Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 3 - A New Beginning

crazy_cat_lady

Good god people - you really could not write this stuff. Wait till you read what I've got coming up for you...
Another poor night of sleep. 5 and a bit hours - ds also really tired and struggling to get up this morning. Took a can of coke in the car with me which exploded in my bag as I put it in the back seat - so we were very late leaving, which is stressful enough. Add in 2 sets of roadworks and I was looking at a bit of a bummer of a day.
Sitting in traffic at 7.50am my phone rings. A really good friend but we never, ever speak on the phone - just text or visit. So I answer, and she asks me if I've seen ex's FB page. I say no, thinking he blocked me and that he's been having a go at me again for all to see, and she tells me that he's posted a goodbye message on there and is clearly intending to take his own life. Apart from the tone of that message, ds is sitting right next to me in the car hearing it all coming through at the same time as me.
Now, I am not a heartless moo by any stretch but this is not the first time he has threatened or attempted this at all. My friend had just wanted to check with me in case dd had seen it and was worrying. !!!!!!! So before I could even get into work today I had to take ds into school and speak to his teacher and the Head about what he'd overheard in the car - and it's his carol service in half an hour as well - so upset when he has a starring role reading at my last ever primary Christmas event. Then I rang dd school and spoke to her head of year about what had happened - as dd is in the middle of her mock exams and stressed enough and I didn't even know if she'd seen the post.
Anyway - my friend phoned the police who found him safe and well (apparently) and returned him back to his current home. So all that fuss for literally nothing. I am beyond angry again - when I thought I couldn't be more peeved with him.
I'll report more later - on the way to carol service now.

trix-a-belle

I hope DD & DS, & you are all safe and well and back in the warm away from all the wind thats blowing around & the carol service went well/
Just remember you are even closer to the end of term now xx

Sad and angry at your ex

beanielou

That is not on .

f0xh0les

Immoral support coming your way!

Baileys_Babe

Have you logged ex's behaviour as yet more evidence of how he manipulates?

Sending hugs to the 3 of you.

SpekySquarehead

Bloody hell CCL. Do you think he knows that he can still have this effect on your mental health despite technically staying clear? Is he being deliberate and vindictive? Or do you think he's doing things like this without knowing the impact is has?

crazy_cat_lady

Speky - I genuinely can't believe that he honestly knows the impact that his behaviour has on anyone else - he's far too wrapped up in his own little world of pain to realise what he's doing to other people.
I don't know what the situation is with him now - I got a message back from my friend saying that the police had found him safe and well and returned him to his accommodation. However, I've literally just gotten off the phone with another police officer who is still looking to try and find him (?!?) I wish I could care more but I'm far more bothered about the kids and how they are affected. DS has overheard the latest conversation and is really worried again. :mad: BB - I screenshot everything and I send it to my solicitor. It feels very unfair that after we've been separated 20 months and divorced 11 that I'm still repeatedly dragged back into the situations that I no longer want to be a part of.
Anyway, on top of that, I am sick. I mean properly poorly sick. I could tell at the carol service yesterday (which was amazing) that I'm not well and the cystitis was getting worse so I managed to get myself an appointment at the doctors for this morning thinking that I must need antibiotics. By the time I got home from work last night, I was feeling much worse and my back was starting to hurt so I rang 111. They said I needed to go to urgent care and gave me a 7.30pm appointment. I got there at 7.26 and no word of a lie, there were so many people there waiting to be seen that every seat was full, there were people sitting on tables and on the floor. I hate to be political but this is exactly like that news story with the little boy... and it is SO true. I was told there would be at least 90 minutes delay before I was seen - I was so uncomfortable that I just lay on the floor and cried. I needed to be near the toilet, but was finding it difficult to get up and down off the floor. It was awful. I know that the staff there were working their backsides off but there just weren't enough to deal with the demands. Anyway, it was about 9.15 when I was eventually called in - the nurse practitioner did my urine test and told me she was surprised I was up and about because I had a massive kidney infection. Got a prescription for some massively strong antibiotics, managed to find a late pharmacy and came home - by this time I was being sick because of the pain. Took my first antibiotic, 2 co-codamol and went to bed. DS was a love - he'd made me a cup of tea and written me a lovely little note telling me he loved me. Managed about 5 hours of sleep before I needed to pee and take more painkillers. Had to get up at 8 to see dd out to school and set my cover work - I have had to keep ds off school because I don't have the stamina for a 30 mile round trip to get him there.
I'd also been told last night to keep my doctor's appointment and take another sample in this morning to be sent away so I went to that. I ended up very tearful in the doctors too - mainly because I'm tired and unwell. It was the same doc I saw on Monday with dd and I had really liked her then. She told me that the antibiotics I've been given are very strong so I must have a big infection, and I spoke to her about my hormonal symptoms. She wants me to have a 'full MOT' so I had to have height and weight (ugh) done and I'm having a load of blood tests tomorrow as well. She's written me a prescription for something that should help with hormonal temperature control, so therefore I should start sleeping a bit better (I hope). As long as the tests don't throw up anything unusual then she wants to see me again in the New Year. She also told me that she thinks I'm coping very well with an awful lot of rubbish going on - which made me cry again. She wants me to try taking care of myself a bit more - which really doesn't come naturally but we'll see what we can do.
So I came home via Liddle to get a couple of bits to keep us going while I can't be bothered with anything. There's bread and stuff for sarnies, which will do for the short term. It's been enough to wipe me out again though and I'm ready to sleep, so I probably will. I missed EastEnders and Holby last night so need to catch up with them too

beanielou

Blimey.
That is dire. Just dire.
So hope the antibiotics work really soon.
Take care of you xx

To think that people go to a hospital & have to lie on the floor.:(:(:(

foxgloves

Oh. My Giddy.Aunt, CCL!
What a horrible evening. And I am not at all surprised that you had to sit on the floor for two hours. During my Mum's final weeks in hospital last year, there were days when the staff on her ward were down to half their number due to illness, cuts, etc, & I simply don't know how they managed to see to everyone's care the way they did. Am glad you finally got seen & well.....kidney infections are nasty. They can also be brewing at the stage where people just feel vaguely cystitissy, so have often well & truly 'got their nasty little germy feet under the table' by the time symptoms are worsening. It must be a bad one for you to have been given such strong antibiotics. Your GP is quite right that you need to take good care of yourself. You will feel poorly from the infection, & strong anti-bios can also make your tummy feel a bit dodgy. I remember being given some strong ones when I had a horrible horse-fly bite which infected & I had to be careful of the timings with food, as they made me feel so sick.They did the trick, though & hopefully yours will too, & see you back on your feet by Christmas. I don't want to hear one single word about you even thinking about returning to work anytime soon, so be told, Missis!!
It's no wonder you were feeling so achey & awful. Kidney infections are bacterial, so I expect your glands have been swelling up too & your joints aching,as your system was trying to deal with it. Lots of rest & fluids now, & when you fancy it, some tempting but nutritious food. If you don't have a friend or family member to whom you can give a grocery shopping list, it probably makes a lot of sense when you are up to it, to sit & do an online order. Your children can help unpack & put that away and it will be a whole lot easier than trying to pop out for bits & bobs while you feel so horrid. You can also add any over the counter meds you might need.
Well, I am aware I sound as though I'm nagging you, which I don't mean to do, but it's defo time to move yourself up into No.1 position for being looked after. Lovely of your son to bring you a cuppa & a little note. Get yourself under a pile of your fab blankets with as many purry cats as want to be involved & GET WELL SOON,
F xx
And just to make you smile (maybe).....to practise my newly revived language skills, I am only speaking to our cat in German today. He hasn't noticed any difference. His bowl is still full of the food he didn't want & the lounge fire is still off!

PurpleFairy26

What the wise foxgloves said