Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

dekaspace

Sadly I can't wear them due to my autism, either I get severe panic attacks due to the noise isolation, or I just fall asleep even if its middle of summer and light is shining right in my face as it switches off my brain.

I could potentially wear them in bed but that carries at the very least linked to the sleep during day thing that my brain gets confused as my ears are blocked, I compare it to putting a sheet over a birdcage thats what its like for me.

Gingernutty

Do you have a key worker? Suppprt worker? Is there no help from social services? Are you not considered vulnerable? Would sheltered housing be a better option?

dekaspace

Cutbacks is the answer to that, I used to get care workers though I am also high functioning but told no funding anymore, same for mental health side of thing doctor wont prescribe anything.

Panicking a bit today, had my sleep apnea test Tuesday and handed in equipment Wednesday, had 2 calls that day and 1 Thursday from hospital and a letter today saying I have to go to lung ward for a appointment next week.

Gingernutty

Is there no help from a charity? Is there no befriender service? Can you volunteer to get you out and away? Can your GP refer you for help?

whitewing

This could be a penguin if you are feeling sensitive. I found it touching and it may help someone

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2017/nov/04/aisling-bea-my-fathers-death-has-given-me-a-love-of-men-of-their-vulnerability-and-tenderness

Pyxis

whitewing wrote: »

This could be a penguin if you are feeling sensitive. I found it touching and it may help someone

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2017/nov/04/aisling-bea-my-fathers-death-has-given-me-a-love-of-men-of-their-vulnerability-and-tenderness

That was a very good article.

I had braced myself to read it, but it was, in fact, helpful and positive.

jobbingmusician

Lovely lovely article - it does deal with suicide but also explains some coming to terms with it. Made me cry (in a good way though).

dekaspace

Havent been online much due to exhaustion from the cold and dark, noise has got better but now intermittent noise.

did hear 30 minutes of hoovering this morning, which now I think about it has set alarms in my head as I wasn't in when the kids came back from school which is recently only one of 2/3 noisy points of the day for less than a hour, came back at 3.45 and 5 minutes in heard some hustle, 5 minutes ago heard what sounds like a large group of people talking and heavily walking about upstairs and noise has been constant.

Haven't gone up yet due to the exhaustion but I expect like when I have had noisy neighbours in the past the first things they say is "its not us/its a one off/its everyday noise/we hear you/we wear slippers so it can't be us" basically a bunch of excuses, I am a laid back person I think in cases like this all it takes is for them to be a little more aware or caring of other people, I know theres only so much someone can do when they have kids but when I hear them when the kid comes back from school when they walk into the block encouraging the kid to be excited then the kid runs up stairs and into flat that is pure rudeness.

Calmed down now after 10 minutes of pure noise, even so as I say above they should be more aware if not caring that they have neighbours and not act like they are in a house in middle of nowhere with no neighbours.

whitewing

Had my smear today. Now I am having them every 3 years, it even can seem quite dignified. (Posted this as I remember someone saying that they liked to read that people were having their check ups).

Someone too young passed away through natural causes so a few tears shed.

deka, not the same situation but I can get so noise sensitive that my ears hurt in the little channel above my earlobes. After nearly a decade of marriage my DH has just realised I do actually mean it when I say they hurt. DD seems to have the same. So I do sympathise. But I also know that what used to trigger it sometimes doesn't any more if I can reframe the noise. I still notice it but I find it more of a comfort that I am not alone in the world, even though I may be alone in the place.

Everyone, watch this - I don't think it will trigger anyone. WaS, you may like it, but perhaps you would be more comfortable if JM or pyxis watched it first. I watched it by accident and I think it is a brilliant, brilliant film. (The Boy With The Top Knot).
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b09g0hvs

dandy-candy

Not been on for a while, anxiety has been very bad. Tearful and hysterical outbursts that have shocked even myself. I'm so ashamed of the gibbering wreck I've become, I always wanted to grow into a cool and composed elegant lady; instead I've become a hysterical raving mad woman who 50 years ago would have been committed and that is no exaggeration.

I've things I'm meant to be doing and organising but I can't function. DH is stressed because he wants me to sort stuff out but I can't cope, and that in turn is making me stressed. He has Ann attitude that he goes out to work and earns the money, so everything else is on my plate. Chasing builders, organising stuff, bills etc. I make lists thinking it will help but as I'm doing it the tears come and I just put it away. Feeling a terrible burden and can't see an end to this, I just don't know what to do. Sorry for the moan .