When things hit rock bottom the only answer is to fight the way back up...

Hiddenidenity

Don't apoligise I love reading the replies Thank you.

I am making more of an effort to eat more regularly and with the small ones too. I have had no bread this week and no coffee. Yes the headaches where a killer! I think I'm over the worst now. I was having 20+ cups of coffee a day

As for baking I don't even eat or like the things I bake (apart from Australian crunch) We are totally dairy free/soya free and limit a few other things due to youngests allergies. Apart from the older two the ice cream if youngest wants an ice lolly from the ice cream van.

I have issues with mum some things I don't think I'll ever forgive. I have counselling and I just can't forgive and forget. I do think I need to just leave them be now though for everyones sake. She nor I can change the past and I think it's doing more damage thinking it over constantly that no amount of talking will fix it. Lets face it nothing can. So time I just put it in a box and lock it away. Best for everyone then.

Kids are tucked up in bed after their bath, bit early but they are happy so there we go.

Going to do not much tonight Maybe an early night again. The cloud is still lingering but at least I don't feel so much on the edge of the cliff right now. Going to catch up on surveys and do Mr Sains to come Friday (Have £10 off coupon and we need milk and tinned stuff so they can do the heavy lifting )

Definitely fitting the caravan in. I know I probably shouldn't but I'm sure we'll pull it off

abba1772

I think a break would do you good xx

missymoo81

You definitely deserve the break! Don't feel guilty, you need it x

Hiddenidenity

Tis a F1 weekend too Which will help the budget. The kids can play in the free softplay (its free with member cards) and I can watch the F1 on a big screen.

The kids love it they would go every week if we could :rotfl:

Toni'sfriend

I have issues with mum some things I don't think I'll ever forgive. I have counselling and I just can't forgive and forget. I do think I need to just leave them be now though for everyones sake. She nor I can change the past and I think it's doing more damage thinking it over constantly that no amount of talking will fix it. Lets face it nothing can. So time I just put it in a box and lock it away. Best for everyone then

I think you've hit the nail right on the head there. Lock it away and don't think about it. It seems like a lot your difficulties stem from this so if you can do this you'll move on. Easier said than done, I know.

On a brighter note a week away sounds great and will do you the world of good to just be somewhere different. Hope you manage to alter your diet - it will make you feel better. Three small meals a day to begin with. You make such good wholesome food for the little ones it's bound to be good for you.

Hope the cloud is lifting.

monz

If you everwant to talk can mail me anytime xx

Hiddenidenity

Thank you both means a lot x

Wow today has been spendy will post after I've made a cuppa to get over the shock! :rotfl:

Hiddenidenity

So we went to town to get the school shoes and the last bits. i'm definitely in no rush to either go to town or spend again.

Clarks for school shoes. Nightmare. 3 pairs of shoes £110
Uniform shop (again) to sort out youngests now the correct size had been ordered in £92 (£40 in returns though) Included youngests jumpers/pe kit/pe bag along with 3 reading bags.
Pr!mark £29.50 - Underwear for all 3 and a packet of hair ties because DD needed them - not cool.
I'm sure I went somewhere else in town too.

On the way home into Asda to pick some things up mum asked for. More spending
£27 on lunch bags and bottles.
£9 on wellies
£8 on socks
£11 on tights
£3 on trousers

Sure I've forgot something from there.

Most was budgeted for, not the hair ties, nor more socks/tights/trousers :cool:

Nothing spent on food and drinks as I'd taken them with me. Drop in the ocean compared to what was spent though!

All sorted for school now. Just the girls hair cuts tomorrow and then DS at weekend.

earthgirl

Wow! At least it's all sorted now.

Hiddenidenity

My mum is covering the shoes as though :A so at least that will be back in and go off the council tax. I have about £12 left to last till Friday now But I'm glad it's actually all sorted and I expected it to be expensive with the all three needing full new uniforms because of the colour change.

Have a few bits I can return to Asda I think too.

Still makes me sad though Even though it was all planned makes me feel awful for spending