Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 2 - Groundhog Day

crazy_cat_lady

Hi everyone :hello:
I can just about be bothered to post an update on here before I go to bed, and it's not even 8pm yet. I've had another busy couple of days at work - mad busy marking, and busy at home and still not 100% either. I got a letter from the doctor yesterday asking me to make an appointment to discuss my scan results. It's not an urgent appointment (thank goodness because the earliest appointment I could get is in a fortnight), but I presume that it means there's something to talk about - hopefully something easy to sort.
We're in the middle of a department review at work - stressy. I have my first observation of the year on Monday with my top set year 11 class. In theory that should be straightforward but it's not - there are a couple of real characters in there. Most of them are gorgeous but it could prove to be difficult. Not much I can do about it - books have been for scrutiny and students have been interviewed. Just the observation to get through now.
Busy last night because I took ds to his new football team. I don't think I mentioned on here, but there's been a lot of tension between some of the parents for a while. It all came to a head over the weekend and it ended very unpleasantly with the football team being folded. Good news is that most of the boys have been snapped straight up by other teams but it's a shame that things have ended so badly. DS is thrilled with his new football team though, and I'm pleased for Tuesday training rather than Friday but it does mean a very late finish for me on a Tuesday. Plus school meeting night on a Wednesday - so I didn't get home until after 6 tonight. Worn out is a bit of an understatement - but at least it's nearly half term. I'm looking forward to a few lie ins and afternoon naps.

Bobarella

Hope your son's new team is much better. You don't need drama like that in your life.

crazy_cat_lady

Good morning :coffee:
I've been busy the past few days, but very productive busy so that's kind of good. I got home from work on Thursday and actually felt like I wanted to do a bit of housework so I got on with it while I could be bothered. Managed a bit of dusting, bathroom and hovering but completely wiped myself out. I was shattered on Friday - thankfully it was a training day at work. Not the best use of my time but a change is as good as a rest and all that... I got my observed lesson prepped ready for tomorrow, which was one less thing to do over the weekend.
Friday night I got bestie's husband to take ds's football kit back to the old team - I just couldn't face it again. Thankfully he was fine to do that for me as he was returning their ds kit as well.
Got up early yesterday for training - really tired. I managed to get an earlier appointment with the doctor so I'm going on Thursday evening rather than in half term week. I really hope that there is some solution to this other than just resting. I feel like I'm resting loads and being particularly lazy but then not feeling any better physically. I had a cuppa and catch up with bestie and we arranged our annual Christmas night out, then went and did my tutoring. Also had to buy ds some new training gear for his new footy team. He was desperately short of socks and needed new base layer as well.
I made lots of progress on my handmade Christmas yesterday. I really love the knitting and crochet but absolutely hate sewing up and putting it all together at the end. Yesterday I sewed about 300 ends of wool into various projects so I feel as though I'm finally getting somewhere. Hoping to finish another project or two today.
Other than that, I've marked my Y11 books for tomorrow's observation so no 'horrible' jobs to do. Just need to enjoy my day. DD asked to go out for a carvery at some point so I'm going to do that. It's ages since the 4 of us did anything together and it's so rare that dd asks for anything that I'm happy enough to do it. So I'm hoping for a calm, stress free day. We shall see.

crazy_cat_lady

Hey
Thought I should check in. Another day closer to half term and another day of being stupidly busy at school... I'm absolutely exhausted. Thankfully my observation is over and out of the way for now so I can stop panicking about that for the time being - it went pretty well. I think he was impressed with some of my high end Chemistry knowledge. Left him totally stumped.
Taking ds to football training with his new team tonight then planning an early night.
Homemade Christmas still ticking along nicely.
Nothing much else to report really. I'm a bit of a boring so and so...

Eager_Elephant

Fingers crossed you get some answers on Thurs - I can't imagine feeling permanently exhausted all the time.

Did you go for a carvery in the end? if you did I hope it was nice.

Hope DS gets on alright with his new team tonight.

Sending hugs just in case ((( )))

My life is also very boring so I haven't posted for a while on there.

AspiringButAnxious

Also hope your scan results pinpoint what's wrong and that it's solved without too much hassle. I do wonder if you are resting "loads" though, or whether that's your perception. When you're used to being busy all the time, even a short rest feels like a lot, but it won't have the same effect as a lot of rest. I'm not judging whether your self-assessment is accurate or not — it's just something to bear in mind if the doctor does recommend more rest.

Also remember that it takes a lot of time to recover from an extended period of extreme stress: the percentage of each day or week spent resting might not be as important as the number of weeks/months spent making more time for rest. This is still a factor regardless of any additional medical problems — just as getting 2 hours of sleep a night for a week can't be atoned for by spending all weekend in bed, several months (or more) of stress and not enough rest cannot be remedied in a short time.

I'm saying this to remind you to go easy on yourself, not to be pessimistic — conversely, in the long term, taking things slowly and prioritising your health/wellbeing will be much better for you, so there is cause for optimism. I think that health problems can sometimes be a reminder to invest in yourself, rather than putting everyone else first and running on empty. You must have heard of the analogy that when you're in a plane which gets into difficulty you have to help yourself first by putting on your oxygen mask before you can help anyone else? Well, it might be a bit of a cliche, but it's true. My mother did nobody any favours by putting herself last for years, least of all herself, and now she is resentful of me, my dad and brother because of it.

Anyhoo, hope all goes well with the doctor and life in general I've been awful at keeping up with these diaries lately, but I will try to keep checking in and stay updated.

kirtsypoos

ABA I just wanted to say you always have the most useful and well worded advice

Hope your results come back with something which is easy to fix CCL

crazy_cat_lady

Hi all :wave:
Thanks to all of you for posting. I second what Kirsty said ABA - you aren't telling me anything I haven't told myself a hundred times. It's weird because I would give a friend exactly the same advice - less good at taking it myself. Our second in department has just been signed off with stress induced angina :eek: - he was carted off in an ambulance yesterday. It does make me think - the trouble is that I'm such a control freak, and I know that if I don't do a lot of this stuff then it just won't get done - even if I ask.
Yes, EE, we did go for the carvery on Sunday and it was lovely. We really don't do enough together as a family and I think I appreciate it even more now that we don't do it as much as we used to. I love having time just the four of us...
Today I had a day out of school doing my union training. It's always nice to have a day off school (although my inner control freak is terrified at what I might find in my classroom tomorrow). And again, it has made me grateful for the things that I do have at my own place of work. Our Head is really fair and does everything right so I should be grateful for that.
May not get on tomorrow to check in as I'm really busy tomorrow night - doctor's straight after work, and then a friend of mine is opening a pop up shop in Sunderland and I've been invited to the big opening. I won't let her down there. But I will get on and update you all. Only 2 more get ups until half term!:T

Bobarella

Good luck for your friends launch Cat.

SpekySquarehead

1 day closer!!!