taking responsibilty to get me where I want to be

efes_shareholder

so today is not a good day mentally - I am struggling , it strikes every so often and feels like all the jam has been stolen from my doughnut. 

I don't know if its recent events , the menopause , the state of my relationship right now , the time of year but I am wallowing and miserable and having difficulty snapping out of it - NM is being his usual self and going silent on me rather then try and help and that is making it 10 times worse. Apparantly he can tell by my face I am in a mood , I can't change my face I've had it nearly 52 years.

I have tried to do something positive and have made enquiries about counselling - I either feel I need this or anti depressents and I am not keen on the latter , even if to off load the last couple of years. 

Anyhow , that will be quite a sum to find every week but I think it may be beneficial and I will have to find it.

Have given up trying to keep track of the budget this week , this time of years the wheels just seem to come off a bit as you remember who you havent catered for or sorted for a gift - I am really not in the festive mood but I am pretty sure the gift buying is finished and the wrapping , food and house sorting is all that remains , I am at least a step ahead of NM who in typical fashion has not bought a gift for any of his lot yet. I won't be rescuing him ......................I cant even pin them down to when we will see them over xmas although I did see a message from MC saying he was away xmas and boxing day.........................good to see he is prioritising his kids , I am actually quite pleased though as I am not ready to be generous towards him

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efes_shareholder said:

so today is not a good day mentally - I am struggling , it strikes every so often and feels like all the jam has been stolen from my doughnut. 

I don't know if its recent events , the menopause , the state of my relationship right now , the time of year but I am wallowing and miserable and having difficulty snapping out of it - NM is being his usual self and going silent on me rather then try and help and that is making it 10 times worse. Apparantly he can tell by my face I am in a mood , I can't change my face I've had it nearly 52 years.

I have tried to do something positive and have made enquiries about counselling - I either feel I need this or anti depressents and I am not keen on the latter , even if to off load the last couple of years. 

Anyhow , that will be quite a sum to find every week but I think it may be beneficial and I will have to find it.

Have given up trying to keep track of the budget this week , this time of years the wheels just seem to come off a bit as you remember who you havent catered for or sorted for a gift - I am really not in the festive mood but I am pretty sure the gift buying is finished and the wrapping , food and house sorting is all that remains , I am at least a step ahead of NM who in typical fashion has not bought a gift for any of his lot yet. I won't be rescuing him ......................I cant even pin them down to when we will see them over xmas although I did see a message from MC saying he was away xmas and boxing day.........................good to see he is prioritising his kids , I am actually quite pleased though as I am not ready to be generous towards him

So sorry you feel low @efes_shareholder,  winter can be tough . Good idea to look into helping yourself if possible,  money well spent in my opinion.  You have had a tough time lately and NM should be more supportive,  how does he think the silent treatment will help you ! Or even worse putting your sadness down to a mood . Hope things improve over Christmas and you get some time with your family and GS xx