Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

tea_lover

Phew indeed hbs, sounds like your manager appreciates how hard you're working and wants to be able to support you.

Code - what's the latest? Have you handed your notice in? (sorry if I've missed that bit, had a bit of a week off everything and haven't caught up properly).

codemonkey

Handed my notice in last week tea. Took a bit of a risk as I don't have my contract yet but heard from the manager that it was with payroll and confirmed a start date with them so I figured it was ok. Still feels like a massive failure but hopefully I'll be happier or at least a bit less miserable.

Any jobs going for you?

tea_lover

That's not a failure at all! You're being proactive and changing a situation that makes you unhappy.....Good for you!

Nothing here.....Can't even find anything to apply for.

System

HBS my automatic response to anyone at work telling me we need to talk is always panic! I always worry i've done something wrong even when i know i haven't. I usually end p asking if they;re going to fire me to be told not to be so silly and that they'll keep me whatever it takes

Glad it wasnt anything to serious and that you're feeling better about it.



I'm currently annoyed as i've put on 5lbs since my meds went up. Haven;t eaten anything different to the usual [penguin] including days when i've been bad and not eaten anything at all [/penguin] so i'm not a happy bunny. Seeing as im no longer hypomanic might ask doctor if i can go back down to the dose i was on before.

Royally peeved at the comments the MP made about anxiety not being disabiling and the whole PIP thing thats going on. Note to self-avoid news

calleyw

Evening all,

Well hugs and squishes and handshakes to all. And extras for MIA's.

Well time to go back to work. But sadly I have no idea doing what and even what I am qualified to do.

AM's work have a vacancy but in the same office and desks next to each other. Nah if it had been in another office might have applied.

House looks like a jumble sale no room seems to be tidy. Now don't get me wrong I will never win awards for my housekeeping skills. But its really starting to annoy me :mad::mad:

And still more stuff to arrive!!!!

Yours

Calley X

elsien

A heads up for a dispatches programme tonight, channel 4 at 10pm about young people with learning disabilities/autism held in secure units.

From the radio times: A special programme by the award-winning director Alison Millar, telling the stories of families whose loved ones are locked away in hospitals, despite promises made by the government in its Transforming Care Policy. This investigation into the treatment that vulnerable young people are exposed to in such institutions highlights the lack of bespoke care provided to meet their complex needs, and questions how best to provide the appropriate care for these individuals as Mental Health Services face increasing cuts.

System

Have a GP appointment week after next. Asking for referal back to MH team as i'm really not happy on my meds. I cannot deal with putting on weight when i already need to lose at least 10 bloody stone to have a healthy BMI. :mad: there are other meds that don;t have such severe weight gain side effects that i want to look into and discuss with a psychiatrist.

I seem to be coping ok with increased hours at work :eek: been on the 28hr ish mark for the past few weeks. Admittedly the hypermania did start around the time my hours first went up but that seems to have calmed down now. Tbh i need the money. Oooh speaking of money this week is the first in many i had money left over from the previous week (due to erratic spending and inability to budget it rarely lasts me a week (get paid weekly) :j so feeling quite proud even if it is only a small victory

whitewing

Well done on the small victory, MU. Big victories are usually a collection of small victories.

tea_lover

I think that's quite a big victory MU! :)

whitewing

I am in major self-sabotage mode.

Feel too fat and ugly to do my assessment tonight. Clothes feel tight on me. Now I know this is just unpleasant (but mild) physical reaction to the stress I am feeling. Out of the smallish class there are only supposed to be two of us being tested today - everyone else will be there doing exactly the same as us but not being tested. I feel panicky because I will be being looked at. By examiners that are very nice and who have assessed me before. If I do fail, I can retake anyway later at no extra cost. But I am angry and stressed about it because I don't feel good enough. This is completely illogical and completely out of proportion as I spoke to the instructor last week and I am fine in terms of being able to do everything I need to. There is always room for improvement but one is not invited unless they are ready.

I am having bad thoughts because I have not practised the moves x number of times (not OCD x). So I started a long drawn out process of logic-ing it out. Now I have got so fed up of even having to logic out unpleasant feelings that I am lying in bed, thinking I should doze off until it is too late to do anything about it. And so I am having more bad thoughts. What a waste of time this is!

How do I get out of this mindset? I want it all to go away.