taking responsibilty to get me where I want to be

Newstartforme

Sorry to hear the pains are back , it sounds excruciating . Good though that you are starting to get a handle on causes. You have probably said already but how far in advance can you make the juices ? If they last might be worth doing big batches . I bought a ready made turmeric ginger 1 , it had a good use by date but as days went by it became very gloopy in texture , not as palatable

efes_shareholder

I have 6 500 ml bottles , if i make the juices up across these then it usually lasts 5- 7 days.

Anything over 5 days I don't really want to drink although it doesn't make any difference

dawnybabes

Could you make them up and  freeze in ice cube trays ? 

efes_shareholder

dawnybabes said:

Could you make them up and  freeze in ice cube trays ? 

Possibly yes , i think i will give this a go , thanks for the suggestion

efes_shareholder

So today I have no words.

I'm embarrassed to say The chat I was promised did not happen and I do not think things have ever been so bad between NM and I as they are now , Ultimately hes allowed that.
I left them eating dinner and gave privacy and he made small talk with him and then let him leave the room without bringing the subject up , gave me some excuse about " I'm gonna talk to him when he  goes outside to the gym " which was complete nonsense as by this stage MC was predictably snoring !!! 

I am so close to just being done and told him how disapointed i was in him ( calmly too) , he then said he was gonna wake him to tell him as its affecting our relationship which again is just ridiculous as its been affecting it more and more as time goes on and you only just notice !!! I am furious - NM said he didnt know how too , I told him he had all weekend to think about it , infact longer then that and when he left this morning suggested that he took a look for his ball sack there along with his back bone which also appears to be missing.

my mental health is shot , I'm tired of the whole situation and the front door is locked - I am not sure I will be opening it tonight either.

In other news £15 spend in co op for some stomach relief meds and strong painkillers as I needed wine last night and didnt obey the school night rule.

Newstartforme

Aw no , you must be fed up indeed . This will all be affecting your health , don't blame you for drinking on a school night,  been there , you just need to get through it and have an early night which hopefully you get peace to do . Can't think what to advise going forward . Terrible how your kind nature has been abused yet again , really would make you think twice about favours given in future  . Fingers crossed something is sorted soon xx

efes_shareholder

Newstartforme said:

Aw no , you must be fed up indeed . This will all be affecting your health , don't blame you for drinking on a school night,  been there , you just need to get through it and have an early night which hopefully you get peace to do . Can't think what to advise going forward . Terrible how your kind nature has been abused yet again , really would make you think twice about favours given in future  . Fingers crossed something is sorted soon xx

Oh I will never ever be offering anyone the help of home and shelter ever again

Smudgeismydog

I’m so sorry, I’m also not sure I can offer any words of wisdom either.

It has been feeling for a while like things were going to come to a head, well, I suppose it had to with the end of the month approaching. Please remember that you haven’t caused this situation, they have both known this timescale, so will now need to deal with it.

We are all sending you virtual hugs  🤗 

efes_shareholder

well the conversation has been had but the tense and resentful atmosphere continues at home.

i did leave the door locked but after MC had been on the doorstep 10 minutes and then rung me I thought  I better let him in

I took myself to bed as quite frankly I am exhausted both emotionally and physically. 

I woke at about 7 and when I went downstairs MC is out and NM tells me he has had the conversation , MC doesn't want to go to his mums so is going to his friends , NM just repeated what I had already said in September and said it needed to be adhered too. he said he would go now if it helped ( apparantly) so if that was an option why didnt he just go there in the first blooming place and save all the faff.

I am still upset and disapointed with the broken promise of monday , particularly after all of the delays before - NM is not being very receptive to this and selective communication has come back in to play 

He said to me " I don't enjoy telling my son he needs to leave" - I do get this however I have already told your son he needs to leave back in september and it is your son who has the disrespect to loiter on and expect more !!
Maybe I am being over sensitive but I could pick up the resentment in his tone.

I went back to bed but couldn't settle as I hadn't eaten much and hadn't cooked so went to make some toast at which point MC walks back through the door with KFC for him and his father !!!

Well isn't it nice to be asked if you need to be fed when you put your foot down and don't cook as you feel terrible ( instead of just doing it) so this made me even more upset as it just highlights the complete lack of consideration.

There were words last night in bed , not many from MC except he can't understand why I am behaving as I am as he has now done as i asked ...................the effect all of the divering and head burying has taken on my mental health is very apparant to me right now and it will take some time before I no longer feel upset about it. 

I am in the office today , not that they will be aware and you know what I am now catering for one too !!!!!! I am not going home after work , I am not answering calls or messages ( not that I've had any) and I am going straight to the pub to have dinner with my best friend. 

Its a special offer of two mains for £20 so very MSE ..........................rant over for now !!!

Newstartforme

Grrr,  furious on your behalf , how long did your partner expect this arrangement to last . I really think both thought you would extend the stay , otherwise your partner would just have gave gentle reminder ' remember what efes said , ' as opposed to building up to a big chat where he felt he was asking son to leave . I do think you sticking to your guns appears to have surprised them both. Enjoy your meal out,  you certainly deserve it x