My journey to a debt free life

Onebrokelady

Cherryfudge said:

Sending you some gentle hugs, it sounds horrible. I hope you get some relief soon.
On the positive side, it's good to hear you and your DD are speaking again. Sounds as though you chose your moment well.

Thankyou Cherry,Im feeling a bit sorry for myself today,I am relieved that me and DD are speaking again as it does make life easier 😊

Onebrokelady

Nicnak said:

I'm sorry it's so bad OBL. Chronic pain isn't nice and with everything going on it must be even worse. 
Hopefully you can enjoy some of your day off x

Thanks Nicnak, I'm wondering if the current situation is making it worse, in my head I feel like a cope well under pressure or in a crisis but my body maybe tells the truth 

Onebrokelady

Sun_Addict said:

Sorry to hear you're in so much pain, the GP didn't sound very helpful, you must go back if things worsen or don't settle. I'm quite wary of being fobbed off by GPs since Mr SA's diagnosis, they tried to say it was stress and I had to insist it was a brain tumour.

Fingers crossed it will be short-lived and you get some relief.  Would you be able to take the day off work tomorrow if things don't improve, you can't work if you're in pain.

Take care and get some rest xx

Thanks SA, yes he wasn't very helpful, he wasn't my normal GP either, it really annoys me that since I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia they just blame that for everything, how do they know that something else isn't going on just by a phone call
One of my friends kept going to her GP ( same surgery) with a painful back and because she had Fibromyalgia they kept telling her it was that, anyway one day she went to the ED because she was in so much pain and it turned out she had pancreatic cancer that was too advanced for any treatment, she died about 6 months later 😟

I can't take tomorrow off because I was off last week for a few days and I have to be careful how much time I take off, at least tomorrow is a late ,so I don't have to get up at 5.30 😊

Willowtree222

I think you're right OBL. I think it probably is your body telling you that it isn't comfortable with everything that is going on. My body is always the first to rebel when I think everything is ok. x

foxgloves

I know virtually nothing about fibromyalgia, OBL, so your posts about it are alwaya an education. Can pain levels with fibromyalgia be linked to stress? I just wondered, as we're all of us doing our best to soldier on in the face of adversity, aren't we, but the truth is that these are bloody worrying times & added to that, you are a key worker. So many physical conditions seem to flare up under prolonged stress.
I hope the pain levels start to level off soon. Take care,
F x

Onebrokelady

foxgloves said:

I know virtually nothing about fibromyalgia, OBL, so your posts about it are alwaya an education. Can pain levels with fibromyalgia be linked to stress? I just wondered, as we're all of us doing our best to soldier on in the face of adversity, aren't we, but the truth is that these are bloody worrying times & added to that, you are a key worker. So many physical conditions seem to flare up under prolonged stress.
I hope the pain levels start to level off soon. Take care,
F x

Hi Foxgloves, its definitely made worse by stress and I am thinking the current situation is why I'm feeling worse, it's a weird condition and even though I know how it works and affects me I still get thrown by it sometimes, I am also what I would call a coper,I don't feel stressed out in my mind,but it seems my mind does such a good job of burying any stress that it comes out in my body as pain
I thought I was doing well with the current situation because I feel quite calm about it all but if I'm feeling pain at the levels I am now it probably means I am super stressed but I've subconsciously decided to bury it, this then gets translated by my brain as a pain signal, it's like a safety valve, my mind can't cope but has no way of doing anything about it because it's a suppressed emotion, so it does the only thing it can and sends out a warning to make my body come to a standstill thus preventing me from coming to harm. 
It sounds a bit woo hoo but there has been extensive research done which I have been learning about, in normal circumstances I can keep it under control myself,sometimes it's as easy as just telling myself that I am safe and healthy and everything is fine, then sometimes such as now when we actually don't know if we are safe and that everything is going to be ok my control goes out the window.

Funnily after speaking to the GP yesterday I was really annoyed that he had fobbed me off, but I did notice that my pain levels had dropped considerable later in the evening, so I might not have liked what he said but my subconscious mind was listening and took notice
Ive been in agony for days but today although I am still in pain it's not as severe as it was on Monday/Tuesday morning before I spoke to that GP

Im going to go back to the lessons in the Curable app to reinforce my skills to see if that helps 😊

Onebrokelady

So after my phone call yesterday my pain levels slowly went down over the evening so I got some respite, sadly when I got in bed my left hip started throbbing so I ended up taking a cocktail of painkillers which did work in the end 
This morning I still had pain but it was bearable so that was a relief 

I worked a late today so didn't have to get up early, when I got to work there were only two patients🙀we spent most of the day colouring in bunting for VE celebrations on Friday, we are decorating the ward and having cakes as a celebration 😀

I was going to bake a cake but my oven broke yesterday🙀what a flaming time to break, I've been given the name of a reliable repair man but I don't know when I'm will be able to get it fixed because of current restrictions, I'm going to phone him tomorrow anyway to see what he suggests, we could always go outside while he is here,or upstairs I suppose, god just saying that sounds so ridiculous doesn't it😳

Willowtree222

That's the worst time for your oven to break. I've been praying my freezer doesn't pack in when it's so full. 

Glad you got some sleep and the pain eased off. I always get restless leg when my stress levels are up or I've been eating the wrong foods. 

Hope the lessons work too. 
Your work sounds nice for today. A break from all the chaos that could happen. 
X

Sunshine_girl2

I hope the pain levels are more manageable now OBL. What a time for your oven to break, the repair man might be able to come and sort it, maybe it's just the element that had gone. Hopefully DD will be on an even keel for a while, so things will be normal at home for you . Hope the chicken are ok . 

Onebrokelady

Nicnak said:

That's the worst time for your oven to break. I've been praying my freezer doesn't pack in when it's so full. 

Glad you got some sleep and the pain eased off. I always get restless leg when my stress levels are up or I've been eating the wrong foods. 

Hope the lessons work too. 
Your work sounds nice for today. A break from all the chaos that could happen. 
X

I know,I'm worried about the old things breaking in threes, my oven has broke and DDs computer has now broke as well,I might have to go and smash a glass or something 😟
The oven is being fixed on Tuesday though so not long to wait 😊