Mooloo’s Managing it in 2018

Savvy_sewing

Starting to get too many demands on my time, work is backing up as fast as I am sewing more is coming in. I did some sewing after work, but not as much as I planned as my friend asked for a sanity chat. How she managed to keep going is a testimonial to her inner strength (and apparently my ability to listen etc), but I will be playing catch-up today and tomorrow. My Son messaged me around midnight asking random questions. How long has he known that I am usually in bed around 10 if not earlier?? Interrupting my sleep meant a fitful night.
Time to get Dgd up, and out from under my duvet!!
Time to say hello day, and sit with my lamp for a few minutes.

Savvy_sewing

Productive day. Took me from 10 until 3.30 to make three large campervan cushions. Piping, zips and vynl fabric were quite a task. Then I had to get home fast for a delivery, I was expecting to get my loo rolls, kitchen and tissues, but only the kitchen paper and tissues arrived.
I was sewing again by 4.30 and I have just finished sewing for the day.
I have been finishing off some cushion covers, and making flags for bunting. 76 flags made. But I forgot to bring home the tape to finish them, so that's my job for Thursday night. Tomorrow I will be doing my trolley full of trousers.
Busy day tomorrow. Supervising the kids at their parents house, quick visit to Mum, home for the maintenance people at 1pm, Dentist at 3.45.
So I am hoping to have a good night sleep tonight.

Savvy_sewing

I started writing my diary, thinking about the "deadlock " feelings and the overwhelming feeling that I have at this time. It helped me group together things on my list etc and actually reduce my list because I was then looking at 3 groups instead of 7. ( that we're the things getting me down.)
Then I put them in to some block time. Meaning that I will tackle things each day for a dedicated amount of time.
I felt calmer and although it was nearly midnight when I went to bed I certainly felt better, and I only woke twice until around 6am. I did drift back to sleep and woke about 7.20 5 minutes before my alarm.
As I said last night, I have a busy day today.
So I better get going.

Savvy_sewing

Damn lost my post.
Maybe just as well. I have had a messed up day, feel stressed and can't cope. I have achieved some sewing though.
But having issues with most everything else today

Eager_Elephant

((mooloo))

I saw your Facebook post also - I hope you have been able to take some deep breaths and cope with the situation.

I'm just hoping its not related to DS/GF/their kids

Savvy_sewing

Eager_Elephant wrote: »

((mooloo))

I saw your Facebook post also - I hope you have been able to take some deep breaths and cope with the situation.

I'm just hoping its not related to DS/GF/their kids

You hit the nail on the head.

I will tell you in a bit, I just have to get Dgd up etc I am late getting up and I didn't set my tea or alarms last night

thorsoak

Eager_Elephant wrote: »

((mooloo))

I saw your Facebook post also - I hope you have been able to take some deep breaths and cope with the situation.

I'm just hoping its not related to DS/GF/their kids

Me too :-(

beanielou

Hope you are ok xx

Savvy_sewing

Not managing as I expected.
Melt down hit Wednesday when DS plans changed and I wasn't told, even though it was affecting my day, my weekend and I found out via the Foster Carers and not my son.
Wednesday saw me emotionally exhausted, physically drained, panic attack, the lot. Biggest meltdown I have ever had, going into yesterday, and I broke down in tears with my usual call with my Mum. Staff arrived and I was already a wreck.
I have told staff no more work to be accepted except the small jobs as I am surrounded by big difficult jobs, I only have 12 sewing days left before I have the children, and I just can't take anything else.
I did accept my panic may not be as bad as it appears but until I can see a dent in the work that surrounds me, I cannot take on more.
So we started to turn work away, and give dates in January for things like curtains to be made etc.
I am not taking on any more replacement zips in jackets, or remakes until I see that dent in the pile.
I started to feel a little calmer after I made that decision.
After 24 hours of my son only texting me, blaming me that if I don't accept them this weekend they wouldn't get their boys back in time for Christmas. I accepted that I have to just grin and bare it, put up with them here this weekend, and also one night when I have the boys in a fortnight.
I spoke to him on the phone, told him how disappointed I am in him, that he is a father, and needs a proper job, and it doesn't matter what he does he needs to earn a living.
She can't expect to work evenings when they have children and as she cannot drive they have to remember that they cannot get the kids up in the night to collect her.
It probably went in one ear and out the other.

I am mentally exhausted now.
3 weeks is all I have to get through and then I can go away with Mum and rest.
I just have to keep on keeping on.
I better leave for work. I don't want to leave the house but I must.

thorsoak

Oh Mooloo! I am so, so sorry to read this - but it may well be the wake-up call that you need.

You have to listen to your body and mind - you know that these two little boys - they NEED structured loving parents who both do their best for their children - not a granny who is being worn down by the multiple claims on your time, on your money.

Please make next year's thread "the year that Mooloo finally managed to put herself first".