When things hit rock bottom the only answer is to fight the way back up...

atolaas

Hi Hidden, I don't think I've posted on your diary before. I just wanted to echo the support that's been offered here. You are not alone, even in your darkest moments. ((((HUGS))))

UncannyScot

Morning missus
We're all right by your side
(((((HUGS)))))
:A

Toni'sfriend

Hello Hidden
I have just caught up with your diary from last night and I just don't know what to say. I truly wish I could give you some advice to make things better but I can't.
EE always gives good sound practical financial advice so please think about following that.
Please post whatever you feel you want to. You haven't offended anyone and all we want to do is help and support you. xxx

Toni'sfriend

You are an amazing Mum, you're a fighter and I know you'll not only win this battle, you will win the war...
and we are fighting with you

And I just want to echo these words.

EssexHebridean

So hard when someone that you love and trust behaves in a way that utterly shatters that trust. I suspect most people have experienced it in some way or another - but what you're going through is tougher than most.

I'm not sure why you think you've offended someone? I've read all the responses here and haven't seen anyone saying that they've read anything offensive - but perhaps there was a reply that has been deleted that I missed. Either way I reiterate - use this diary as you need to - it's your space and nobody minds what you post here.

**edit** reading back - I'm wondering, please don't tell me anyone has DM'd you claiming to be offended? If so I find it incredibly hard to believe that the person or people concerned can be readers on the diary - so please if that HAS happened ignore and block, or if it's abusive or harrassing report to the forum team.

Do me one huge favour - please make sure you keep a regular intake of healthy food up - it's all the more important when your mental health is shakey, and tends to be one of the first things we neglect without even realising we're making things worse.

DebtFreeDuo

I'm so sorry you are going through such a difficult time. I completely agree with others in that you can use this diary however you need to and as EH says, you can go over previous posts and edit things out. I know for me I feel better for getting things written down, either on my diary or on paper somewhere.

You have lots of support here and I'm certain that everyone here just wants to support you in any way they can and they want the best for you.

Hiddenidenity

Thank you.

EH I will try to at least grab something to eat today, I just feel sick though I will try.

EE. I have been speaking to homeless advice this morning and I think going back to court might back fire. The agreement I have is very fair and low. However I am/will be behind on actual rent not just the arrangement for the arrears. So going back to court means relying on them agreeing on another suspended warrant of eviction. Should it be pushed that they will be going for the eviction I will obviously pay to go back to court and try to fight it. But right now £50 would be half a weeks rent I could pay off

I still do feel overwhelmed by whats going on around me. I do however need to make sure I keep a roof over my head. Once I'm actually level we will be fine. It's reaching that point before its too late.

Cherryfudge

I think it's a case of looking after yourself so you can get to where you feel level... so hard to do, it's as if mind and body conspire to stop you doing this. That's where these lovely people cheering you on is so great!

I seem to remember toast is good to eat when you feel sick, and also that toast is your 'go-to' food. Can you add a bit of peanut butter or meat to give you some protein? Or a banana? (I know that's not protein but they are relatively cheap, easy and good for us).

So good to see you able to post again. Just keep taking one little step at a time.

Hiddenidenity

And while I realise that sorting it all should be my first priority it is up there. However just making sure I see the day out and wake up tomorrow is first.

I just came to post about money as that fits in here and takes a break for anything else I'm thinking about

I will sort it I'm sure.

redofromstart

Glad you got in touch with someone HI. Its your diary, you post whatever you want on it, even if it is just once a day.

Some days you just have to keep plodding on, one step at a time.