I will bring small jobs with me and an overlocker, my Mums machine is already up so I can use that if necessary.

hb2

I am also amazed, and more than a little impressed, at how quickly you have got the stair lift sorted Ss!

I wonder if it is partly the frequent moving that gave you some of your mental flexibility? I guess we will never know cause/effect. You clearly have some wonderful memories but all that moving would be my idea of hell Isn't it a good job we are not all the same?

I hope your mum copes well on her own today - for her sake and yours.

Savvy_sewing

No panics, but several heavy coughing bouts. We're both tired. DS woke me up around 7. Unfortunately his GFs father has died suddenly, so he is taking her home. So I had to sort Mum a little faster than I had planned and come home to take over the Children. He did get DGD to school for me. I have made sure Mum had everything she needed and again showed her how to swivel her chair at the top of the stairs.
She needs a hand rail in the bathroom, so I am hoping the one I gave her is in the garage, and that Biggests husband can install it for me in the bathroom today. To stop her pulling her self up with the sink. Visions of broken water pipes and her drenched in the loo comes flashing across my mind.
Reminds me of when my little granny cane out to France and tried to go to the loo on one of those foot print over a hole type loo and grabbed the chain to steady herself and got a soaking instead!
I will not be able to go to stay tonight with Mum, but Biggest is only a few roads away if Mum has a problem.
We're into halfterm now, so time tables are less of an issue for a few days.

I am trying to work out how I can catch up on my sewing already committed to, but trying to say No is not as easy as I expected. My logic head and my helping head are at war.

Savvy_sewing

Mum sounded stronger on the phone tonight.
Family is asleep so I am going to try to sleep too.
Night

beanielou

Hope you get some sleep.

Savvy_sewing

Not too bad a night, baby woke at 3.30 found his bottle and went back until 6.20 this morning.
We're taking it slowly this morning. I plan to call Mum around 10. She should be mobile by then I hope.
I have a few free hours this afternoon so I will pop to see her then before starting on my sewing.
I think I will have to bring a couple of machines into the house to work as I cannot find the baby monitor so I won't be able to hear the family if I go out side after they go to bed.
With DS away my sewing plans are out of the window once again.
If I had a penny for everytime my plans were changed I would be rich.

hb2

Ss, I hope today goes to plan!

beanielou

Hope all goes to plan.

Savvy_sewing

Perhaps I should just give up planning.
I really am not getting to my work. It's upsetting me, and slight anxiety about letting customers down is surfacing.
I was talking to my brother last night, he said that I cannot keep up the business and be a Foster Parent, and a Carer for Mum etc. Something has to give.
I have come to the conclusion that my business is going to have to close.
I will just have to give up trying to juggle my sewing.
Maybe I will start up again.
I will need to look at how I earn money.
As I am self employed.
I will do some mind maps/brain storming when baby is asleep and the lad is playing with my kindle

KxMx

That would be such a shame. I get the impression that sewing is your mental and physical break from your high number of responsibilities. Never mind the income aspect.

If that went, how would you get any respite?

I know you have had issues with outside help for Mum in the past, but perhaps you could re visit. It's probably not the option either of you want, but it may be the one that is needed.